MDMA - will I have a bad trip if my GF breaks up with me when I'm peaking?

[BluLait]

Yeah. I know. Interesting topic.

So the idea is this. I've been arguing with her. She's been telling me not to take MDMA at the party she's throwing because "it's an evil drug that will fry your brain and I'm so worried for you bla bla bla". I told her that it's not like that, but she won't believe it. So now, she's acting all fucking weird, you know how girls are.

If she breaks up with me at this huge party she is throwing because she will see I am on MDMA. How will this affect my trip?
I'm a bit sad, I think I love her. We've been together for a while, but I will not let anybody tell me what to do. That's just how I am.

So I care about it. I'm old enough not to be totally ruined by her, even though right now I see her as the most beautiful girl in the world. So clearly I'm in love.

If she breaks up with me right when I'm peaking, how will this affect my trip?
Will I just think ala MDMA: " Fuck it, life is beautiful, I'm the king of the world, plenty of other girls out there" and immediately start searching for other girls?
Or will the psychedelic side of MDMA amplify my feelings of loss and heartbreak that it will spiral out of control and make me cry.

I need to know.

 

[MonKeYDNA]

You might do things you wouldn't normally do in that situation. Meaning, she might try to break up with you to your face and you react in a way you would later regret. Also, the day after should be taken into consideration. (Idk how experienced you are, and honestly I haven't rolled in a while, but I always felt the day after to be the exact opposite of the peak and lasting longer, so that along with thinking about your gf doesn't seem to fun)

Seeing as how you are second guessing yourself so much, I would suggest just waiting for another day (Unless you know she will break up with you if you take it, and you want her to, so it would be like "sending a message", but still there are much better ways to spend a roll.)

edit: that was a bit one sided. I guess you could also have an amazing roll and prove to her that MDMA isn't evil, but... I mean... you're not going to look like you think you look. You look as if "staring deep in to her eyes blablabla" but she might see "wtf is that insane look on his face, it looks like he wants to murder me." There's a lot of ways this could go down. Just don't make MDMA look like a bad thing.

 

[snafu]

MDMA may allow you to think positively about the break up, I'd talk it out with her some more and try showing her info on here and Erowid. But if she won't listen, why try? I personally wouldn't like staying with someone who didn't accept the choices I make, nor someone who would refuse to listen to factual information rather than what they've heard.

 

[severely etarded]

MDMA is a mindset drug, if you care enough to post this, you are obviously somewhat attached to her.

either break up with her before you do it, or don't do it.

my $.02 is if she doesn't let you be you, ditch her.

the psychedelic side of MDMA amplify my feelings of loss and heartbreak that it will spiral out of control and make me cry.

 

[i against i]

no one can say how you will feel, but just because you "think she is the most beautiful girl in the world" doesn't mean you're in love. i mean, you think she'll dump you if you get high, that's not what love is.

 

[BluLait]

Idk how experienced you are, and honestly I haven't rolled in a while, but I always felt the day after to be the exact opposite of the peak and lasting longer, so that along with thinking about your gf doesn't seem to fun

The day after, and honestly, a week after taking MDMA. I usually feel more sentient, and generally in a better mood and more self-esteem than normal
That's because I don't abuse it.

I personally wouldn't like staying with someone who didn't accept the choices I make, nor someone who would refuse to listen to factual information rather than what they've heard.

I know right? I like her sooo much but.... I'm thinking, I can't be with someone who doesn't accept me for who I am, which is, a drug user.

Since I posted this thread, she actually called me and we had a normal chat, she might not break up with me.
The only thing she's worried about is me acting all weird and shit in front of all her friends, which I promised I wouldn't. I think I can control myself when on MDMA, but honestly, I've only rolled 3 times before and I didn't have anyone to tell me if I'm weird or not because everyone was fucked up on drugs.

So, if she breaks up with me. That's what was meant to be. I can't change myself because she wants me to, so I guess it's better to break up now than later on when I get even more attached to this girl.

But probably I can save this relationship if I show her I can have a nice fun time and not be an awkward fucker when I'm on drugs.
She already hates me when I'm on weed cause "I'm fucking weird & shit".

i mean, you think she'll dump you if you get high, that's not what love is.

Yeah, I guess it's not. But nothing she said makes me think she'll dump me. She just expressed her concern about my mental health taking into account my drug use.

She thinks I'm fried because she keeps reminding me of things I can't remember. But I can't remember them because I simply don't really listen to her looooong boring stories. She expects me to remember every little fucking detail she tells me. And of course, I have to look like I care... And then, a week later when the subject comes up again and I don't know what she's talking about she tells me: "See, it's all the drugs you're using, they've fried your brain so you can't remember".

Which is funny, cause she used to get high with me on weed all the time.

