Today my usual dude that I cop with hasn't come back with the product, so I guess he beat me. Usually I take the ride and just toss him 10 bucks for gas, which is only about 2 bucks more than it costs to pick me up and drop me off. Well anyway, today someone was in the pickup truck with him, and since it's a 2 seater I couldn't go for the ride. I should have just taken the week off like I planned, but he was getting the same fire bags as last week, so I gave in. Also, I've been going through him since last summer, and lately I've copped with him every week, so I'm really wondering what happened today. He owes my other dealer money, so I'm wondering if he's just doing this all and then going to detox or some shit. He's gone downhill FAST since switching to the needle a few months ago. Hes been sniffing dope for 4 years, then switched to shooting less than 3 months ago, and it's been his demise. In those 3 short months he's totaled a car, lost a job, and ripped off our friend, and now me apparently. He didn't do any of that shit before he turned to the needle.
Right when I gave up on him coming back my friend texted me to come outside. She asked me for a cigarette since she was bugging out about a cancer screening she had to get, so she tossed me a Suboxone for the cig, and then a second one for another cig. I think that's a sign that it's time to slow down again. I've been using dope 2x a week, and subs 1-2x a week so I want to cut it back down to dope once a week, and no subs or anything between.
Its been hard lately because I work weekends, and get out late, so i can't use my money to go out with friends on the weekends since I'm working the whole time from Friday through Sunday, and my dealer with the best stuff is only around on the weekends now, so it's so easy to have him drop off bags at work since I work a lot closer to him than I live.