Mephedrone addiction? v2

[Mailmonkey]

VAC, I think you're doing the right thing. Sounds like you're not coping, and temptation gets the better of you.

I'll email ya later. For the time being, hope you turn things round, there's more important stuff in life than a meph buzz (and that's coming from ME!!!).

 

[VAC]

My keyboard broke as I spilt shit all over it, so I had to tablet that shit.

Cheers MM. Not all of my friends, but a few of my close ones say I'm a different person. I'm getting back to the gym, and getting my professional Thai Boxing mate to kick the fuck out of me. The high from fighting is so much greater to me than Mephedrone is, so I'm going to quit, or tone down the mephedrone considerably.

EDITYou can barely see the blood in this low res shit, but I got up four times until I heard a crack, me hitting the deck, and a nice amount of YOU MADE ME BLEED MY OWN BLOOD!

 

[Safrolette]

Quitting is going to be harder than ....

It's a nasty addiction, it's going to be hard as you say. And you know it, that's good. Structured days, healthy food, exercise, walks, and away from everything which may remind you of the stuff for a good while. I find the cravings diabolical for the first few days after a session, although you may have reached tipping point after months of daily use. Good luck mate X

 

[VAC]

Thanks for the support. I know for a fact I'm not going to be able to just quit. Going to limit amounts and how regular the sessions are. It was getting ridiculous where we would be up four days, sleep one, repeat, for several weeks.

 

[Mr Smokes Blunts.]

Thanks for the support. I know for a fact I'm not going to be able to just quit. Going to limit amounts and how regular the sessions are. It was getting ridiculous where we would be up four days, sleep one, repeat, for several weeks.

VAC mate, moderation is not your thing. I'm not trying to be a dick, but if you could get a hold of your usage you would have done already, wouldn't you? You need to jack it in totally and accept that part of your life is over and it's time to start the next part of your life. The amount you must be spending on meph, you could easily pay to get away from your sources to get your head sorted out.

 

[Grego61]

*** You can't party forever----- can you?***

Hi guys and gurls.... Well i could just be one of the oldest if not the oldest contributor to this thread....I'm 51 and I'm addicted to Drone, Mcat, 4-mmc, Mephedrone or whatever else people want to call it!.. I have over the years smoked cigarettes up to 40 a day and managed 11 years ago to stop smoking them, I used from the age of 14 cannabis/hash etc and although still have the occassional smoke of it (neat these days so generally only grass) my yearning for it passed around 3 years ago (oddly enough when drone entered my life) I was married to a great lady 12 years my junior, have 3 great kids from this marriage and 3 older children (Also great) from my 1st Marriage.
I enjoyed and have done for many years being a user of various social drugs , never a large alcohol user, I prefered to drive my car so smoked as there was no breathalyser at the time to test you for that... Anyway 3.5 years ago by a quirk of fate I was introduced to Mephadrone, I bought a gram over the counter of a legal highs shop.... it was called 'Space E' I used to try various legal highs back then .. this was 'new in' getting great reviews and was only £20/g wow!... so I did a couple of small lines and I mean small to try it out,.... OUCH!... not the most pleasent stuff to put up your nostrils it stung like hell and tasted like shit when you swallowed it. I had got into my car by this time and snorted it and then started to drive home..... within 5 mins, I had possibly the most intense and enjoyable buzz I had ever experienced.. warm, euphoric, sexy, but also very alert and feeling truely great I stopped driving and allowed myself to enjoy the buzz... after 10 mins or so I felt amazing and ready to drive again. I rushed back home and immediately told my wife about it and a guy that worked for me at the time they both tried it and felt the same as I had done a while before.. we rushed back and got more from the shop and had an amazing weekend, the first of many......(its late now or early around 4.10 am and I'm still typing... want to continue but have work to do tomorrow so must try to sleep!.. will continue tomorrow )

 

[SpecialK_]

Space E...fuck that brings back some memories.

Good luck VAC.

 

[Urbain]

Good luck dude

 

[botfly]

I've stopped taking the shit now it fucks with my insides too much. Just gonna stick to the crack from now on I think.

 

[done juan]

 

[Xamkou]

It's a very insidious substance, drags you into that rushy euphoric bubble and can be difficult to manage if you like that sort of sensations and don't have a lot of self-control. Also, this deceptive 'no comedown' thing, and the fact that it goes well with alchool contribute to make it so popular 8(

Did you use that word intentionally? That's what we call it round here! :D

 

[Xamkou]

Thanks for the support. I know for a fact I'm not going to be able to just quit. Going to limit amounts and how regular the sessions are. It was getting ridiculous where we would be up four days, sleep one, repeat, for several weeks.

