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Anyone out there who actually keeps a "once a week only" habit...?

So far only one of my friends have been able to keep their drug use to a minimum (using about once or twice a month). He has been doing this for 6 years now and has never been addicted to anything (even though he has handled pretty large amounts of drugs). Everyone else I know that indulges in hard drugs, including myself, have been more or less addicted at one point or another.

I'm currently keeping a once or twice a week opioid use, and I'm hoping not to fail this time :)
 
Just to add another 2 cents.. it is this exact question—this exact internal dilemma—that has led me and many people I know to relapse. Especially after you get clean, and the pain of your detox is behind you... it's really easy to forget about all the negative shit and ask yourself, "well..did I really give chipping a real shot?" and you convince yourself that you know better this time, that you want to have your cake and eat it too... Big mistake. The whole, "I'll try and just do it on the weekends" mentality is one of the most dangerous thoughts an addict can have because that's your addiction baiting you.. messing with your mind and projecting this glamorous reality in front of you where you live a great life and only use once a week.. blah blah blah..but it's a mirage. It's a hologram of what you want to be.. not what probably will be. I don't really like the whole AA/NA thing, but one thing that rains true is when they refer to your disease as being cunning and baffling... because it is.
 
There used to be somebody who posted here, I think their username was dokomo, who openly boasted about their ability to take opiate vacations//chip.

I'm able to chip fairly well, but it's only a factor of being dirt poor and having merely one connection to the stuff. Otherwise, I'd be addicted and (if I had more connects) up to my neck in debts from fronts. I had a span of almost two months this fall when my connect was good and I was using once or twice a week. The highs were all great, from small-moderate doses, and I didn't have to worry about appearing sketchy as much as with daily use.

Given the choice though, I'd rather have no knowledge of opiates, as the temptation is just far too great. I certainly agree with the line of thinking which implies that certain personalities are more disposed to developing an affinity for such drugs, and I also think I'm one of those people :(
 
Aphex747 said:
^effuszion, thats a personal opinion. some of us have debilitating chronic muscle degeneration, compressed vertebrae, spasms, ect, and dont have health insurance. if i choose to medicate weekly, without it causing me any problems, who are you to imply that because someone uses them, that their life must suck ? speak for yourself, not others.
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This is my life except I do have insurance (I really feel for you) and therefore have the drugs I need on-hand 365 days a week. Not that I don't have to jump through some hoops to continue to receive my medication but that's pain management in 2012. I don't know if I'm typical or not, for a PM patient, but I do need the medication for chronic neck pain BUT I also really enjoy how they make me feel. I can't lie. Yes, I do use a bit more than I should from time to time and yes, I do use the medication using methods other than oral from time to time (DO NOT IV!). But at the end of the day, I never exceed what I'm prescribed and I have medication through day 30 of the prescription each month. I just have some ebbs and flows during the month sometimes. Basically, since I can't live (literally would really suffer severe WD's) without taking my meds since I've been on heavy narcotics for over half of my 54 years of life. Yeah Yeah, I'm a geezer but I'm still pretty young at heart and have always tried to keep up on the current drug culture. It comes in handy having a teenage daughter in the house. BTW, I've made it clear she could never get away with anything as long as she in my house. I've seen it all and probably done it all, or almost all of it.

Anyway, I have a serious mental tug-of-war all the time with this idea of dependency versus addiction. Occasionally, I have to admit that I'm more than likely addicted but I really don't like saying so. I prefer; I need these drugs to live a halfway decent existence and if I happen to sometimes enjoy the buzz, so what. I can't change how my body reacts to this stuff. So, that's my dilemma. Can anyone else relate to this or am I describing what someone else feels. I'd really love to hear from you, so I don’t feel like the only one going through this.

I feel like I need to add that I'm a semi-successful professional (never owned my own business) and the drugs I take have never interfered with me doing my job at a high level. I honestly feel that my other coworkers would have been absolutely shocked if they knew I took over 400mg of Oxycodone daily. In fact, I think that dosage could very well kill someone else. God Bless!
 
