steewith2ees
Bluelight Crew
Good to hear from you CCF, especially following the fright we all had back in the autumn following that cruel bullshitty post. I have to say tho, you still cause concern, as everytime you pop up you seem to be sporting an injection related injury or have some awful experience to share. We can all sympathise with the stable/relapse merry go round, but without trying to sound condescending isnt it time you try and look at your injecting behaviour, even if you cant permanently stay away from street gear. Over the course of our habits, we all draw ourselves lines that we tell ourselves we wont cross, but we all do it anyway. However, femoral / jugular injecting really is the end of the track - you may survive this sort of behaviour, but even if you do, there is literally nowhere left to go (unless you can find a dodgy phlebotomist whos prepared to resite you a cannula every 48 hours)
Ive had a habit for ten years , but its only over the past 2 that ive seriously started to piss about with IV (one of my lines i said id never cross) Even so, i managed to keep it to a minimum, my usual shopping trip involves aquiring 5 - 10 0.1 bags, after a quick test id crank the first bag and then continue to top up the buzz by chasing the rest, rarely would i inject twice during the same session. By keeping the needles to a minimum, i managed to hold on to the use of the easy sites in the crook of my elbow and my forearms, rotating from left arm to right on consecutive occasions. As soon as my arms started to show wear and tear, id give it a rest for a few weeks to prevent permanent track marks scarring my arms. On the odd occasion where i couldnt guarantee a registered hit, id quickly transfer my shot to a 5/10ml spikeless barrel and plug the fucker, rather than damage my arms in a panic. Far from ideal, but it saved wasting the shot, and as i always use as little citric as possible and due to the infrequency of this ROA, ive manged to avoid bum burn so far
But then i found that i did have a limit, a line i would not cross. Back in October, I managed to blow out part of the basilic vein in my left arm following a missed hit (dont laugh, im sure everyones done it even at simple sites). My arm now looks like a roadmap with all the new veins that popped up as the blood re -routed around the injury, and although I avoided an abcess the site is now thrombosed and rock hard. Instead of making use of all the juicy new lines available to me, it actually made me think about the damage I had done, and I havnt attempted an IV since. I stufffed all my unused works, stericups and citric into spare sinbins and took them all back to the chemist. Ive had some amazing experieces chasing the dragon over the years, and not once have i managed to so quickly and permanently damage myself via this ROA. I hardly used over the christmas peroid, but since new years eve ive managed to achieve some of the best highs (and nods!) since before the drought.
To cut a long winded post to the point, its my opinion that the quality of the gear by me has recovered to pre drought strength, and is pefectly smokable while providing a satisfying effect. I hope your surgery goes well Cherry, but please let this be the last of your horror stories. Apply some HR - Golden crescent no.3 is perfect for smoking, so if you are faced with a lapse, for gods sake fuck the spikes off and have yourself a nice mellow toot. Even with a methadone script, tolerance breaks can be achieved with regards to street gear, and i guarantee you will be able to get high from smoking alone. If you have a genuine needle fixation, deal with that on its own terms, as its not necessarily mutally exclusive to your habit.
Happy 2015 everyone. Lets see if we can keep the RIP threads to a minimum
Stee
