In ego death you can remember what it was like to be a self existing in time, but that sense of separate selfhood has now reached the end of its timeline the point of its (ego) death, so its entire existence has become a memory. Ie in ego death you can remember what it was like to be alive, from the perspective/point-of-view of being dead (non-existent), that is the basic essential feeling of the ego death experience, - the ego death initiate takes drugs and then experiences his own death (the end of his existence)
Death = the *end* of life
And thus your whole experience becomes in that moment only experiencing the ego with no external element for the ego to say, "This is what I am and this is what I am not."
The ego envelopes the couch, the frying pan, the people around you. It is nothing more than a revelation of our nature. This is a fact we can logically ascertain, that the world we experience is nothing more than as we create it and this is in the only way we experience, we sense reality with outward facing organs that send signals to the brain which it then rematerializes. We are connected to external reality and we are at the save time, reality itself.
What we "see" is merely two points within our eye, reality is created by the complex sending of reflected packets of light. You don't see the couch, you feel it hit your retina.
When the normal mind is compromised we are alone with ourselves; immersed in our ego, we become "everything". Our concept of "universe" can be no bigger than the limits of our perception and that perception is limited to one thing.
The ego is a term that exists as a concept, not an object in our scope of reality. There is no litmus test to determine the state if the ego or an ego pulse and blood pressure to see if it is dead. You cannot pluck it up with a pair of tweezers. The only way to know it is (gone) or not is to ask yourself, "was I there for that particular experience, ie NOT as in sleep or coma?"
If your answer is yes, ding ding ding, you had an ego. This does not mean you had an environment or words to speak or memory to recollect or any of the things we associate with ourselves, like fingers and toes, ego and experience can never be separated; it is
the definition of ego. Whatever it is.
There are plenty of times in normal everyday experience where you are day dreaming and your (sense of being where you are physically in reality) is totally gone. The ego is missing class, the ego is not (missing). When you dream that you are someone else, for example, you might say, "I was not myself."
The self (your body) is not the ego, they do not share the same boundary. In Latin or Greek is ego, and in German ich. The ego death, loss of I, does not fit with this philosophical concept or the psychoanalytical concept either.
This is
why the term ego death is just a crappy uneducated blithering phrase that fails to generate real meaning. Choose a word that describes what is going on. It is that simple. Don't force meaning onto words, apply words that describe what you experience.
