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I'm getting some money soon. I'm worried. Help.

DS_

DS_

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Hey guys and gals,

I've really sorted my life out recently; got a job I enjoy and have managed to REALLY cut down on my drug use. I've not taken amphetamines for a long time after having quite a problem with them, I've hugely cut down on heroin and crack to near abstinent. I had managed 50+ days of complete abstinence from heroin up until a recent relapse but I'm planning to get back on with that. So, overall my drug use of late has been minimized to just drinking on a daily basis but that's the least of my problems being that I only drink 4x cans of 5.2% cider a day.

Now, this job it's going to give me money and soon as I'm doing shift work they've decided to give me pay day off. It's on a bloody Thursday. What an absolute nightmare.

The problem with a week day off with money is that boredom almost always equates to drug abuse. I'll definitely be bored because all my mates are at work, but this isn't my sole problem.

I'm worried about having money and it fucking up my recent good behaviour as I fear, or rather know partially that my good behavior has been largely due to lack of funds. I don't want to start getting high regularly again but I fear I will relapse. Since not using drugs all the time my anxiety has hugely decreased, less paranoid and overall I'm far happier but I know it's hugely possible I'll be ridiculous and trade all this in for a day/night of mindless hedonism.

What do I do?
 
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Get on a train and go to the nearest big city and spend all your money on stuff that isn't drugs! Book the ticket now.:)
 
Oh you're in bristol already, I'll meet you and do something non drug taking if you want. I'm on my best behaviour at the moment too.
 
Unfortunately you've gotta deal with it as best you can.. You've got some spare money, instead of blowing it on drugs, go somewhere, anywhere.

What do you like to do or what interests you? I think the key, or part of the key, a part ive always failed to grasp is theres a void that needs filling, not by work, not by a Mrs but a completely selfish void, something that YOU want to do, its that selfish, fuck you all void that our drug consumption was.. imo...

Mines photography, or it will be once im better.. Every now and then im gonna wonder off for the day and please myself.












Maybe ill take some acid on my days out, but im a selfish druggie dont ya know ;)

Hope Thursday goes the way you want :)
 
Ok this is sensible...contact people like your phone bill provider, gas. electric..whatever you have outgoings with and ask for them to set up weekly thursday payments/direct debits..some will.

Ask work if they can pay you in monthly arears if you are really worried?

Yep do nice things that don't involve drugs..start getting the kit together for a project or hobby you enjoy. Don't know what you like but what about an evening or day class on a Thursday to keep you on the straight and narrow?

Good luck <3
 
Thanks for the advice so far guys. I like the idea of just going somewhere on a whim. I'd really like to do that with someone else though. I'm on for meeting up omen_owen. Shoot me a PM.

Keep it coming. Impressed by the amount of comments in so little time.
 
Oh one more thought..been thinking about this for myself actually but not for everyone...my local charity rescue dog place is over run and under staffed they have asked for people just to take a dog for a walk a few hours a week...I quite fancy that. Maybe something slightly different to the usual!
 
DS_ said:
Hey guys and gals,

I've really sorted my life out recently; got a job I enjoy and have managed to REALLY cut down on my drug use. I've not taken amphetamines for a long time after having quite a problem with them, I've hugely cut down on heroin and crack to near abstinent. I had managed 50+ days of complete abstinence from heroin up until a recent relapse but I'm planning to get back on with that. So, overall my drug use of late has been minimized to just drinking on a daily basis but that's the least of my problems being that I only drink 4x cans of 5.2% cider a day.

Now, this job it's going to give me money and soon as I'm doing shift work they've decided to give me pay day off. It's on a bloody Thursday. What an absolute nightmare.

The problem with a week day off with money is that boredom almost always equates to drug abuse. I'll definitely be bored because all my mates are at work, but this isn't my sole problem.

