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The EADD a trifle annoyed thread.

going back to work after vacation. sucks but has to be done.

i just hope it will be over fast so i can get back to sleep. holidays mess with my sleep cycle. and my drug cycle
 
I'm a trifle annoyed that I've gone and got myself addicted to oxy. Well, oxymetazoline, to be exact.

It's an inexpensive off-the-shelf nasal decongestant that cures a bunged up nose in seconds. Only trouble is, it causes rebound congestion if used for more than a week or so continuously. Serves me right for not reading the leaflet I suppose. :\
 
curious_24 said:
I'm a trifle annoyed that I've gone and got myself addicted to oxy.
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Just for a second, you had me there! :D

I'm pretty wound up about the fact my weed dealer isn't going to be around for 'a couple of months'. Pretty sure that means a custodial sentence, so I feel bad for him more than anything, but he's such a great contact that for the past eight years I've rarely gone elsewhere.

Resisted the temptation to buy damp 'taxi driver' weed thus far. Will I hold out for a couple of months, however?
 
lurching said:
Get some online, Sam?
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He's not in Holland like you man.

I doubt finding weed in a place like Manchester would prove hard though, probably just a hassle given the type of dickheads prohibition forces you to deal with, seriously on several occasions the mere thought of having to interact with some some baseball cap wearing "propa dro blud innit" type just sent me straight to borderline alcoholism, fuck that just head straight to the pub
 
Yeah, it's the dickhead / hassle element that makes it a task. That's why I've stuck with the same middle-aged guy for so long.

You can pretty much stop any kid on a bike and get hold of something, but playing their gangsta games and putting up with their 'street' lingo is another matter.

The shop round the corner from me used to sell a bit, but I haven't caught the son on duty since I've been looking for him. They like me though; I keep their booze stocks ticking over.
 
Vaguely annoyed as I woke up from a nap just now to have Mum accuse me of taking her drugs because I'd had a nap and drinking her fizzy water, despite seeing me coming home with my own fizzy water and drugs earlier.

Yes mother, your metacam and hormones are exactly what I am looking for.
 
At least your mum didn't accuse you of going anywhere near the mayonnaise cos then there would be trouble for sure.
I'm mildly annoyed that the girl in the flat upstairs isn't light on her feet as it always sounds like a heavyweight boxer is stamping around upstairs.
 
Oh god yeah, if it'd been the mayo I wouldn't be here typing this now
 
Dunno. Sometimes it's hard to figure out what to say. That's pretty normal, no?

I'm always typing replies on Facebook/here/twitter and deleting them.
 
Is true, for sure. How do you get past that though? How do you make a thing you want to say and want to left said?

Without having to get horrendously drunk in between times that is.

That is the bit that breaks me.
 
Eh, sorry, you're asking the wrong person! I'm shite at expressing anything meaningful, both online and in person. :/
 
You too?!? Blimey. Whoulda thunk it. That's almost spooky so it is.

Thing that I don't get is that am great in person and great online, and am surprisingly great at both in reality too... so why the disconnection?

Why do I have 142 "Friends" yet not one single actual friend at the same time?

Am a trifle annoyed at the fact I've been "contemplating suicide" for the last fortnight and have yet to find one single reason against. This cannot be right. Am not that bad. Am just not. The fact am still alive kinda proves that. Is all such a mess. Point of any of this is...?!? I struggle to even manage self-pity today so - really - what is the point? :\

Point is to be a trifle annoyed at the next thing is all. And the next thing after. Not too much either side. Just a bit. Measure it out. Is mild annoyance the best I have to look forward to now? Y'know I kinda suspect it is.

Expression I can do in person and online. People who give a shit far greater removed. I strongly suspect I'm far from alone in that :\
 
Shambles said:
Am a trifle annoyed at the fact I've been "contemplating suicide" for the last fortnight and have yet to find one single reason against. This cannot be right. Am not that bad. Am just not. The fact am still alive kinda proves that. Is all such a mess. Point of any of this is...?!? I struggle to even manage self-pity today so - really - what is the point? :\
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Crap, sorry to hear that. And you're not bad at all - you're great. :)

Shambles said:
Point is to be a trifle annoyed at the next thing is all. And the next thing after. Not too much either side. Just a bit. Measure it out. Is mild annoyance the best I have to look forward to now? Y'know I kinda suspect it is.
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No, it's not the only thing to look forward to. There's lots of awesomeness too.

Shambles said:
Expression I can do in person and online. People who give a shit far greater removed. I strongly suspect I'm far from alone in that :\
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The key phrase here is "far from alone", yes?
 
Shambles. <3 Don't do anything of the sort, because you'd be sorely missed, by a lot of people. I'd also have to somehow get to Wales, for your damn funeral. ;) I've had such thoughts, far too often, but you know you can plod on. You know where I am, man.
 
swampdragon said:
Crap, sorry to hear that. And you're not bad at all - you're great. :)
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Why yes, yes I am. So why?

Is okay. don't want nor expect an answer. If I can't see it I very much doubt anybody else could. But why can't I? Above and beyond lack of arsedness, that is. I have zero interest in suicide but cannot for the life of me think of on single thing against it. This cannot be healthy. This cannot be good :\

swampdragon said:
No, it's not the only thing to look forward to. There's lots of awesomeness too.
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Might be. Might not. Am pretty much committed to it one way or t'other but "awesomeness" really does not crop up on the horizon. Would be a lot to ask. "Not shit" would also be great. Also unlikely though. How often can you jolly yourself along? How much? Who cares?

swampdragon said:
The key phrase here is "far from alone", yes?
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Yes. It is. Which is what makes it all so very fukkin odd. I can't do what comes natural cos would hurt actual people. People I've never even met. People I have met would give nary a fuck cos they be immediate family and... just and... But real people now come into play. But don't. Is an odd feeling to say the least :\

But whatever it is, am not doing owt 'bout owt either way. Not where I am right now. But the fact that it matters so little to anything or anyone above and beyond people it means little or nothing to is kinda worrying. Or maybe that's just me...

Probably is. Genuinely have no idea. Really is time for me to rediscover civilisation. Just can't live otherwise. Not for long anyway. Rural idyll, one careful owner...
 
@shambles

You are loved around here your the don the wisdom with the wit and expierence that has helped and been a mate and a friend to countless bl'ers on this site for years i cant imagine what your goin thru i dont have the first idea but i have contenplated suicide for more selfish reasons than you id imagine but you are smarter than that i hope in time ur outlook improves.
Your numero uno around here
 
That might not be a bad idea, mate. I reckon I'd lose the fucking plot, living all the way down there. Perhaps some city life is what you need. I recommend Manchester. :)
 
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