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[herbavore]

better.

this same day ago last year was a truly horrendous one, and I'm only happy that this year was a completely different scenario. I even sang tonight for the first time in months, and I only do so when happy. I have a real smile on for the first time all week.

That is fantastic to hear, modelskinny. Singing, especially singing by yourself, is one of the most beautiful things we humans do IMO.

 

[Pagey]

better.

this same day ago last year was a truly horrendous one, and I'm only happy that this year was a completely different scenario. I even sang tonight for the first time in months, and I only do so when happy. I have a real smile on for the first time all week.

I'm so happy to hear this

 

[hthr007]

Whaat? Who said that?

Is having an account where I post my personal feelings in the Internet really that bad? Like it makes me feel like a horrible person and this is eating me up. If I want to post my personal feelings online rather than confide in someone IRL shouldn't I be able to?

It's like public speaking. I find it 100% easier to public speak in front of strangers than people I know. A non biased opinion or viewpoint from someone helps...no?

 

[Pagey]

Is having an account where I post my personal feelings in the Internet really that bad? Like it makes me feel like a horrible person and this is eating me up. If I want to post my personal feelings online rather than confide in someone IRL shouldn't I be able to?

It's like public speaking. I find it 100% easier to public speak in front of strangers than people I know. A non biased opinion or viewpoint from someone helps...no?

But like are you just imposing this on yourself or did someone actually say that to you?! Of course it's not bad at all, quite the contrary...I mean I say so much more on this website than I do the people in my life and I'm quite happy about that!

 

[hthr007]

But like are you just imposing this on yourself or did someone actually say that to you?! Of course it's not bad at all, quite the contrary...I mean I say so much more on this website than I do the people in my life and I'm quite happy about that!

It was said to me! They found all my posts and my pics and whatever. Like idc because it is a public forum but to use it against me? Not cool...

 

[Pagey]

Oh shit that sucks...you've got nothing to be ashamed of though! If they're judging you for something like this they're not worth knowing, seriously.

 

[spork]

Yeah, that's really not cool Heather. People can be so cruel sometimes.

I went to a students for social welfare kickoff meeting tonight and surprised myself by actually being able to communicate like a normal person. It was like my social anxiety was completely lifted. I was even able to joke, laugh, and offer suggestions on how the group can improve. This is something so new to me. I feel like I'm blossoming and I might finally be able to start being the me that I'm supposed to be and not be so terrified of talking in front of people or having simple conversations anymore. It's exciting and something I never ever thought would happen. I just hope I can keep it up and this wasn't a one time thing..

 

[Black Rabbit of Inle]

{Refreshed}

Is having an account where I post my personal feelings in the Internet really that bad? Like it makes me feel like a horrible person and this is eating me up. If I want to post my personal feelings online rather than confide in someone IRL shouldn't I be able to?

It's like public speaking. I find it 100% easier to public speak in front of strangers than people I know. A non biased opinion or viewpoint from someone helps...no?

My ex was exactly the same, she found all my online posts and ended up starting a huge fight because I confided with people online and not her IRL. Even though she had no experience with drugs and couldn't help. I ended up changing my BL account.

I find it much easier to communicate with people through text rather than speaking as well.

 

[modelskinny]

Happy. I had a really awesome photo shoot today for a reputable magazine and can't wait for them to be published.

 

[plmar]

I can't really describe how I feel right now. All I've been thinking for the past couple hours is how irrelevant all our lives are and mentally planning out my day... really just thinking at what time during the day to leave college, get drunk, and go sit somewhere at some park doing shit.

 

[hthr007]

{Refreshed}



My ex was exactly the same, she found all my online posts and ended up starting a huge fight because I confided with people online and not her IRL. Even though she had no experience with drugs and couldn't help. I ended up changing my BL account.

I find it much easier to communicate with people through text rather than speaking as well.

I may end up doing the exact same thing & changing my BL account :/ Ugh it just sucks.

My word: lazy I just want to call out and sleep alllll day.

 

[Toz]

One word: guilty is what I feel like, somewhat think I am not really worthy of being here at the moment

edit: one word my ass, half a page more like it, removed

 

[Mugz]

Scared

Of many things, primarily getting started in recovery from drugs which I have a session for in just over 40 minutes and I'm scared of going to the authorities about my recent traumatic experience abroad. I'm scared that he will come here and kill me whatever I do. I am very scared.

 

[Toz]

I think brave is more suited. Most people tend to close their eyes and look the other way when they are scared.

 

[modelskinny]

confused

I've spent the last week or so reaching out to people desperately in need. Not because of duty, but because I tend to empathize with others on such a personal level and I want to help them. I feel like multiple people were swayed against their decision of suicide, or relapse, self-harm, etc. and I feel really wonderful knowing that I at least somehow bettered their current state of mind. But part of me also feels like such a liar at the same time, preaching about positivity and harm-reduction when I, myself, am far from following those same words. Ugh.

 

[Toz]

confused

I've spent the last week or so reaching out to people desperately in need. Not because of duty, but because I tend to empathize with others on such a personal level and I want to help them. I feel like multiple people were swayed against their decision of suicide, or relapse, self-harm, etc. and I feel really wonderful knowing that I at least somehow bettered their current state of mind. But part of me also feels like such a liar at the same time, preaching about positivity and harm-reduction when I, myself, am far from following those same words. Ugh.

As I wrote before in this forum, giving advice is easy, following it is hard. I have the same problem. Of course I feel like a hypocrite for it, but if it dissuaded someone from doing something stupid, it feels like that's worth it though. Don't let doing something good for others make you feel bad because you have a harder time doing the same for yourself. You're not lying in my eyes really, telling others about harm reduction and positivity, just because you don't follow your own advice, does not mean you do not want to deep inside. Because I believe you do, otherwise you would probably not be here.

I understand you totally though, but I hope you, like me, can see the silly thing in feeling bad about doing something good

 

[Pagey]

confused

I've spent the last week or so reaching out to people desperately in need. Not because of duty, but because I tend to empathize with others on such a personal level and I want to help them. I feel like multiple people were swayed against their decision of suicide, or relapse, self-harm, etc. and I feel really wonderful knowing that I at least somehow bettered their current state of mind. But part of me also feels like such a liar at the same time, preaching about positivity and harm-reduction when I, myself, am far from following those same words. Ugh.

model, I can't thank you enough for everything you did for me this week-end. You're a genuinely wonderful person and I really hope you realize that.
I think a lot of us can relate to that, though. I've replied to so many suicidal posts here on TDS just trying to prove how great life is and why suicide is never the answer, and yet it seems like I always go back to it myself. I don't think that matters though. We never follow our own advice, but that doesn't mean we don't help others with it, nor that others won't be able to help us with their advice that they don't follow.

I'm feeling better. And I wanted to specifically thank spork, herbavore, modelskinny, paranoid android, Sepher and synthetix for helping me get through this horible week-end and for listening to me complain for hours on end. Also everyone who answered my thread/posts.

 

[Mugz]

relieved

That I gave my story to the people who should know what they are doing, If I could use another word too it would be afraid that it wont be enough to prosecute or even find the criminal and it will happen again to someone else

 

[hthr007]

I'm okay.

 

[tripnotyzm]

Tired