So yeah, maybe she won't dump me ... or I dunno.. fuck it. I'm still rolling at this party because we've worked so much to get lasers & decorate the back yard & get a DJ and a killer sound system. I'm not going to waste such a great roll because of what she'd like me to do.

So, I need advice on how to roll in a party involving 100 people and not dissapoint her (which is looking like the weirdest guy there). The point is, there will be plenty of other people getting high & drunk & shit.

I'm good. Yeah.

 

[severely etarded]

The only thing she's worried about is me acting all weird and shit in front of all her friends, which I promised I wouldn't. I think I can control myself when on MDMA, but honestly, I've only rolled 3 times before and I didn't have anyone to tell me if I'm weird or not because everyone was fucked up on drugs.

sounds like a waste of an MDMA experience being around a bunch of sober people who think ecstasy is bad and puts holes in your brain.

So, if she breaks up with me. That's what was meant to be. I can't change myself because she wants me to, so I guess it's better to break up now than later on when I get even more attached to this girl.

It would really suck while rolling, unless you're already talking to another girl or something to distract you from lonely depressing feelings, while rolling!

But probably I can save this relationship if I show her I can have a nice fun time and not be an awkward fucker when I'm on drugs.
She already hates me when I'm on weed cause "I'm fucking weird & shit".

lol, i'm sure she won't find find you a bit awkward at all when you are rolling, having a good time with your wide eyes rolling back in your head while being affectionate and she just thinks your being weird and clingy & shit lol. 8)

Yeah, I guess it's not. But nothing she said makes me think she'll dump me. She just expressed her concern about my mental health taking into account my drug use.

Mental health concerns over drug use are valid concerns. How often are you using MDMA, and how much? What other drugs are you using?

She thinks I'm fried because she keeps reminding me of things I can't remember. But I can't remember them because I simply don't really listen to her looooong boring stories. She expects me to remember every little fucking detail she tells me. And of course, I have to look like I care... And then, a week later when the subject comes up again and I don't know what she's talking about she tells me: "See, it's all the drugs you're using, they've fried your brain so you can't remember".

sounds like a perfectly healthy relationship to me 8)

So yeah, maybe she won't dump me ... or I dunno.. fuck it. I'm still rolling at this party because we've worked so much to get lasers & decorate the back yard & get a DJ and a killer sound system. I'm not going to waste such a great roll because of what she'd like me to do.

So, I need advice on how to roll in a party involving 100 people and not dissapoint her (which is looking like the weirdest guy there). The point is, there will be plenty of other people getting high & drunk & shit.

I'm good. Yeah.

good luck

 

[BluLait]

sounds like a waste of an MDMA experience being around a bunch of sober people who think ecstasy is bad and puts holes in your brain.

nah man, it's just her. The other people will probably be on all sorts of drugs or at least drunk.

lol, i'm sure she won't find find you a bit awkward at all when you are rolling, having a good time with your wide eyes rolling back in your head while being affectionate and she just thinks your being weird and clingy & shit lol. 8)

alright... but maybe I can control it?

Mental health concerns over drug use are valid concerns. How often are you using MDMA, and how much? What other drugs are you using?

I've only rolled 3 times in my life, and they've always been spaced out. 4 months between my first 2 rolls and 1 month between my second and my third. Now it's been one month and a half since my third roll. Other drugs? Not many. Used speed like 3 times. 2c-b 2 times, weed a lot, but not so often anymore. And... that's about it.. Codeine once every 3 months.

sounds like a perfectly healthy relationship to me 8)

Can you blame me? She's really really sweet.... but sometimes she just rambles on and on about some stupid shit and honestly I don't have the heart to tell that sweet girl her story is boring so I just pretend like I'm listening.
But the real reason I think is just that I get so lost looking at her eyes that I can't concentrate on what she's saying... they're so pretty

good luck

Yeah, I'll be sure to post here how it went....

 

[pokepoke420]

Personally, if you are putting a drug in front of her than you cannot love her too much. Put her first dude, fuck the drug. If you rather get high and put drugs first over a human being, than dump the bitch man. Don't play with her heart like that.

 

[severely etarded]

nah man, it's just her. The other people will probably be on all sorts of drugs or at least drunk.

alright... but maybe I can control it?

again, sounds like a waste of a pill "controlling" how you feel and how you act while your rolling.

it's so much easier just to go with the flow and enjoy it.

again, just my $.02. I really hope things turn out good for you regardless, best of luck!

I've only rolled 3 times in my life, and they've always been spaced out. 4 months between my first 2 rolls and 1 month between my second and my third. Now it's been one month and a half since my third roll. Other drugs? Not many. Used speed like 3 times. 2c-b 2 times, weed a lot, but not so often anymore. And... that's about it.. Codeine once every 3 months.

