Mental Health Panic Disorder Brought On By Bad Trip

[LaLab21]

I'm posting this just to hear from other people and their experiences.


I've had a deep romance with music my entire life, but I started messing with drugs 3 years ago, mostly ecstasy, weed, and a little bit of sass/acid. And like many people in that scene, I became idiotic with it. To the point where I would pop 4-8 rolls every show/concert I went to...and it wasn't because I "needed" to, but I loved losing myself and just being wild. This past year I really started slowing down and seeing I was getting out of hand, although I had an experience this past April at Counterpoint Music Festival that would change my life forever.


I always tested the drugs I got, however in this particular instance my boyfriend tested a batch a blue rolls we got from a friend. What he failed to notice was that some of them were slightly darker than the others, and only ended up testing a lighter blue one.


On the first day of Counterpoint, I was one roll deep, along with a few blunts here and there. The closing artist happened to be one of my favorites, so I popped another roll just so I could particularly enjoy it. Within 5 minutes I couldn't see straight, I had no perception of time or what was going on around me. My mind would reset every 30 seconds, and I would re-emerge in the same confusion as to what was happening to me. I asked my boyfriend if he would sit down with me in hopes that it would pass, but sitting down only made it worse. In the midst of my mind still resetting, I would find myself falling over or snapping my head back from falling asleep. I finally told him I needed to go back to our campsite, and from there on all I remember on the walk back is snapping in and out of it on the way back and asking him what was happening.


I woke up the next day feeling fine, however once we re-tested the roll, it came back for heroin.


Since Counterpoint, I haven't rolled or really touched any hard drugs for that matter. However recently I've been having crippling panic attacks where I completely lose touch with reality and feel like I'm going to completely lose control, multiple times a day. They seem to be brought on whenever I start to feel the least bit out of it, or essentially how I felt at Counterpoint. That night constantly haunts me, to the point where I've stopped smoking and even drinking. I was prescribed Klonopin, and Xanax, however the feeling they gave me made me flashback to that night and get physically ill.


I am currently seeing a therapist, however I've left out my drug use out of fear I'll shipped away to rehab or something. I guess I just want to know if it gets better....I know it takes time, but this completely hit me out of the blue and I'm starting to lose hope that I'll never be happy/normal again

 

[Teabag Johnny]

I'm posting this just to hear from other people and their experiences.


I've had a deep romance with music my entire life, but I started messing with drugs 3 years ago, mostly ecstasy, weed, and a little bit of sass/acid. And like many people in that scene, I became idiotic with it. To the point where I would pop 4-8 rolls every show/concert I went to...and it wasn't because I "needed" to, but I loved losing myself and just being wild. This past year I really started slowing down and seeing I was getting out of hand, although I had an experience this past April at Counterpoint Music Festival that would change my life forever.


I always tested the drugs I got, however in this particular instance my boyfriend tested a batch a blue rolls we got from a friend. What he failed to notice was that some of them were slightly darker than the others, and only ended up testing a lighter blue one.


On the first day of Counterpoint, I was one roll deep, along with a few blunts here and there. The closing artist happened to be one of my favorites, so I popped another roll just so I could particularly enjoy it. Within 5 minutes I couldn't see straight, I had no perception of time or what was going on around me. My mind would reset every 30 seconds, and I would re-emerge in the same confusion as to what was happening to me. I asked my boyfriend if he would sit down with me in hopes that it would pass, but sitting down only made it worse. In the midst of my mind still resetting, I would find myself falling over or snapping my head back from falling asleep. I finally told him I needed to go back to our campsite, and from there on all I remember on the walk back is snapping in and out of it on the way back and asking him what was happening.


I woke up the next day feeling fine, however once we re-tested the roll, it came back for heroin.


Since Counterpoint, I haven't rolled or really touched any hard drugs for that matter. However recently I've been having crippling panic attacks where I completely lose touch with reality and feel like I'm going to completely lose control, multiple times a day. They seem to be brought on whenever I start to feel the least bit out of it, or essentially how I felt at Counterpoint. That night constantly haunts me, to the point where I've stopped smoking and even drinking. I was prescribed Klonopin, and Xanax, however the feeling they gave me made me flashback to that night and get physically ill.


I am currently seeing a therapist, however I've left out my drug use out of fear I'll shipped away to rehab or something. I guess I just want to know if it gets better....I know it takes time, but this completely hit me out of the blue and I'm starting to lose hope that I'll never be happy/normal again

You just need to get healthy.. It takes some time for your brain to recover. Lay off all the drugs and alcohol for a while. Eat nutrish meals everyday and exercise every morning. If you can, try to add mediation to your routine. Definitely sleep 8 hours a day. Spend a lot of time with the people you love and the people who lift your spirits.

Only take a benzo if you really have to, but never take them daily. If you're getting that weird uncontrollable feeling around people or having panic attacks, just cow-girl it up for a while. It'll get better with some time. Just be sure not to run from the problem and avoid the situations. Just keep exposing yourself to these situations.. You also need to be aware of your internal dialogue. When you having any negative thought, you need to correct it and make it positive. Over time, you'll rewire your brain and defeat all your problems. It's called NLP, I've done it.

I had to quit drugs because of I was feeling like how you described. My brain can't handle the after affects of abusing ecstasy. So, I only use drugs every know and then & definitely in moderation. I may do ecstasy once a year and cocaine a few times a year. I may take benzos a few times a year, and I use Phenibut on a moderate level no more than once a week. Phenibut is my recreational drug.

If you take drugs, don't abuse them. I think you need to take 6 months off and get your head right.