soo i was on day 5 yesterday and became discouraged when I realized some of my previous w/d symptoms were replaced with other symptoms, abdominal pain, headache, horrible eye and nose (??) dryness/stinging, sore throat and a feeling that my eyes and brain were swollen. The old ones such as fatigue, feeling of fever, loss of appetite, complete inability to sleep were still there, although cold and hot flashes were gone and the fatigue was quite a lot better. I woke up on day 6 (well, more like I stayed awake until day 6, didn't sleep for 2 days from day 4-6) and I didn't feel any better and became discouraged, having day 5 as my 'I will feel at least slightly normal!" goal day. I had ordered that 30g of kratom to sleep and it helped, but upon taking it I realized that I also caught some kind of other sickness on top of the withdrawal because the sore throat, abdominal pain, head pressure etc remained if not got worse throughout the day. Also, the RLS felt just the same as day 3, complete inability to sleep, and i could not go another night without sleeping. I just can't stand going through the RLS and sleeplessness that I expected to be at least kind of gone by now, on top of a sickness now.
So, i'm trying to figure out a very limited taper plan now. Taking it after being off it for a little, this stuff does NOThiNG and the withdrawal was SO bad, so I know i'm too scared to take the amount I did before or ever use it constantly again. I also realized that kratom was making me manic and very compulsive, on it I feel like I have to compulsive buy, compulsive binge eat, and compulsively smoke basically all at once and there is no off button. I was wondering why I was basically manic buying and eating junk food all year and that was definitely it. Basically what i'm saying is having some time away from it, I realize it's seriously uncomfortable and must have changed with any tolerance. I feel as if taking 1 tbsp or .5 tbsp every second day is now possible after those 5 days