I'm worried about having money and it fucking up my recent good behaviour as I fear, or rather know partially that my good behavior has been largely due to lack of funds. I don't want to start getting high regularly again but I fear I will relapse. Since not using drugs all the time my anxiety has hugely decreased, less paranoid and overall I'm far happier but I know it's hugely possible I'll be ridiculous and trade all this in for a day/night of mindless hedonism.
What do I do?
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Ah this is a difficult one. My suggestion is this. AIM FOR A GOAL... Something that means something to you; more than anything. Aim for it and do everything in your power to get it eg losing weight (I'm not telling you that you need to lose weight, that's just an example). If you have a goal and a focus - and you REALLY and TRULY focus on it, it will mean a lot n will become more important to you than the drugs. You say you've "sober" time right?! I don't like to say clean, so will so say sober. Well you've this sober time you get yourself a goal and you make sure you get that goal yea.... No amount of money in this whole world will matter so long you got a focus, you know your worth n that it means something in this worth.... all will be accccccccccccce....

Here for you - drop me a PM anytime ok, I'll listen - even if I don't have the proper words to say....

You CAN do this... no room for doubt and no room for CAN'T...

Onward n Upward yeaaaaaaaaaaa.

Evey
 
Take up jogging DS - set yourself a target of 2 miles in 20 mins or something. Or get a book out of the library on improving your memory, or buy a harmonica and learn an instrument. Good luck geezer.

As Roosevelt said "We have nothing to fear but fear itself...and stairs".
 
Yeah, get a distracting hobby that you can do on boring weekdays. Or learn new stuff. I really like inflo's suggestion of doing something volunteery with animals, too.

And hanging around with less-drug-using people is probably a good plan too.. if I'm around Bristol at any point I'll say hello. I'm pretty much teetotal compared to you anyway. :D
 
I'd say buy and start to learn a musical instrument. You'll always have something constructive to do with those spare hours.

I'm happy to help you with all things guitar related if you choose to go down that route.
 
Destroy your debit card a couple of days before and order a new one ;)

If you're into video games buy a few you will enjoy playing.
 
^Video games are a good idea, one of the only things apart from sleeping that keeps my mind off drugs.

I can just start playing FIFA when I feel the urge to take something, I don't notice time passing by and then it's already late enough I can go to sleep. Buy a game where you need to play a lot, either a MMORPG or some sports game, something that will absorb serious hours.
 
smoke weed and play FIFA, I can spend whole weeks doing that, a day off would go in the blink of an eye.Once you start trading players and doing tournaments you'll end up like me. I play all night on my tablet and in class on my iPhone on silent.
 
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smoke weed and play FIFA, I can spend whole weeks doing that, a day off would go in the blink of an eye.Once you start trading players and doing tournaments you'll end up like me. I play all night on my tablet and in class on my iPhone on silent.
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Yeah that's just as pointless an existence as runnning around doing smack though.=D
 
Maybe take up playing pool. It's working for me, I've got thousands of hours experience under my belt as well as some natural abilty for it, so it feels good to execute something you have a skill for and it provides a natural buzz all of its own. Even if you are a complete novice that can soon turn around, ive seen many a hopeless beginner flourish into potting balls from all angles after just a week or two's practice. Havnt played much over the last 10 years, but just recently started playing semi regularly again, my cueing is better than ever, that must be because ive been spending more time watching Ronnie O'Sullivan rather than Alex Higgins. My pot success rate is pretty good now, just the positional side isnt quite spot on consistently enough, a fraction out here or there makes all the difference as to whether you can clear up in one visit, or run out of position and be left with no possible shot to go for.

I'm sure that I subconsciously pick up on and try to emulate the way my favourite players play. The whole Alex Higgins thing of throwing your shoulder and sometimes his whole body into the shot and jumping up on the shot may look dramatic, but its no recipe for consistency, i still go for hammering in the big flashy shots all the time, they are what give me the buzz, i generally dont really care if i win or loose the game all that much, unless its against an opponent that is better than me or at least as good as me or that has regularly beaten me, then i will be forced into playing a more cautious game, and play the percentages, if a pot isnt almost certain to go in, better to put the opponent in trouble and wait for a better chance.
 
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