For incredibly childish reasons, this phrase amused me far more than it should. The mind boggles
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Apologies for ramble. I can't even blame the codeine cos not had any in month. As such, I should probably go pester some other poor, unsuspecting thread![]()

But yeah I think you've got a good point with the maybe/maybe not teetotal thing. I think it's the potential for addiction and fucking my life up that really worries me more than just drugs always being part of my life to an extent. I enjoy them, which I can't really say is the case for alcohol any more, and my brain just goes 'oh god addiction' when I think about my future. But yeah, self control can be developed, it just takes time. I always go all or nothing and get a bit self destructive. OCD does not help matters as far as that goes but I know I've got that under control in comparison to when I was in my late teens/early twenties so surely it can be done with drugs too. Can't think about eliminating them from my life, just don't want to have them take over. Booze should probably do one though, I keep saying to myself I'm only going to drink socially but it's so fucking easy to just go to the offie when I'm feeling low or bored :/ And yeah haha rambling, I am fucking good at that on codeine, dunno why, so your post seemed relatively short to me :D
I always refer to alcohol as the lowest common denominator, never had a good relationship with it. Weed is good because it has anti depressing properties just not a social thing for me though its just a drug i do because it makes my boring life a little more fun. Alcohol is good for social situations for me because of my social anxiety. but alone drinking tends to bring out the worst in me
Yep, I got into drinking because of hideous social anxiety. It helped wonders and also got me over my crippling fear of being sick, but the bad effects now far outweigh the good. Weed did actually help me with my drinking, I was smoking pretty much every day from moving into my shared house in Sept '12 to moving out June last year and during that time I drank rarely. Obviously it's replacing one habit with another, and it did make me kinda lazy but it was better than being angry and tired and guilty and run down all the time.
I swear I'm feeling the effects from this codeine more and more, got the eyes going a bit now n feel a bit sick, but not horrifically. Such a strange day.