15th Issue Heroin Discussion v. Be the Death of Me

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^I have friends who insist on carrying their little "junkie kit" with them, but I always just keep the bare minimum....I'm not getting charged and going through 2 years of supervised urines and weekly groups for getting caught with residue on a spoon...I used to get searched on the average once a month....and they always went through everything! but some people I know, have just kept all kinds of shit on them on their bags and pockets for 5 + years and never gotten in trouble....I don't even like letting people in my car that I dont know what they have with them....It's just so easy to pick up a possession charge for basically nothing!
 
Yeah, bare minimum indeed. I always have fresh water with me as well so the spoon gets wiped squeaky clean after every use, and since I cold shoot, I don't have to concern myself with soot residue, etc.

In all the time I've been copping I've never gotten pulled over on my way, or after receiving the goods. I obey every single traffic law, no matter how small because it's those one's that people think are so minor, like slowing down but not stopping completely at a stop sign unless it says "stop all the way", that could possibly get you stopped.

If I did get stopped for just a routine traffic stop, I doubt the cop would have probable cause to ask to search my vehicle but in minimizing risk, I actually made secret compartments inside of my backpack that are virtually undetectable. I don't carry thousands of paraphernalia items or multiples of things I really don't need. I travel light and with what I feel is absolutely necessary.
 
around here we usually just have stash pockets in our clothes, lol. they work well when done right.....

but on a sidenote, i got damn lucky tonight.

i decided to party with my cousin and some people tonight that involved alot of great coke, crack, adderall, xanax, valium, weed, and dope...all because i brought weed that my friend gave me for free....right on.

too bad I havent slept since thursday night......
 
I used to always try to bring down only as much as I was gonna spend maybe like plus ten bills for food & drink too but one time I only had two 50 dollar bills on me plus a twenty and I basically had to ask this random ass puerto rican guy who had the stuff if he had change because I needed the twenty for gas. And for like a split second him and his boy were just lookin at me and I know they were probably just contemplating whether to rob me or not but I had had a homeless guy who knew them with me so they actually were cool about it and did a fair trade.

Idk I feel like its 50% who you know, 40% the look you keep on your face, and 10% how the dealers finincial situation is at that point in time that all factors into your probability of being robbed. I always just kept kind of an extremely dead look on my face, not so much angry or threatening, just emotionally dead.

And I feel like a lot of people in the ghetto respect people like that more than the white kids that go down there with baggy ass jeans acting like they are hard and boys with the dealers.
 
I never go to the ghetto,i never bring rigs or anything with me when I cop,and I never do any dope till I get home safe,guess how many times ive been arrested for dope,never,but most people dont have the self control to do this,it just isnt worth it to me. Ive been doing dope for 17 yrs,and thats my routine,maybe im just lucky or its the minimizeing the risks.
 
Some people would rather shop at Costco than 7/11

One may be more convenient, but if you like saving money you are willing to pay that membership fee.

Except in heroin's case the fee is just stress really.
 
^ Damn, that sucks.

I ended up getting some fire dope through the Library Nodder. He was a little spooked at first since I went up to him with the line "what you nodding on?" followed by "got any more?"

He actually gave me a better deal than any of the other people I deal with around here, and he was more than happy with the half bag I tossed him for helping me out. I was high from like 2pm until midnight when I passed out, so definitely good stuff considering I just did 1 1/2 bags. The itching was actually a little out of control, even with taking a benadryl, and that's one of the reasons why I like oxy for.
 
the first time I was ever at a homeless shelter, I was 20, living with my parents, right at the begininng of my dope career, I was doing all sorts of shady shit to my poor family man, selling my dads tools, pawning sterling silverware....

I came home one night and my mom had locked me out....It was wintertime, about 11 at night, and she said. "I couldn't stay there, but she'd drive me to the local homeless shelter"....It was all to teach me a lesson I guess....My mom has been "sober" in AA for like 25 years and started going to Al=anon when she figured out I was starting to fuck around with heroin and shit....So she had all kinds of people feeding her all this "tough love" shit...

