RecklessWOT
Bluelight Crew
and rec..your still young enough and your drinking wasnt really selfmedication, so having that realizitation is a little easier but hes 50 and to him its still 1994 and hes been drinking his pain away for almost 20years..if he quits drinking he has alot of shit to come to terms with and i dont think he can do it, he doesnt have the balls to kill himself so this is his way of doing it...and
Don't kid yourself. I'm not proud but you are aware that I drink as much as Ohline right? I just don't bring it up all the time. (sorry for making you out to be a drunk, woman. you know what the fuck I mean). When I'm not on opes I'm drinking like a fish and guess what I haven't been able to afford dope for a while...
I'm just trying to make sure that I don't kill someone for the selfish reason of not having to deal with the guilt and not going to jail. Honestly I still wish I would let myself drive sometimes because I like driving that much and I really believe I can pull it off, but I am a paranoid insane motherfucker who can't handle the thought of getting in any more trouble or doing something to another person that would make me hate myself any more. And it really is just fucked up to harm someone else just because you think you're that good and untouchable... so I just decide to stay in or make some other asshole take me places when I drink.
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