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Mental Kenny said:
Hold on strong Dan, put a movie on, something to distract you, stay safe buddy
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This. Just gotta ride it out, Dan. Overdoing any opiate is no fun but the stimulating ones have the added bonus of having you all edgy and wired alongside it. Probably preferable to forgetting to breathe whilst passed out on a more sedating opi, mind. Try watching a film or a bit of telly or summat. Play guitar. Edit one of your lil editty things. Mix some tunes. May as well try to get some use out of that jittery energy - help take your mind off it by focussing it on something :)

Mental Kenny said:
Night<3
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Night Kenny <3

Am actually pretty tired myself tonight. Slept terrible last night with all that acidytum booziness. Early night for me tonight methinks. Gonna see if I can squeeze the last two episodes of House of Cards in first though.
 
Just been on New Members Introductions n welcomed a few people n ended up crying n can't seem to do it. Nothing feels right here no matter how much I try nothing feels right on here anymore Sounds stupid but all of those people are real n what if something happens to them? arrrrrrggggg
I'm talking no sense at all.
I can't seem to go on the other threads / sub-forums n post the way I used to.
 
^ That's naturual enough, Evey. People are often surprised how much it affects them when somebody here dies. People often say stuff like "It's only the internet" but it's not. As you say, these are all real people and it's only natural that bonds form. Time is a great healer. A cliche but mainly cos it's true.

(and in pm news, i started on a clear-out today and yours are quite near the top of the list to reply to now. won't be tonight but should be tomorrow)

Shambles said:
Gonna see if I can squeeze the last two episodes of House of Cards in first though.
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Well that plan's scuppered as I can't seem to get the thing to play any more. Is it summat my end or has it just been taken down? If anybody could do me a favour and check to see if the vid is playing here I'd be most grateful :)

(although even more grateful if somebody could just make the bloody thing work for me - most annoying as i was halfway through watching :!)
 
Shambles said:
^ That's naturual enough, Evey. People are often surprised how much it affects them when somebody here dies. People often say stuff like "It's only the internet" but it's not. As you say, these are all real people and it's only natural that bonds form. Time is a great healer. A cliche but mainly cos it's true.

(and in pm news, i started on a clear-out today and yours are quite near the top of the list to reply to now. won't be tonight but should be tomorrow)



Well that plan's scuppered as I can't seem to get the thing to play any more. Is it summat my end or has it just been taken down? If anybody could do me a favour and check to see if the vid is playing here I'd be most grateful :)

(although even more grateful if somebody could just make the bloody thing work for me - most annoying as i was halfway through watching :!)
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I couldn't stop sobbing on Sunday n only knew him a few months. Kept thinking why couldn't it be anyone but Knock. Felt a bit mean for thinking like that though. I used to spend hours welcoming new members on NMI n today I welcomed some n just ended up in tears ago. You're right it's not just the net. I was talking in PM with others about similar the other day.

I've been on chat/forums etc since 1998 n never known this sort of grief until now.

PS: shambles sorry i may have sent you a few PMs. I sent you one not long after you became mod to let you know, as you weren't here, n I
Thought you may have had notifications of PMs so sorry I've sent a few.
Memory like a siv lately n i've sent that many PMs to pol I'm forgetting who I've sent / not sent to. Not a stalker honest lol
 
^ It generally takes a goodly while for such things to really sink in for me. Was a bit in shock t'other night when I first found out but have felt fairly normal today. I'm like this with deaths though. Often takes weeks if not months before the grieving process actually kicks in properly. I presume it's some form of mild denial in the mean time. Just kinda go on as if nothing has happened. I know something has happened but I'm just not set up to react in timely fashion. Well, I suppose I am it's just that my timely is perhaps a lil different to most.

foolsgold said:
just checked it for you its not playing
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Kewl. Well, not kewl but at least it doesn't appear to be a problem at my end. Will have to try to track it down elsewhere. Most irksome they cut it off so soon. Also most irksome is that so many of the torrent sites are playing silly buggers at the moment. Chasing 'em from one mirror (or proxy? whatever the case may be) to another only to find they've been nobbled by some kinda advertising crap (featuring RAR downloads 8)) which I don't trust for one moment. It's as if people expect to be paid for stuff these days 8)

(although as it's a bbc series there's no reason why i should be paying for it as a uk citizen)
 
ColtDan: Steady on mate. Indulging in Benzos to sort an Opi problem sounds like a bad idea. You sound like an early version of my self, you even share the same name. I started with innocent use of stimulants and always used to say "I'm a stimulants guy" while using opiates and benzos but before I knew it I was using both heavily and had completely forgotten about stimulants. So go steady mate as both of those addictions we'll give you an addiction in no time.
 
foolsgold said:
time to leave feels strange not saying night knock but fuck it night knock see you in the morning mate :)
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Don't be fucking silly mate. I know you don't know me but if you need to talk just drop me a message and we'll do that. I've got all the time in the world. I'll even drop you my number if you wanna speak via phone.