Anyway, she must have talked to the shelter and worked it out with them because theyd normally not let you come in that late at night....It was on the grounds of the state prison in RI(theres only one prison).....

I had just started with the dope and I snuck a few bags in....when I checked into the shelter they took a polaroid picture of me sitting there, lookin a little doped out, wearing a big oversized flannel with a duffel bag....

I never even saw that picture until I found it in a stack of photos at my moms house a few weeks ago....I don't how the fuck she got it because it was supposed to be a picture for the files at the shelter...IDK

I remember, back then, just thinking that, all the people staying at the shelter were the biggest fucking losers! Some of them were acting all like they were "the shit" or something! walkin around and running their mouths!....It like, you're 40 yearfs old living in a homeless shelter and you're talking shit?! Then, there were people who were just apathetic and dull, aspiring to do nothing, just taking up space in the world...and a Lot of 'em were getting disabilty, 600 a month or somethin like that, theyd get it on the first and then theyd spend it all in a week on whatever, and then go back the shelter for 3 weeks broke....

there were a few junkies and crackheads there.... There's this particular breed of hood-rat that drinks cheap $4 a pint vodka and buys crack 10 dollars at a time....and It's like theres millions of these guys just running around the inner-city all over the country!....

These are the guys you see pan-handling, posted up downtown somewhere, just asking everybody for money! Or, hiding outside a store to ambush you when you come out!....Not to be racist, but this guy, the hood-rat archetype...always kind of looks the same:

It's always a tall black guy wearing rattie clothes, wearing a beanie(usually red or with an NBA logo), missing a few teeth, slurring his words and sayin "How are you folks doin tonight?" when they panhandle.....

I used to laugh at these people and think they were the biggest fucking losers! How could they not figure SOMETHING out?! I was 20 then and I never thought I'd still be chasin heroin 10-12-14 years later! I thought I was just gonna magically stop and forget about dope one day! I guess it doesn't really work like that, unfortunately....

Now, in my 30s, I can see how all the back and forth sleeping at shelters, being outside all day long, never really being able to afford any decent clothes or shoes anything...the booze, the drugs, the rain, the sun, the snow....It all just eventually wears on you and stop wanting to do anything, you basically just give up and become resigned to that life...

If you have no family or friends or anybody to help you at all, and you're relying on the system, its hard to get your head above water, especially if youre strung out, or crazy or both....and your self-esteem starts to go and you gotta fight just to feel okay with yourself

I just rambled all over the place, but a lot of what you're writing is bringing back memories, man....I don't know your situation, but do whatever you gotta do to get back in your families good graces(if you're not)....If it hadn't been for my family bailing me out of the shit countless times, I'd definitely be dead or in prison....

I don't know how this happened to you man, but it sounds like you pissed a lot of people off at the same time....

I'm sorry, none of my business but I hope you can pull yourself out of it....I know its boring, but if you start networking with these career "library nodders", you'll be that guy gettin somebody bags 10 years from now! shit!
 
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BlueHues said:
I don't know how this happened to you man, but it sounds like you pissed a lot of people off at the same time....

I'm sorry, none of my business but I hope you can pull yourself out of it....I know its boring, but if you start networking with these career "library nodders", you'll be that guy gettin somebody bags 10 years from now! shit!
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That's not the case at all. I just didn't want to rely on friends to let me crash at their places. Only a few of my friends have their own apartments, so if I was looking for a place to crash most of my friends would have to ask their parents if I could stay there and I wasn't about to go down that route. I didn't want any handouts so I decided to build myself up from the ground up. I'm trying not to jynx it but I have a great opportunity in front of me to get myself back on my feet really quick.

As for the library nodder, I turned him down the next day when he offered me a few bags to return something, so I don't see myself turning into him anytime soon. I've been doing dope long enough without being like that so I think I can hold on and keep my shit together. Sorry for doing dope once a month I guess.
 
