Steveo_M1982
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- Nov 30, 2012
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Hi there
First off, I would like to thank you for taking to time to read and provide me with an answer my questions. You time is greatly appreciated.
To start off, I am a 30 years old, male, 160lbs and in reasonable / average shape. I am professionally employed at a law firm as a paralegal and have held this same position for the past 6 years. I rarely call in sick or take days off and Im not in the habit of being a substance abuser. I am not in any way shape or form, an addict. However, that being said, about a year ago, after the death of my father, I started using a daily low dose of oxy as my choice of antidepressant (which was one of the original uses for this drug before the high potential for addiction was fully known or understood) as well as for lower back pains resulting from a severely herniated disk. As I do not have an addictive personality, I felt I could control myself and ensure that I remain in control of the drug and not let it get the best of me. I am a big believer that the only way to avoid becoming addicted to a certain drug is to understand how it works. I do not crush, liquify, inject, snort or otherwise use this drug in any other way other than how it was originally intended to be used. I was not (am not) after the euphoric “high” the drug is known to be abused for.. just the pain control, and the mild sense of well being.
With the above being noted, it all started about a year ago. I started taking 1 - 5mg percocet, twice daily about every 12 hours. Once my body became use to the side effects of the drug, this worked great for the first month or so, until I notice my body starting to develop a mild immunity to the pain killing effects, so the dosage was upped. Until after about 3 months, I found that the “perfect” dosage was 20mgs a day: 10mgs every 12 hours. Any more than that and I get too much of the dizzy, euphoric feeling as well as I noticed it would start effecting my ability to think clearly. This dosage seems to be a happy median of all the negatives / positives of this drug. I maintained this dosage for about 6 months and it was working great. No problems, minimal dependancy and everything was great. High sex drive, better outlook on life, social interactions were a lot better, I found I did not focus on all the negatives nearly as much, or if I did, I was able to mitigate the intensity in which I focused on them. Generally, things were just a lot better, pleasant / happier.
Then, my street dealer tried to up the costs of the pills I was buying off of him (20mg). To the point where this was becoming a very expensive “habit” / self treatment regime. So I put the word out and a friend of mine found another supplier for me with 80s for the same price as my previous guy was selling the 20s for . At that point, I was very pleased as I thought this would reduce my expenses by 3/4s. Unfortunately, I didn’t take into account the difficulties in maintaining my desired dosage level due to these pills being smaller, unscored and much tougher to ensure the same dosage is being taken each time. Regretfully, this decision to change pills allowed the drug to take control minutely. To the point where now, I worry about the physical dependancy being too much for my to handle.
With the above being noted, I am looking to stop taking these and maybe try a current aged antidepressant (the reason that I haven’t tried them up to know is that I question our understanding of how these antidepressants drugs work). So, I am looking to you for advise.
Can I go to a doctor and have them wean my off of these properly by reducing my dosage or will they just try and put my on another form of addictive drug? I don’t want methadone or anything like that. I am not an addict and do not need anything like that. I simply need to reduce my dosage so that I am no longer physically dependant and can stop taking them all together. Im nervous to go tot the doctor because of this and because if all they are going to do is try and get me on some other drug, I will go back to my old dealer pay the higher pill price and wean myself off myself.
Can any one give me some advise? Both on going to my family doctor (i.e. what to say or expect from them, etc.) and what sort of dosages and at what length of times I should be reducing these dosage levels, etc. in order to successfully wean myself off these pills. I’ve read I can reduce by roughly 10mgs every 4 days, is that correct?
Im not 100% sure, but I think I am roughly at fluctuating 20-40mgs/day in total. To be honest, I don’t even the full extent of the physical dependancy. I know I get headaches (or what feels like marbles rolling around in my head) and a very, very mild twisting of my stomach when Im coming up to my next dose.
Thank you in advance for you time and productive comments / suggestions
First off, I would like to thank you for taking to time to read and provide me with an answer my questions. You time is greatly appreciated.
To start off, I am a 30 years old, male, 160lbs and in reasonable / average shape. I am professionally employed at a law firm as a paralegal and have held this same position for the past 6 years. I rarely call in sick or take days off and Im not in the habit of being a substance abuser. I am not in any way shape or form, an addict. However, that being said, about a year ago, after the death of my father, I started using a daily low dose of oxy as my choice of antidepressant (which was one of the original uses for this drug before the high potential for addiction was fully known or understood) as well as for lower back pains resulting from a severely herniated disk. As I do not have an addictive personality, I felt I could control myself and ensure that I remain in control of the drug and not let it get the best of me. I am a big believer that the only way to avoid becoming addicted to a certain drug is to understand how it works. I do not crush, liquify, inject, snort or otherwise use this drug in any other way other than how it was originally intended to be used. I was not (am not) after the euphoric “high” the drug is known to be abused for.. just the pain control, and the mild sense of well being.
With the above being noted, it all started about a year ago. I started taking 1 - 5mg percocet, twice daily about every 12 hours. Once my body became use to the side effects of the drug, this worked great for the first month or so, until I notice my body starting to develop a mild immunity to the pain killing effects, so the dosage was upped. Until after about 3 months, I found that the “perfect” dosage was 20mgs a day: 10mgs every 12 hours. Any more than that and I get too much of the dizzy, euphoric feeling as well as I noticed it would start effecting my ability to think clearly. This dosage seems to be a happy median of all the negatives / positives of this drug. I maintained this dosage for about 6 months and it was working great. No problems, minimal dependancy and everything was great. High sex drive, better outlook on life, social interactions were a lot better, I found I did not focus on all the negatives nearly as much, or if I did, I was able to mitigate the intensity in which I focused on them. Generally, things were just a lot better, pleasant / happier.
Then, my street dealer tried to up the costs of the pills I was buying off of him (20mg). To the point where this was becoming a very expensive “habit” / self treatment regime. So I put the word out and a friend of mine found another supplier for me with 80s for the same price as my previous guy was selling the 20s for . At that point, I was very pleased as I thought this would reduce my expenses by 3/4s. Unfortunately, I didn’t take into account the difficulties in maintaining my desired dosage level due to these pills being smaller, unscored and much tougher to ensure the same dosage is being taken each time. Regretfully, this decision to change pills allowed the drug to take control minutely. To the point where now, I worry about the physical dependancy being too much for my to handle.
With the above being noted, I am looking to stop taking these and maybe try a current aged antidepressant (the reason that I haven’t tried them up to know is that I question our understanding of how these antidepressants drugs work). So, I am looking to you for advise.
Can I go to a doctor and have them wean my off of these properly by reducing my dosage or will they just try and put my on another form of addictive drug? I don’t want methadone or anything like that. I am not an addict and do not need anything like that. I simply need to reduce my dosage so that I am no longer physically dependant and can stop taking them all together. Im nervous to go tot the doctor because of this and because if all they are going to do is try and get me on some other drug, I will go back to my old dealer pay the higher pill price and wean myself off myself.
Can any one give me some advise? Both on going to my family doctor (i.e. what to say or expect from them, etc.) and what sort of dosages and at what length of times I should be reducing these dosage levels, etc. in order to successfully wean myself off these pills. I’ve read I can reduce by roughly 10mgs every 4 days, is that correct?
Im not 100% sure, but I think I am roughly at fluctuating 20-40mgs/day in total. To be honest, I don’t even the full extent of the physical dependancy. I know I get headaches (or what feels like marbles rolling around in my head) and a very, very mild twisting of my stomach when Im coming up to my next dose.
Thank you in advance for you time and productive comments / suggestions