THC_LSD_OC
Bluelighter
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- Jan 8, 2013
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hey everyone,
its been a while since i've posted, been in the darkness for a long time.
I built up a habit over the last year that has led me to about a 90-120mg oxy dose at a time, up to 240-300mg every day). always a mix of oral + intranasal usage, never never never iv im scared of needles thank god. I'd also mess around w some dope here n there, but honestly didnt even enjoy it as much as the oxy. To me, H feels dirtier than the oxys. That may be related to social stigma or watever but irrelevant.
Finally, 3 months ago I decided to finally make a change and stop making a trip into the ghetto everyday and switch to suboxone. I know everyone has their own opinions on suboxone and 'replacing one drug w another' but if you can, please leave negativity to yourself cause rn all my focus is getting completely clean off of the suboxone. Suboxone was the only possible thing that could allow me to continue doing well in university without having to withdraw from classes + my important job.
i showed up at the doctor in full WD and he gave me one 8mg strip per day plus a couple extras. I would take 8mg every day (sometimes 12mg) for about 1 1/2 months. In the beginning i didnt feel the need for it every morning, but at this point the compulsion of doing so has developed...wake up w/ watery eyes and fatigue depression etc (still never as bad as w full agonist wd)
Anyways, in the last month and a half of tapering I have gotten down to 2mg each day. Had a couple hiccups along the way (single day relapses) but not for a while now-been abt a month. I am on my last two weeks of suboxone now (itll be 3 1/2 months total usage, every day).. Saw the doctor for the last time yesterday and got my 7 2mg tablets to last the next 14 days.
Therefore, I am on 1mg sub each day now.
By the end of the day im always feeling achy and tired, so idk how im feeling about going completely off of them, but its happening whether i like it or not-both my parents and doctor feel this is the right time.
I have a buncha clonidines 0.01mg eeeach to help w the withdrawal once i'm off them completely. I can also get my hands on alprazolam if any of you think thats helpful. I smoke a good bit of weed, which im told will help somewhat with the wtihdrawals.
I apologize for the long writing, I just could really use some guidance in getting off of these damn things and want to be as detailed as possible. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. More likely than not, I am going into a 7 day detox program once my prescription runs out, followed by about 3 days a week of 9-5 all day long therapy/substance abuse counseling.
****the whole point of this is, do you guys think that w/ my sub usage i will experience withdrawal once i stop? i will be using 1mg for the next 2 weeks and then im done. I fear that if i feel any type of withdrawal, i will simply go find some oxys to stop feeling it.
So basically im asking, what personalized plan do you think will help ease withdrawal the most + how long do you think it will last? im planning on doing it during a long weekend and just hope thats enough. thank you all so much
its been a while since i've posted, been in the darkness for a long time.
I built up a habit over the last year that has led me to about a 90-120mg oxy dose at a time, up to 240-300mg every day). always a mix of oral + intranasal usage, never never never iv im scared of needles thank god. I'd also mess around w some dope here n there, but honestly didnt even enjoy it as much as the oxy. To me, H feels dirtier than the oxys. That may be related to social stigma or watever but irrelevant.
Finally, 3 months ago I decided to finally make a change and stop making a trip into the ghetto everyday and switch to suboxone. I know everyone has their own opinions on suboxone and 'replacing one drug w another' but if you can, please leave negativity to yourself cause rn all my focus is getting completely clean off of the suboxone. Suboxone was the only possible thing that could allow me to continue doing well in university without having to withdraw from classes + my important job.
i showed up at the doctor in full WD and he gave me one 8mg strip per day plus a couple extras. I would take 8mg every day (sometimes 12mg) for about 1 1/2 months. In the beginning i didnt feel the need for it every morning, but at this point the compulsion of doing so has developed...wake up w/ watery eyes and fatigue depression etc (still never as bad as w full agonist wd)
Anyways, in the last month and a half of tapering I have gotten down to 2mg each day. Had a couple hiccups along the way (single day relapses) but not for a while now-been abt a month. I am on my last two weeks of suboxone now (itll be 3 1/2 months total usage, every day).. Saw the doctor for the last time yesterday and got my 7 2mg tablets to last the next 14 days.
Therefore, I am on 1mg sub each day now.
By the end of the day im always feeling achy and tired, so idk how im feeling about going completely off of them, but its happening whether i like it or not-both my parents and doctor feel this is the right time.
I have a buncha clonidines 0.01mg eeeach to help w the withdrawal once i'm off them completely. I can also get my hands on alprazolam if any of you think thats helpful. I smoke a good bit of weed, which im told will help somewhat with the wtihdrawals.
I apologize for the long writing, I just could really use some guidance in getting off of these damn things and want to be as detailed as possible. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. More likely than not, I am going into a 7 day detox program once my prescription runs out, followed by about 3 days a week of 9-5 all day long therapy/substance abuse counseling.
****the whole point of this is, do you guys think that w/ my sub usage i will experience withdrawal once i stop? i will be using 1mg for the next 2 weeks and then im done. I fear that if i feel any type of withdrawal, i will simply go find some oxys to stop feeling it.
So basically im asking, what personalized plan do you think will help ease withdrawal the most + how long do you think it will last? im planning on doing it during a long weekend and just hope thats enough. thank you all so much