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The I'm Fucked Megathread: Gobbbad with a Saudi

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Pagey said:
That's awesome it helped you as well :) yeah, I'm basically just realising how much gear has transformed me into a sort of shell and has taken absolutely everything about me away - and I really hate this person it's turning me into so I need to push her away before it's too late.
We can be happy without it <3
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Yes, with my first habit I got on a reducing methadone script - which was relatively painless until I got down below 10mg/day. Then I did a load of mushrooms one night and I really bared my soul to my junkie self and didn't like what I saw. I felt suffocated by the addiction and I actually envisioned myself drowning with a methadone millstone around my neck. Then I started doing Es again and as I said, I would completely forget about my meth for several days afterwards. This taught me just how psychological an addiction to gear can be - even much of the physical withdrawal is actually psychosomatic as far as I'm concerned (doesn't make the pain any less bearable mind..)

So enjoy the rest of your trip and I hope you can stay positive....<3
 
Funkadelica said:
That is truly something to hold on to <3 Keep those positive thoughts as close to you as much as you can :)
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Thank you <3

F.U.B.A.R. said:
I really bared my soul to my junkie self and didn't like what I saw.
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That's exactly what's happening right now. I hate who gear has turned me into. It's not me, and I want to be me again.
It's wonderful it helped you so much. You completely off methadone now?

And thank you - I really hope this lasts as well. I never wanna go back to my junkie self, ever again.
 
That's great Pagey :)

I've never had a proper full on psyche realisation. Some insights sometimes, but nothing that's stuck with me. They come when you don't expect it I guess.

Nausea corner over here, 4-FMA comedown and GBL. Feeling... fucked. Too fucked, I'd rather like to have a shower and curl up in my pyjamas now, but want to wait until I'm not so wobbly. So if I'm stuck here, fucked, I might as well be happy about it. Smiles and fucked snoo to everyone.
 
Pagey said:
It's not me, and I want to be me again.
It's wonderful it helped you so much. You completely off methadone now?
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I did get off it completely for a couple of years, but then I got myself another habit. I've now been on MMT for a good 6 years, but am reducing again - slowly...

So you've got to listen to what you've told yourself tonight and try to keep the positive glow alive. Perhaps small but regular doses of AMT could help keep your spirits up. But don't go back to the gear straight away - It gets harder and harder to knock it on the head with each subsequent habit.

Good luck :)
 
WithMyLife said:
That's great Pagey :)

I've never had a proper full on psyche realisation. Some insights sometimes, but nothing that's stuck with me. They come when you don't expect it I guess.
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It is :) I really really hope this lasts...I need it.

F.U.B.A.R. said:
I did get off it completely for a couple of years, but then I got myself another habit. I've now been on MMT for a good 6 years, but am reducing again - slowly...

So you've got to listen to what you've told yourself tonight and try to keep the positive glow alive. Perhaps small but regular doses of AMT could help keep your spirits up. But don't go back to the gear straight away - It gets harder and harder to knock it on the head with each subsequent habit.

Good luck :)
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Good luck with everything mate - just remember that if you were able to do it once and get off it once, there's no reason why you wouldn't be able to again <3

Yeah I really need to make this stick with me. At least I'll be able to re-read these posts once it wears off and remind myself of the feeling and of how important it is not to turn back to gear :)
 
<3 Well this has been a thoroughly enjoyable evening I must say. Rather unexpected and still flying high =D Aaaaaand I have whisky to open for when things wind down. Good times all round =D<3
 
i tried coming on here for 1st time the other night on MDA & ket but it just wouldnt work lol FAIL ahhh well im on the pirate tonight sailing the saturday sea's :D
 
^ Nice man. Pirate haha. What's is with this term? Really don't get it haha....Would love to try MDA. Really would. I'd like to think this 6-apdb is somewhere similar but I doubt it will be like the real thing!
 
^ I know! I spent a while wondering what the fuck pirate was before it finally clicked. Tis a good name. I'd like to be sailing the seas tonight too.... should have got some meph, sorry, pirate instead of crappy 4-FMA. Mind you, if I'd had meph I'd almost certainly be up all night tonight too, so maybe 4-FMA is good harm reduction tech. Meh. I'm sure I'll be glad come Monday morning that I didn't go treasure hunting yarrrrr me mateys
 
^ Haha good luck mate. Nice way of putting it haha. Really doesn't sound like that 4-FMA is for you. Hopefully you find the one you're looking for :)
 
I think pirates a good word for it lol. Yh im very lucky myself to have access atm to the MDA . I was looking for some since moving bk to uk 6 years ago. A friends friend found bag of it alongside bag of MDEA which been sat there almost a decade. It still appears and works as if it was fresh out the lab lol fucking amazing , 6apb i can now say is verry far from MDA in many aspects
 
Cheers :) The 4-FMA wasn't really that bad, just this trippy comedowny thing is annoying me. I think it's mostly worn off -- most of the pictures have gone back into their frames :) Just compared to meph... well. I am slightly partial to meph. MEOOOOOWW!!

