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whether through addiction which is mostly what im aiming to talk about or other routes..which drugs even after quitting them have changed you for thw worst?for me, it is opiates..i have been clean from them for 6-7 years and the scars they leave on your soul dont seem to ever disappear..they seem to have permanently altered my well-being and even thru exercise and other methods, still dont feel right...i find it very hard to just be content even after years clean..

what about you?
 
I'm a total tea snob. I once got up during a board meeting and berated the CEO for having shitty tea bags on the refreshment trolley
 
I think the 3" scar on my vein may be permanent.

Other than it being on my vein you can't tell it was from thousands of needle pokes. Looks like I cut it from the bicep to the bend in my arm. I can't think of a plausible reason how I would have gotten a cut like that there.
 
SirTophamHat said:
I can't tell you because I haven't quit them yet.
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QTF. I've quit MANY addictions, longgg time opiate, caine, then switched subs + somas, then Kayy, then G.. Now, it's BZD's. I will say benzo's turn me into a fuck if I'm out because I'm scared of another seizure, and my heartrate is thru the roof, but that's it.. The rest I handled and never robbed, cheated, or did things to fuck my karma to get them, if that was even the goddamn question. Sorry, I'm high *Puts on Ray Bans, hits a quick collar pop and walks out the room looking hella cool*.
EDIT; Perma effect, I have a track that will not fade no matter what, and a scar running across it due to an abscess I went to the ER for. As far as I'm willing to go with personal shit, only close broj's know other shit about my past.
 
Alcohol is for me one of the ordinary substances that alters your perception and understanding totally and in so many levels
 
Benzos - pre-existing anxiety/panic attacks/insomnia/seizures were nothing on either the acute WD or the rebound exacerbation/legit risk of death.

SSRI's (Prozac)
So many years later, I'm struggling to repair my life from the fallout of the Manic Psychotic episode it induced.

Opioids - chronic pain + opioid OD's/addiction on med records is awful.

aMT: not in one use, but HEAVY binging (120mg a dose, up to 3x daily, 5/6 days straight for 3 months) led to the same kind of aftermath as using MDMA in the same way, if it was even possible given the immediate tolerance.

EDIT: on a darker, but related, note: an intentional OD on a stimulant caused bruxism and trisma so severe that 8 teeth were destroyed/damaged or loose enough to fall out.
 
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ykm420 said:
QTF. I've quit MANY addictions, longgg time opiate, caine, then switched subs + somas, then Kayy, then G.. Now, it's BZD's. I will say benzo's turn me into a fuck if I'm out because I'm scared of another seizure, and my heartrate is thru the roof, but that's it.. The rest I handled and never robbed, cheated, or did things to fuck my karma to get them, if that was even the goddamn question. Sorry, I'm high *Puts on Ray Bans, hits a quick collar pop and walks out the room looking hella cool*.
EDIT; Perma effect, I have a track that will not fade no matter what, and a scar running across it due to an abscess I went to the ER for. As far as I'm willing to go with personal shit, only close broj's know other shit about my past.
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Remember when you were asking about it and posting pics..

I think drugs in general good bad idk
 
Alcohol definitely fucked me up while i was on it and now i its hard for me to quit the stuff because it's in front of me everywhere i go i can buy it 24/7
 
belfort said:
whether through addiction which is mostly what im aiming to talk about or other routes..which drugs even after quitting them have changed you for thw worst?for me, it is opiates..i have been clean from them for 6-7 years and the scars they leave on your soul dont seem to ever disappear..they seem to have permanently altered my well-being and even thru exercise and other methods, still dont feel right...i find it very hard to just be content even after years clean..

what about you?
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I think once you experience the opiate high, or really any kind of drug induced high, its literally impossible to forget this, when i talk to my dad about my H opiate problem, He says he cant understand it fully, because he claims he has never used any drug (not even pot), so its tough to explain how addiction happens...I just tell him to imagine taking a pill and then you are instantly in a great mood, no aches or pains, motivated to do just about anything, perform well at work, etc...he said it sounds great...and it is, thats the problem, its too good, so of course someone will want to ALWAYS feel like this...thus starting your addiction.

