OK, but its usually a dream normally, i dont get any bad side effects, but suddenly with H out of the system mostly already as the only cause, twice consistently, this happens.
Also I am very familiar with the worst of the worst panic attacks, stim bullshit, years of anxiety, paranoia, comedowns etc.
Is there any likely condition that is heartrate only without presenting mumurs, skips or other indicators as the concern maybe?
But this heart reaction was something else entirely. Its far worse and different then any of the other things above.
I honestly hardly spare a second thought for fast heartbeats on regular panic attacks, high dose stims, comedowns. In fact i care to little about this shit and my heath in general doing high doses in my weak physical condition is probably really stupid. So i guess when something gets my attention and fear, its a real concern.
The thing is, no other symptoms either, just the fastest heartbeat ever thought possible, without pulpitations, skips or any other wierdness.
No inherent panic whatsoever, no influence on my opinion or state of mind besides the simple fast heartbeat. Not a single other symptom, not even an expected physical sensation of fatigue or exertion i might have expected due to the heart.
I have also just posted elsewhere using Seroquel stupidly within extreme meth comedown panic and fighting unconsciousness convinced of dying, and that worse, but only with SNS help. This other thing was real fear with im certain real reasons.
Yet still my fear and terror and certainty of genuine peril was worse then any panic attack, and it was all real, created without any anxiety or help on its way.
It sounds silly on paper, but thats the point of my concern. Simply a fast heartbeat caused this, there must be a reason or indicator that i somehow new something was different, wrong, not like the other stuff thats so different.
I dont know really, perhaps the lack of any other symptoms was what terrified me, but still thinking clearly without cloudy anxiety, the facts made it clear it was not sustainable for very long at all, for my personal state.
It was far faster then when i receive regular warnings on my heartrate at the gym since im an unhealthy, slightly overweight sedentary fucker, in fact all i do every day is walk to make coffee or take a piss, working from home, lying on my bed all day and night.
I even use big cups to reduce repeat trips. Lazy as humanly possible and still remain alive. So that heart-rate would have destroyed my lazy weak diseased heart in no time flat i am certain. Ok im not obsese, just a slight beer belly but i still dont move much at all and remain decent sized only cause i dont eat shit, or more then needed. Its 80% diet after all, gyms are for the uninformed lol.
Im not even sure what could happen, but im sure it doesnt have the option to get tired and relax if needed and would fucking go until it explodes if necessary if told to by some trusted function that was comprised at the time. I even checked if i could sense the possible cause of low BP and i could not. I however suspect this the most due to BP drops from Seroquel and H, but i know those symptoms intimately and they did not present here in other ways.
Anyways, im not getting worked up or anything, im just high and going into alot of detail, with the stims sharp tone and enthusiasm. Im not making it sound more then it was however just because im high. Im a pro after all.
Anyways, im taking precautions to exercise the heart to strengthen it for any future trials with regular high dose meth use, i challenge any weak gym routine or real exercise to compete with my routine of consistent endurance training over multiple days in harsh conditions and under stress with the added benefit of appetite control to keep the facilities in prime condition and free of clutter.
Its like army bootcamp level training for the troops while the general enjoys his high and does as little as possible laughing at all the people who still think hard work and perseverance is what gets results.
Laziness is what gets results, its not a weakness, its a core concept to live by that breeds constant innovation and maximum efficiency due also to an effective method of motivation built in to ensure results. Which is being as lazy as possible of course like why i work 4 hours a week from home and get paid tons for it.
Anyways, im mostly joking and talking shit again as usual, mostly. Im done preaching now, thank god, fukin stim delusions of unique insights lol. The price i pay for a healthy heart i guess...
Thanks for any feedback on the relevant aspects of this post guys, seriously, just ignore the clutter.