Ohhh God, the parents lol. Nothing like getting threatening voicemails from a father who finds out you shot up his daughter 8)...
Or getting twisted on dope, booze & xanax, staying at a friend's for the first time, then getting run out the next morning because you get lost in the hallway and they wake up at 6am to you standing in their doorway just staring.

I've been pretty clean the past 13 months, though I'm still not sure if I want to stay off it :\. My use never got too crazy, so I think I'd be OK doing it a few times a week, but IDK if I want to risk that turning into an everyday thing. Being in a small city down south the dope is typically shitty & expensive compared to what you guise get up north, but hearing about NJ/NY (I plan to move to Brooklyn in a few years) makes my mouth water aha.
 
yeah it only took me 1 1/2 hours to type this post not inclkuding the 10000 "m's

Welderman said:
I still do that even off dope. It's a reflex.
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thats why police dont ever belive you when you say "i swear to god, or i swear on my dead mom, i didnt do it"..cause people lie to them even when its not needed

Mzral said:
Yeah, I mean I've always been on top of knowing where my gear is. It's important for me to have it so I don't get sick, so it comes natural for me to make a point to stash it in a familiar place that is safe and secure.

That particular night was sort of unique. I was just really high, nodding in and out of consciousness, and was running on no sleep during that last hit. It's weird because I was putting everything away in their proper places. I have my backpack and a system in place where specific accessories going in specific spots, it never changes. I had put everything away neat and organized, so how the dope of all things slipped out of my possession is beyond me.

What had me worried in my original post was that I had misplaced it forever; never to be found again. It would have driven me insane to know that somewhere out there, my bag full of dope was lost and irretrievable.
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when im fucked up and go to hide things, i always feel like my usual spots arent good enough and thats someone is gonna find it, een though no one would go in my room and snoop around. soi i hide some place different that i think is a great spot that i wont forget. a couple months later i find it and think "damn i totally forgot i had that"

that actually happened about a month ago..i was looking for a lighter to light a candle and i couldnt find one so i grabbed the candle and took it downstairs to light on with my moms lighter and as i go to light it i look at the candle and i see a little nik bag with a fat chunk of raw in it..so i kind of panicked and ran back upstaris telling my om i wanted a different candle lit. so i go back in my room and i take it out and sure enough it was a fat chucnk of raw that i weighed out and seen it was .3...i really havec no clue how i could forget i had .3 in that spit cause i never remeber putting it there. putting it in the candle is something ive never done before so i ca nt see why i would do it then but sure enough i did. and like i said the worst part is i dont even know when i could have lost it and how long its been there. i must have had a bunch of dope left over on the mirror, or in the bill or in my emptysd that i used that dope the next or 2 and then just went and copped more dope and just went on with it, thus forgetting about it completely.

the only thing that would have made it better was if i was dopesick and like trying to scrape together something. like looking at all my old hiding places that i used and hopefully maybe find some kush or some pills or like half bag or some emptys with a little residue, just anything really. unfortunatly i didnt, i found it while packing my bong and looking for a lighter to use

BlueHues said:
^I have friends who insist on carrying their little "junkie kit" with them, but I always just keep the bare minimum....I'm not getting charged and going through 2 years of supervised urines and weekly groups for getting caught with residue on a spoon...I used to get searched on the average once a month....and they always went through everything! but some people I know, have just kept all kinds of shit on them on their bags and pockets for 5 + years and never gotten in trouble....I don't even like letting people in my car that I dont know what they have with them....It's just so easy to pick up a possession charge for basically nothing!
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no offense to you but thats some of the dumbest shit ive ever heard, a "junkie kit" smh..thats just asking to go to jail i just dont see the point. wouldnt you people rather wait the 20-30min to get home where you can take your timne and relax so you can enjoy it rather then rush and waste what youre doing

Tommyboy said:
^ Damn, that sucks.