Sounds like very responsible use if you are indeed being truthful. While her concerns may be legitimate concerns to have, it doesn't sound like they are currently warranted.

Can you blame me? She's really really sweet.... but sometimes she just rambles on and on about some stupid shit and honestly I don't have the heart to tell that sweet girl her story is boring so I just pretend like I'm listening.
But the real reason I think is just that I get so lost looking at her eyes that I can't concentrate on what she's saying... they're so pretty

ya but if you don't find her stories interesting, and she thinks MDMA puts holes in your brains, and that "you're fried from drugs", does it sound like a healthy relationship?

Yeah, I'll be sure to post here how it went....

keep us posted

I have read this story a few times on here... Breakups while rolling = not good time typically.

Might want to have another girl to spend time with close by or you are gonna have one lonely ass roll!

 

[Darksidesam]

She sounds like she loves you, you could always choose her then find Mandy if you's part ways.

 

[MonKeYDNA]

Have you ever considered that you might not be a drug user for the rest of your life?

MDMA can only get you so far in life man, if she's a 10 then keep her, I'm willing to bet that most of the other girls you run into who accept you for who you are ("a drug user"- more like what you've become) will not be 10's.

Ya, you got a dj and there's 100 people there and blablabla. But I'm pretty sure you said she was the one throwing the party. I mean, you have to respect that without her, you wouldn't have a ballin ass party to roll at that would probably be hella fun with just drinks anyway.

I'll let you in on a tip, the best drug users are those who have control of themselves and know when to do what, where to do it, and who to do it with. Those who don't have that self-control/respect, are more like drug "abusers."

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x7ms4w_saturday-night-live-cracklin-oat-fl_fun

 

[mark881]

Today it's stop using MDMA. Tommorrow she'll be telling you what to eat, what to wear and when to piss.

 

[Chesh]

If the party is being thrown by her at her house, I'd respect her wishes and not drop. When someone has a party or a free house I always check to see if it's cool for me to smoke weed or do ket.

Even if her opinion is misguided it's her house.

Make it very clear that the reason you're not dropping is out of respect for her wishes for her house, and not because you're letting her control you.

 

[yanker]

Like someone else said the days after the roll could be the hardest. Yea u might feel good after other rolls and have more confidence but have u ever woken up from after a roll realizing the girl u love just broke up w u before? It could be a total different suicide Tuesday feeling than you've had during previous rolls. Idk I'd probably refrain from doing it but then leads me to another question. Why on gods green earth would she be throwing a party w over 100 people and a dj and not expect any drug use there? Is she having alcohol there? Does she realize people act a lot more stupid drunk than rolling? That's like my gf throwing a BBQ and not having soda there. Everybody can drink water sodas to fattening! That's just stupid!

 

[Cornishman]

If you want drama, arguments and possibly no girlfriend then take the MDMA.

Come on. Is a crappy drug really worth causing such drama about?
Op you sound young.

Make the most of what you have.
In all likelihood, chances are you'll be single at some point before your 30. Giving you plenty of time to experiment with drugs.

 

[severely etarded]

She's been telling me not to take MDMA at the party she's throwing because "it's an evil drug that will fry your brain and I'm so worried for you bla bla bla".

The only thing she's worried about is me acting all weird and shit in front of all her friends, which I promised I wouldn't. I think I can control myself when on MDMA, but honestly, I've only rolled 3 times before

So to sum this up, you've only rolled 3 times before, she thinks MDMA is an evil drug that fries your brain (even with moderation), she doesn't want you to embarrass her because you're acting weird, you want to "control yourself" while rolling.

Dude - I don't think you realize - Controlling yourself while rolling = talking to the police, parents, etc. Every scenario I have controlled my roll in, was a TOTAL FUCKING BUZZKILL. Every single one, waste of MDMA.

You don't take MDMA to pretend your not even on anything.. That's a fucking waste, dude.

Lots of good advice here. I definitely recommend NOT ROLLING at this party!!!

If the party is being thrown by her at her house, I'd respect her wishes and not drop. When someone has a party or a free house I always check to see if it's cool for me to smoke weed or do ket.

Even if her opinion is misguided it's her house.

Make it very clear that the reason you're not dropping is out of respect for her wishes for her house, and not because you're letting her control you.

Exactly.

 

[LilbabiC]

Since it seems important to her, you could just not take MDMA for this one party. Then at another opportunity show her some factual literature about MDMA. Also, I'd bring her to this site and let her read some posts. I think a really great relationship is one where both people are open to one anothers opposing views and willing to reach a compromise.

Also, I hope you are using a test kit for MDMA. Alot of crappy substances are out there which people are taking and they do have the potential to do harm.

 

[mark881]

Well a decent compromise is to not take MDMA at the party and go out raving behind here back

 

[rizmatter]

You'd certainly feel better than if you were sober lolski