Used to do a lot of stims when I first got into them up to four-five months ago. Since then I've been keeping the usage to monthly ( "hard" drugs), and it's surprising how easy it is to maintain when you get into that mindset. That once a month time is really the time I do so much that I have no desire to do anymore whatsoever for another month. Even though I'm "in control now", looking back at my previous drug history, my only regret still, is that I didn't do more. Fuck me, right?
 
cane2theleft said:
this.

We discussed many scenarios in my addiction counseling classes and the consensus is that someone who comes home from work and has 2-3 drinks everyday but has no economic, professional, social, health or other problems for their use; still fulfills their major role obligations and doesn't give up activity for their drinking has less of a problem (or no problem at all) compared to someone who drinks once a week but blows all their money at the bar, drinks to the point of getting sick, makes bad decisions as a result such as sexual promiscuity that they are ashamed/embarrassed about, possibly injures themselves falling down or something and all week long thinks about finally getting to have that drink and has to forcefully resist the urge all the time.

It's not the amount or frequency that really defines someone's problem but the relationship they have with the drug and the consequences their use produces.

People can have a problem with a drug they only use once a week and there are people who blow every extra cent they have on heroin, oxy, etc. Only once a week and then all week long think about their next fix. Whether you want to call them an addict or not is a matter of definition but it's evident they have a problem.
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qft
 
Heroic said:
Used to do a lot of stims when I first got into them up to four-five months ago. Since then I've been keeping the usage to monthly ( "hard" drugs), and it's surprising how easy it is to maintain when you get into that mindset. That once a month time is really the time I do so much that I have no desire to do anymore whatsoever for another month. Even though I'm "in control now", looking back at my previous drug history, my only regret still, is that I didn't do more. Fuck me, right?
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People say my posts make absolutely no sense, but I don't get it.....why would you have wanted to do more drugs?
 
When I had more severe anxiety problems than I do now (I'd be afraid to go buy anything, for example, because pretty much any novel social interaction would result in a panic attack), I was prescribed xanax--I could've taken it daily, but I was aware of how horrible the physical dependence was. So I'd only allow myself xanax once a week and phenibut once a week (since phen. is primarily a gaba-b agonist, I didn't find much cross-tolerance and I kept it low for both--just enough to be an anxiolytic; I wasn't getting high off of it). I did that for like 5 months, eventually stopped as I dealt with my problems.
 
mr.scagnattie said:
All it takes is that one hard week, maybe your chic leaves you, or you get fired from work.. and it's day 3 and you know you were never supposed to do it again on day 3 but this time.. you say "fuck it" and you go ahead and use again..well on day 4, you wake up strung the fuck out and whamo. You're back. I especially think its even more impossible for a former hardcore addict to go backwards and be successful at it. Maybe somebody who has never really been strung out before can do it, but once you've been a full blown addict.. it's near impossible to go back to using your drug of choice any other way.
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Nailed it. Damn...
 
I've been doing it ever since I quit suboxone, but it certainly isn't an ideal situation. I end up feeling a little shitty between the times I take them, and there's of course the cravings to deal with.

In my opinion opiates can almost never be used sparingly. Its something that turns into a daily habit fast. See, its not just your mind and will that have an influence on how often you chose to use. Opiates are physically addictive, so your body WANTS more of them. When it comes to that point, mental will is almost negligible, and you'll do what it takes to make your body feel better.

as a 5 year opiate user I'd suggest to not even try it. Don't go down that road. It may be fun at first, but I promise you that the first couple highs are the best you'll ever feel. It will never feel the same and you will end up chasing the ghost of a high.
 
Nobody I know, in 10 years of using, or friends I know (who have been using 3x that long).. have ever met anybody who was able to chip on H for any even halfway long period of time... That in itself tells me what I need to know..despite me trying to be the "weekend warrior" many times. It's a one in a million ability.
 
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