Right, screw it, I need a shower before it's the middle of the night, hopefully it won't be too much of an adventure.


Nice meerkatmonster! That's a very nice drug find.
I've not had MDA, wouldn't mind giving it a whirl one day but it's not high up my to do list.
 
Bloody hell MDEA as well! You are one lucky one. Haven't tried that either but heard it's rather sedating? Some of this pills in the 90's I believe had a mix of all 3 8o Can't even imagine haha. Well man I'd say 6-apdb is far from 6-apb so perhaps it's closer to MDA in some respect but still definitely can imagine it not being closely the same, judging by stories I've heard =D

^ I'm sure your shower will be just fine :D Showers are always good on stims. You have no benzos or booze to relax you a bit?

Edit - Ahhh whisky is now cracked open. It's going very, very well with the feelings. Actually things are getting more and more visual hehe. Good times <3=D

Double Edit - Holy shit waaaay back up again hahaha =D=D<3
 
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=D Nice! PV I'm guessing the true MDPV? Have had a-PVP before but didn't entirely enjoy it. Scales were fucked at the time though and didn't realise so was probably going a tad overboard which is partially down to it perhaps

Jesus the whisky has put me on to level of fuckedness not felt with this stuff before. It's utterly amazing =D<3 I have found my new favourite :D

A whooooooooole differenmt level hahahahaah =D=D=D=D=D

Edit - Ok I'm ubberly fucked now. Before I forget I'd like to try jot down how this feels. So, bearing in mind I'm 4 hours into my 6-apdb experiece, I love drinking on MDMA. I haven't touched any alcohol until just the past 20 mins or however long it's been. On MDMA I just feel happy and fucked. With thois, I'm happy, feel so much euphoria, the music is on a differnet scale and feel so fucking alive =D I just want to meet everyone in the world hahaha =D<3 Absolute MUST for a club!
 
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Shocking I know but couldn't help myself, back on the whisky and lured into a few wee lines. Sun is shining and it's hot outside. Fucked once again =D<3 Not ideal as I have go to my mates BBQ in an hour. Oh well I'll play the pretend drunkard role :D Strange one this, next day redosing seems to work really well.

^ Pagey much agreed =D<3
 
Funkadelica said:
Shocking I know but couldn't help myself, back on the whisky and lured into a few wee lines. Sun is shining and it's hot outside. Fucked once again =D<3 Not ideal as I have go to my mates BBQ in an hour. Oh well I'll play the pretend drunkard role :D Strange one this, next day redosing seems to work really well.

^ Pagey much agreed =D<3
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Sounds lke you're having a good day =D...

re the MDA v 6-APDB thing, I don'tthink it'sthat similar, but as i said, my brain wasn't in th best state to be testing a serotogernic drug a the time I tested it, maybe if i hadn't been hammering meph all week it would have given me more of the MDA feel and stimulation.

The one thing that was remarkably similar to MDA was the visual aspect, as I said in my "report" on the 6-APDB thread, this was very similer, in that you ntice things that can't possibly be realy, and you even reach out to touch them....I was watching all these little creatures building a new civilisation, building, working together, and it took me a long time t come out of that and realise it was a bt of the woodgrain in the panel door next to me, reaching out and touching imaginery jewelllery. Wasn't around people, would have been interestign, and I also Funkadelica,believe this would be a great party drug....

The visuals weren't as intense as the old MDA pills visuals, but Snowballs, double-doves, and a couple of others were quite high dose pills. i wonder what the dose would be to get close to 200mg MDA?
 
Yeah man absolutely great day so far haha =D<3 This just grows on me each time. No scattiness on redosing, like when you do MDMA two days in a row. It's just so clean and smooth. Didn't weigh out my lines but if I could guess it would have been around 30-40mg all together. Perhaps a tad more. Would say this is ideal for a festival terms of longevity. Bear in mind I am drinking though so maybe the stimulation is smoothed out. Fucking fantastic combo though.

Aye that's interesting how you've had the visuals. So far they have been fairly minor for me. Odd morphing, wavy surfaces etc but then again haven't concentrated on them too much. Music is just sooooooooo good on this. My favourite experience is the MDMA LSD combo, just for the music experience. I just wonder what a wee tab would do here...

Can't even comprehend how 200mg MDA would be haha and those snowballs, heard all about them haha. Judging from last night mate, it sounds like you have a lot of experience, I would definitely dose higher than 100mg. I reckon 120 will be just great. Can't wait to give this a shot on my next party adventure =D<3
 
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