One love bro. If your intention is what I think it is then remember if people like me care then it's likely other do too.
 
Been lying in bed since 12 not able to get to sleep. Took some speed at 4pm and thought it would be alright.. nope! Tbf even though I've been doing nothing but trying to sleep for the past 5 hours I've not been getting frustrated like you would on any other sleepless night.

Going to feel it tomorrow I imagine, got to be in at 9.

Back I go to being wide awake.
 
foolsgold said:
time to leave feels strange not saying night knock but fuck it night knock see you in the morning mate :)
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You know we're here for you if you need to talk.
You deal with this the way you feel best n if that means saying good night to him that's ok. It's for no one to judge. I believe, not trying to sway beliefs here this is just me, that those passed are still around n able to "watch over us". It's somewhat comforting though a friend told me once that I needed help for thinking this way lol.

Anyway, I'm going slightly off subject but you've only just found this out n you deal with things your way - we're here for you ok ok just PM one of us or chat it's all ok.

Personally nothing feels the same. When I read certain posts like Kate's I start crying. He should be here now as a crew. Unfortunately he isn't n we must all somehow come to terms with it though God knows how.

Thoughts are with you all tight now.
Evey xxxx
 
FG, if you ever need to chat send me a PM, I'll give you my number if you want someone to talk to. I know you've been having problems, i dont want you to be breaking my heart any more that it allready is. Im kind of like Shambles in his way of dealing with this, i have been in denial, and just not able to accept it, though it did hit me hard emotionally at one point, after being in a state of bewildered and stunned shock for a whole day.
 
Kratom is just too when it comes to relieving trapped nerve pain.

I should've had some this morning but it's becoming enough of a potential problem in the evenings. :|

I can't go and get addicted to a bloody leaf favoured by hippies. It won't do.
 
Uncle Robert said:
Been lying in bed since 12 not able to get to sleep. Took some speed at 4pm and thought it would be alright.. nope! Tbf even though I've been doing nothing but trying to sleep for the past 5 hours I've not been getting frustrated like you would on any other sleepless night.

Going to feel it tomorrow I imagine, got to be in at 9.

Back I go to being wide awake.
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Why are you here and not on Beeg, xvideos, pornhub? That's the only thing you can do when you can't sleep after too much speed
 
Try and give it a break asap Sam. Apparently you can 'get away' with about a months use, before it really starts altering your brain chemistry for the worse. My intended brief binge has gone on longer than planned, its just a matter of timing now, and picking the right day to stop again. This has to be fairly soon, its so easy to rationalise and find excuses to postpone stopping, ive allready pushed it back to next week, as im busy job hunting this week, have a night out on friday, and have interviews and opoen days next week.

The thing is that this time i know i can stop fairly easily, and it will be nothing worse than feeling tired and a bit emotionaly wobbly for a few days. It seems that it gets worse the longer you carry on for though. The void it leaves behind is a bit of a problem though, that void can be hard to fill. I think PC gaming might help, it did last time. Helped pass the time in the evenings.
 
You're probably right that I should give it a rest. I've taken days off here and there and haven't suffered so far, so all's good. I'll just have to watch myself.

As far as adversely affecting my brain chemistry goes, remember that I am on one of the most powerful psychiatric medicines there is, so things are a little different for me. Not that it means I should drop my guard, but it means some of the pitfalls usually associated with kratom withdrawal wouldn't necessarily apply.

As it is, I feel more of a noticeable depressive shift from having had a few drinks the previous night than I do from missing a day with the kratom. I'm sure that's not entirely typical, however.
 
morning people thanks for the love but you got the wrong end stick last night i mean leave as in go to bed not leave as in leave :)

right when i came back yesterday before finding out i pm'ed knock about deleting my account because i had made my mind up to leave the site because it was a matter of i made my mind up to do the same thing and just wanted go away at the minute with the way this has hit me its the last thing on my mind .

bad batch of eph going round again by the way that one with the sweet smell to it that rots your nose out really badly been blowing blood for 5 days nose feels like Tyson has mashed it .
 
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