I ended up getting some fire dope through the Library Nodder. He was a little spooked at first since I went up to him with the line "what you nodding on?" followed by "got any more?"He actually gave me a better deal than any of the other people I deal with around here, and he was more than happy with the half bag I tossed him for helping me out. I was high from like 2pm until midnight when I passed out, so definitely good stuff considering I just did 1 1/2 bags. The itching was actually a little out of control, even with taking a benadryl, and that's one of the reasons why I like oxy for.
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man i miss the itching..to me that was one of the best parts about doing dope. and since they mix our dope with allergy pills we dont ever really get a chance to feel it much anymore

the last time i consistantly gota good itch was from my pharm opiate days
 
Welderman said:
I still do that even off dope. It's a reflex.
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thats why police dont ever belive you when you say "i swear to god, or i swear on my dead mom, i didnt do it"..cause people lie to them even when its not needed

Mzral said:
Yeah, I mean I've always been on top of knowing where my gear is. It's important for me to have it so I don't get sick, so it comes natural for me to make a point to stash it in a familiar place that is safe and secure.

That particular night was sort of unique. I was just really high, nodding in and out of consciousness, and was running on no sleep during that last hit. It's weird because I was putting everything away in their proper places. I have my backpack and a system in place where specific accessories going in specific spots, it never changes. I had put everything away neat and organized, so how the dope of all things slipped out of my possession is beyond me.

What had me worried in my original post was that I had misplaced it forever; never to be found again. It would have driven me insane to know that somewhere out there, my bag full of dope was lost and irretrievable.
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when im fucked up and go to hide things, i always feel like my usual spots arent good enough and thats someone is gonna find it, een though no one would go in my room and snoop around. soi i hide some place different that i think is a great spot that i wont forget. a couple months later i find it and think "damn i totally forgot i had that"

that actually happened about a month ago..i was looking for a lighter to light a candle and i couldnt find one so i grabbed the candle and took it downstairs to light on with my moms lighter and as i go to light it i look at the candle and i see a little nik bag with a fat chunk of raw in it..so i kind of panicked and ran back upstaris telling my om i wanted a different candle lit. so i go back in my room and i take it out and sure enough it was a fat chucnk of raw that i weighed out and seen it was .3...i really havec no clue how i could forget i had .3 in that spit cause i never remeber putting it there. putting it in the candle is something ive never done before so i ca nt see why i would do it then but sure enough i did. and like i said the worst part is i dont even know when i could have lost it and how long its been there. i must have had a bunch of dope left over on the mirror, or in the bill or in my emptysd that i used that dope the next or 2 and then just went and copped more dope and just went on with it, thus forgetting about it completely.

the only thing that would have made it better was if i was dopesick and like trying to scrape together something. like looking at all my old hiding places that i used and hopefully maybe find some kush or some pills or like half bag or some emptys with a little residue, just anything really. unfortunatly i didnt, i found it while packing my bong and looking for a lighter to use

BlueHues said:
^I have friends who insist on carrying their little "junkie kit" with them, but I always just keep the bare minimum....I'm not getting charged and going through 2 years of supervised urines and weekly groups for getting caught with residue on a spoon...I used to get searched on the average once a month....and they always went through everything! but some people I know, have just kept all kinds of shit on them on their bags and pockets for 5 + years and never gotten in trouble....I don't even like letting people in my car that I dont know what they have with them....It's just so easy to pick up a possession charge for basically nothing!
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no offense to you but thats some of the dumbest shit ive ever heard, a "junkie kit" smh..thats just asking to go to jail i just dont see the point. wouldnt you people rather wait the 20-30min to get home where you can take your timne and relax so you can enjoy it rather then rush and waste what youre doing

Tommyboy said:
^ Damn, that sucks.

