Bupropion 150mg xl (Wellburtrin) RUINED MY EFFING LIFE
Okay so on 19th of June, I was sitting on my back porch talking to a friend I haven't talked to in a while. (years) we had a LONG convo about the past and all this shit that happened back in the day (around 2007)
and the next thing I know I'm sitting on the couch in my house with my mom yelling at me.
She asked me where I was and I told her I was downtown (which was relevant to what I was talking to my friend about as we used to hang out downtown all the time)
She didn't believe me at first but I kept telling her that's where I was, over and over and she started getting really mad and then i was like, wait i actually dont know what im talking about. and then I realized My head hurt really bad and I think I may have had a concussion.
My phone was NO where near where it should of been when i was talking on it.
Looked like it got kicked across my back porch.
My mom texted my dad to tell him that I was acting really weird and she didn't know why. I called my boyfriend and I told him that I think I hit my head on the porch and he insisted on calling ambulance no matter how much i begged him not to. They got there and I really still didn't want to go but they told me I really should, if I had a concussion or a blackout and i'm in pain. (I know I hit my head on the ground, bc there was a concussion and the scratches on my knees and arm indicate the way i landed....not to mention how much my neck hurt) the people in the fucking ambulance were huge assholes, trying to trigger seizures (which, idk might be mandatory) but as they're doing that I start convulsing. and they were like "why are you doing that?" and i'm like "I'm not the fucking paramedic, you tell me" I wasn't trying to be rude, but I was brain fried basically at this point. Next thing I know, I'm throwing up in the E.R, and after that I'm in a MRI or something.... I barely remember that. THE next thing I remember its about 9-11hr later and I'm laying in a hospital bed, apparently I got moved from the ICU to the E.R to a normal room. My boyfriend was there, but I could barely realize that it was him..I almost felt like I didn't even know him, like I just met him for the first time.
They did a urine drug test, it came up positive for METH. There was no way it was meth, i know for fact
So, I got diagnosed with
New onset seizures
Methamphetamine overdose/abuse
Anorexia/bulimia
They basically held me hostage for a few days (happy fucking 21st birthday) so they have time to call Children protection services on me. (they didn't do a more comprehensive test, or anything)
and my BMI was only 16 because of the Wellbutrin.... they didn't believe that though.
Every nurse was a raging cunt to me after finding out that I was a "drug addict" and now my daughter has been taken from me and the reasons are
"use of controlled substances"
"leaving child with unsafe caregivers" (my mom, while I was having multiple seizures...Like I had a choice. Besides, shes not "unsafe" she has an opened DHS due to her husband yelling too much. No one gave me a guideline or rules or said don't leave your daughter with your mom bc of blahblahblah. ALL i've seen is a family skill builder at my house)
"unsolved mental health issues"
So anyway, the min I get out of the hospital, i have to go straight to dhs and the next day was court... maybe it was they same day, I can't remember. A lot of that was blurry.
I was so fucked up due to the Keppra, Wellbutrin, Seizures, etc. The Keppra was making me so fucking pissed off at everything and I couldn't even keep a straight head until I got off it... Once I realized that the medication was keeping me dumb and confused I stopped talking it. (didn't need it anyway, as I've had no seziures since the 19th/20th of June)
I have no recollection of a lot of the stuff that happened and since then I honestly feel like my memory is a lot more fucked up than it used to be (due to my A.D.D)
I really don't recommend trying to get high off of Wellbutrin.
I don't really even recommend taking it at all. (DO Not DRINK WITH THIS DRUG EITHER, PLEASE! and no, I wasn't on ANYTHING. not even booze, but booze can make seizures more possible.)
choking on your own vomit is less fun than it sounds (the only thing I can really remember vividly)
I had about 3-6, possibly more seizures that night and one of them I turned blue during it.
Can't remember what papers I signed, Cant remember who I said WHAT to. I can't remember shit.