even when someone quits a decade, they NEVER will forget how that drug made them feel, if they can figure out a way so people CAN somehow forget this feeling, I think this would cure addiction right then and there, anything less is just trying every day to overcome the urge to use
 
fizzymk said:
I think once you experience the opiate high, or really any kind of drug induced high, its literally impossible to forget this, when i talk to my dad about my H opiate problem, He says he cant understand it fully, because he claims he has never used any drug (not even pot), so its tough to explain how addiction happens...I just tell him to imagine taking a pill and then you are instantly in a great mood, no aches or pains, motivated to do just about anything, perform well at work, etc...he said it sounds great...and it is, thats the problem, its too good, so of course someone will want to ALWAYS feel like this...thus starting your addiction.

even when someone quits a decade, they NEVER will forget how that drug made them feel, if they can figure out a way so people CAN somehow forget this feeling, I think this would cure addiction right then and there, anything less is just trying every day to overcome the urge to use
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Word up good post.
not exactly way I'm likING to read as I'm gettin off the done but I dug the hole
 
fizzymk said:
I think once you experience the opiate high, or really any kind of drug induced high, its literally impossible to forget this, when i talk to my dad about my H opiate problem, He says he cant understand it fully, because he claims he has never used any drug (not even pot), so its tough to explain how addiction happens...I just tell him to imagine taking a pill and then you are instantly in a great mood, no aches or pains, motivated to do just about anything, perform well at work, etc...he said it sounds great...and it is, thats the problem, its too good, so of course someone will want to ALWAYS feel like this...thus starting your addiction.

even when someone quits a decade, they NEVER will forget how that drug made them feel, if they can figure out a way so people CAN somehow forget this feeling, I think this would cure addiction right then and there, anything less is just trying every day to overcome the urge to use
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That´s very accurate. It´s impossible, you will always remember how cozy, warmth. It´s like everything is where is should be and fill you with warmness and joy. I´m afraid your dad can not possibly understand this. He´s never gone through anything near that..
 
Opiates, but especially IV heroin; the toll its taken on my life, the setbacks, rehabs, halfways, and of course, the permanent scarring from jamming needles into my arms.

IV cocaine, went right along with the dope for me. Took its toll on my arms.

I've also had 3 years of various benzo scripts (and non-scripted habits) in the past, therefore physical and mental addiction. The seizures and the nervous, mental panic from BZD WDs is unlike anything else.
 
Erikmen said:
That´s very accurate. It´s impossible, you will always remember how cozy, warmth. It´s like everything is where is should be and fill you with warmness and joy. I´m afraid your dad can not possibly understand this. He´s never gone through anything near that..
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Yup......unless someone goes thru it, its gonna be very difficult to understand.
 
hangyourhead said:
Opiates, but especially IV heroin; the toll its taken on my life, the setbacks, rehabs, halfways, and of course, the permanent scarring from jamming needles into my arms.

IV cocaine, went right along with the dope for me. Took its toll on my arms.

I've also had 3 years of various benzo scripts (and non-scripted habits) in the past, therefore physical and mental addiction. The seizures and the nervous, mental panic from BZD WDs is unlike anything else.
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I've never used a needle, so I can't comment towards the heroin addiction, but I did have a xanax habit, & me taking hydrcodone & morphine are a walk in the park to get off of compared to me weaning off xanax.......benzos are a vicious pill/pills.
 
This actually great for you! Besides using it more safely you have more changes to get out of it! I would consider yourself quite lucky considering the circumstances
 
I honestly might have to say the ones via the big pharmo companies. Paxil, Strattera… Mood stabilizers… and so on… The SSRI/SNRI I used to be on and off of for years, have affected my brain…. senses and perception.
 
Sorry to hear that. I didn´t know mood stabilizers would change your perception that much. You´ve mentioned routine meds and that´s really something to be concerned as most people I know have no idea about that.
 
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