I ended up getting some fire dope through the Library Nodder. He was a little spooked at first since I went up to him with the line "what you nodding on?" followed by "got any more?"He actually gave me a better deal than any of the other people I deal with around here, and he was more than happy with the half bag I tossed him for helping me out. I was high from like 2pm until midnight when I passed out, so definitely good stuff considering I just did 1 1/2 bags. The itching was actually a little out of control, even with taking a benadryl, and that's one of the reasons why I like oxy for.
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man i miss the itching..to me that was one of the best parts about doing dope. and since they mix our dope with allergy pills we dont ever really get a chance to feel it much anymore

the last time i consistantly gota good itch was from my pharm opiate days
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note: it only took me 1 1/2 hours to type this reply and thats not including the 10000 letter " M's " i typed lol...its always funny when you come too and realize you nodded off mid sentence with your finger on a letter and have a page or two of 1 letter repeated
 
i dont know if i should post this or not beeing that this is a harm reduction site but take a look at this thing that takes away the pain from shots, its called the buzzy

http://www.buzzy4shots.com/For-Kids/what-is-buzzy.html and check out this link for the buzzy in action to see how it works
http://www.buzzy4shots.com/Videos/buzzy-videos.html


i think its pretty damn cool. as a kid i played football and other sprts so i was big and strong and it used to take 2-4 doctors to hold me down and be still enough to giveme a shot..especaislly by the time i had to take my 5th grade shots it was damn near impossible without me having a literal panic attack..one time they gave me a benzo and another time they made my uncle go in and take me (my uncle was like my father figure figure cause my parents split when i was 5) now normally my uncle wouldnt have mattered but he was 400+ pounds and he had lots of money and he would basically bribe me lol. even one time i had to get a cavity filled and i freaked up in the chair even with the nitrous the dentist gave me and even though he gave me the shot of novacane he refised to work on me cause the stress it was putting me threw. well i didnt go bavck to the dentist fo a couple more years and it was only when i needed a root canal cause the cavity got that bad.

for the above mentioned reasons, that is a huge factor as to why ive never even attempted to use a needle or even have someone else do it for me. now granted im older now and it doesnt hurt lke i used to think and i dont flip out kicking and screaming, but my heart rate will go up and i will definetly get a little stressed out from an upcoming shot...but this new machine seems to be the cure for this problem I and alot of other people have when it comes to needles. now im not gonna go run out and have someone shoot me up but i just thought it was a kinda cool product, that could benifit someone, even if its just for their kids
 
I am a happy recky. So I went to a new connect today, some puerto rican guy in Hartford today. A friend of mine brought me so I can get his number, and damn I am pleased. Quality of the dope's no different than what I was getting before but the bags are exactly twice as fat as what I was getting from the suburban white kid I had been going through for a while and they're 10 bucks cheaper per bundle. They're almost a full gram (about .8-.9) for fucking dirty cheap. I have a feeling this is the same crew my last guy was geting his stuff from then just cutting the bags in half and taxing the price.

From what I'm told the dude is super reliable, and despite being from the worst part of town if you don't want to go to his hood to meet he will drive to a much safer/whiter/less suspicious part of town to meet. Apparently dude's always good and always answers his phone day or night. He seems to be pretty straight up, so I'll give him a chance. Also he claims the guy his crew gets it from chops it straight off the block so I asked him if he could get some real raw and he said he'll see what he can do.
 
Tommyboy said:
I had gotten purple blanks for a few months and it was always solid. It wasn't fire and the count was average at best, but we called it our solid backup if we couldn't cop from our dude with the fat bags of fire dope from BK. Not sure if your purple bags were blank too. Mine weren't as bright as xstayfadeds, but purple nonetheless.



I think that Welderman was saying that in Detroit you get a racketeering charge or something if you have stamped bags.
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been getting the same blank purple bags from BK last week. On day seven clean!
good luck tommy
 
a) i just started dating a girl i've known since highschool who was the first person to ever get me dope. shes now off of opiates (she's a benzo/weed/mdma/coke girl now) but is still cool as hell.

b) got a new bud connect that is giving me amazing bud at half the price (no exaggeration) of everyone else, + he has the best coke ive seen in years. honestly its impressively good.

c) i dropped 3 bags in a snowbank and sort of salvaged them. i dried them out and theres huge chunks stuck to the bag that got me FUCKED up, but its still a pain in the ass.

my life is so fucking boring. atleast ive been speedballing/chainsmoking j's for damn near free since last night, lol
 
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