If you need a chat I'm a PM away, as always mate

 

[VAC]

If you need a chat I'm a PM away, as always mate

Appreciate it.

It got worse before a decent stage that I am at now. I had been awake about 5 days, and some paranoia kicked in - I thought one of my best mate's girlfriend said I tried to rape her. This guy is huge and has spent a long time training Muai Thai. They left like they were doing anyway, then he said he forgot his wallet and I text him to not come back because my brain is saying 'kill or be killed', and it's also telling me it's just the drugs. We were both stood there crying our eyes out. My brain was telling me to kill my best friend. Luckily the girl I was seeing at the time is a mental health nurse and she talked me into throwing the knife. After about 20 minutes of him looking forhis wallet with me in another room ready to stab him, we went into myroom, and it was in plain view - we were crying our eyes out and laughing hysterically. We had a brohug and gave it a few days.

My turning point in Mephedrone that was. I will only take some if I'm out drinking, and even then just bumps. Moved back up North and am joining the gym tomorrow with my brother, and training kick boxing with my other brother.

But thanks for the concern all of you, and I hold my hands up I'm a PoS for not giving it up, or the very least toning it down like I said I was.

 

[Xamkou]

Bloody hell pal, crazy!

I feel for you buddy. As you know, I went through a sick addiction but now I only do it like once a fortnight, so it is possible to come out of addiction and then begin using responsibly with Mephedrone...

Good luck my friend

 

[JohnnyVodka]

Once a fortnight is still a lot. The ban and the eventual lack of good stuff made me re-think my use. Had it practically every weekend for 2 years, but now < than once a month. Mental health feels better and it's good to not have a couple of days written off a week just coz you've been up all night watching porn.

Although not doing stupid amount (just 1g most Fridays), there was some semi-addiction there... a weekend wasn't a weekend without meph!

 

[Smellmett]

Once a fortnight is still a lot. The ban and the eventual lack of good stuff made me re-think my use. Had it practically every weekend for 2 years, but now < than once a month. Mental health feels better and it's good to not have a couple of days written off a week just coz you've been up all night watching porn.

Although not doing stupid amount (just 1g most Fridays), there was some semi-addiction there... a weekend wasn't a weekend without meph!

I've found after 3 years of preposterous 10g+ benders of pre-ban and excellent other stuff and getting into serious shit with it, 1 pay day bender a month is enough these days...

 

[Safrolette]

Did you use that word intentionally? That's what we call it round here! :D

Of course I've used that word intentionally!
Having a break from it, the last comedown lasted several days and was the stuff of nightmares. Very dark, I felt that there was no hope in the world anymore and that I would have been depressed forever, never happened before with anything! Can be the fact that I used it 4 times in 6 weeks, while it's usually once every 8-12 weeks, or this specific batch, I don't know.
A few people say that comedowns gets gradually worst, isn't that somewhat sinister... it probably means that the brain is slowly losing its capacity to recover...

But thanks for the concern all of you, and I hold my hands up I'm a PoS for not giving it up, or the very least toning it down like I said I was.

Good luck VAC, sounds like you had some rough times

 

[ColtDan]

Glad i gave up doing it every weekend, got to the stage i couldnt drink without seeking out meph even if it was shit stuff. comedowns lasted for ages. can still do it now and again but take it or leave it, took awhile to get to that stage. pre ban got a grip on me though. the stuff around now aint that great, doesnt draw me in the same

 

[JohnnyVodka]

A few people say that comedowns gets gradually worst, isn't that somewhat sinister... it probably means that the brain is slowly losing its capacity to recover...

Meph comedowns are nasty IME. I put that down to being the sort of drug that it's hard to keep to a sensible amount. Also, depends what you do when you're on it; the feeling of coming out of a marathon porn session is grotty.

I don't really get MDMA comedowns because (1) I can limit my intake and (2) experiences are more social and life-affirming. Mind you, MDMA does give me horrible sleep paralysis.

 

[Safrolette]

Meph comedowns are nasty IME. I put that down to being the sort of drug that it's hard to keep to a sensible amount.

Under 0.5 is usually ok, if I get to a g - which is my record so far - then it gets really bad

Also, depends what you do when you're on it; the feeling of coming out of a marathon porn session is grotty.

I just have a great time with music, books with beautiful pictures, creative things, and chatting if I am with my friend. But still the aftermath it's so draining, physically, emotionally, in terms of confidence and ability to deal with the outside world; the anxiety is also terrible . I'm very envious of Mailmonkey's afterglow!