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Internet 'bullying' - suicidal thoughts

Dirtyven

Dirtyven

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Okay so i'm a musician, i've posted on forums to promote myself, trying to get my name out.
But everyone keeps saying i'm an eminem imitator and i suck and shit.
I know it's silly and i shouldn't care since i been beaten up so many times and shit, but it hurts and i'm falling back into a depression.
And now these people (no one in particular) is saying i'm shit 'cause i'm an eminem imitator, which i'm not, i'm doing my own thing, he's not even my main influence, big proof is

so yeah, idk what to do
and i'm going to rehab/detox so no more getting high to forget about the depression
all these people saying this shit has made me have suicidal thoughts, i was so happy when i finally got my music together and then i just get bashed, how fucking good does that feel
'scuse me for swearing

EDIT: If you wanna hear my stuff, ask me, i make underground type hip hop.
So yeah, if you wanna hear my stuff, ask me and tell me if you wanna hear angry, sad or just plain out weird songs that i made when i was on drugs that i thought was funny.
I'll also provide a link to my channel

Thanks in advance

Oh P.S. I even have a love song so if you like that, i'll show you
 
There are always so many clueless people who post up on the web about hip-hop. They probably never even heard of Proof. So you can relax knowing that the folk who are calling you an imitator know damn all about the music & probably only have heard Eminem on at all a regular basis in order to make the comparison ;) I'm sure your stuff is way more original than these flaming posts suggest, right? So pity those that wrote them for having such closed minds and be thankful that yours isn't.

Peace, ethnobot
 
Do you like R.A the Rugged Man? He's my fave rapper.

Anyway, just don't listen to them man. Underground Hip Hop isn't for everyone, most people are too clueless to appreciate the good shit, hence why it's underground.

http://www.sonichu.com/cwcki/Main_Page <-- If you think you've got it bad, the internet bullies run this guys entire life and document it. People on the net are fucked up bro, don't take it to heart. <3
 
The internet just seems to breed haters. I used to listen to this song by eminem. I know you said he isn't one of your main influences but this is a great song about believing in yourself and what you want to do even when you do not get a good response from the outside world.

http://youtu.be/hO2wA0Te0wM

I am a visual artist and long ago I had to realize that one of the hardest jobs I would have as an artist is deciding what criticism to take to heart and what to reject. Criticism can be really good if it makes you see something you are missing or have a blindspot for yourself, but it can be terrible when it is just motivated by jealousy or some other pointless origin. Deciding what to let in and when to let it in and how much to let it in is a big part of being an artist IMO. It's like you have to develop the world's toughest skin and at the same time retain the sensitivity that makes you an artist in the first place!

If the criticism is making you feel suicidal then I hope you can work on that while you are in rehab. (Congratulations on going to rehab BTW). Nothing that anyone says should be able to wound us that deeply. There is only one way to defend against that (because you cannot stop the haters) and that is to strengthen ourselves inside. Believe in yourself and believe in your music and your voice. You have something to say and you are saying it and putting it out there and you deserve lots of credit for that.<3
 
yeah i don't quite believe in myself yet 'cause all i've had is shit criticism, nothing positive, all negative
except from my best friend
 
Yeah man, people will react that way on the internet regardless of how good you are. You're always going to get people talking shit. Everybody gets told that they suck, even the best. If anything, though, use that as energy to continue to get better and prove them wrong. I remember several years ago I posted some clips of my singing on some musician website because I was trying to get good, and they tore my ass up and told me I was awful (in this case I did suck, though). I felt like shit but decided all I could do was work harder, and I improved. Every time I haven't gotten the reaction I was looking for to my music, yeah I felt bad but it motivated me more than anything to improve.

But don't take it to heart. Like others have said, the internet is full of people talking shit. I'll bet most of the people that insulted you didn't even bother to listen to more than a few seconds of your stuff.
 
yeah i know, but it's the fact that i've never heard anything good about my music but from my best friend
everyone else is just saying i'm an eminem wannabe and talking shit
sure i got 2 songs on my mind, things i gotta get off my chest, but then idk, i need something positive, someone to tell me i'm good at what i'm doing and that i should keep doing what i'm doing, but no one's told me shit about that

and i been bullied in school too which is why i take it so hard
and there's so much drama everywhere, it's hard to keep my cool sometimes, i just lose it and cry 'cause now i've fallen back to depression, which i'm battling for my best friend mainly
gonna make a song about that after the one i'm working on now so yeah
 
maybe have a fallback plan in case the rap career doesnt work out

just bein real man
 
i'll keep rapping, it's like therapy for me, but i want some positive response every now and then at least
i'm rapping for me mainly, but i do want that respect too, which seems kinda impossible to gain at the moment
 
Every white rapper will be compared to Eminem man. Don't take it too seriously, the people who are insulting you aren't doing that either.
 
i make music too. I also have severe confidence problems and think everything i make is shit. I've been doing it for years and I have actually made some decent songs. They don't really catch on and no one cares about them and that discourages me but if you enjoy doing it then that's a good enough reason to keep trying. And remember that out of every 100 songs you make, there'll be one really good song and that applies to most people, just keep trying. Even the greatest artists make absolutely terrible music sometimes.

The respect will come with time. If you are just doing this for status then you're in it for the wrong reasons although i do think everyone would love to be appreciated completely. Try to use the criticism from others to your advantage.
 
and being a rapper is full of criticism, they rip on each other all the time.
 
Ven-good luck in rehab, hopefully that will help you take your art of music even further..you can do so much and go so far whether you are being commended on the Internet, or bashed by what would most likely be young children who finished their homework early for the day, and must find people online to make fun of to pass their time. Many of the people that give you strife about your work, would more than likely not be capable of doing the work you have done; so don't despair. Let it make you stronger. I wish you all the best-you can send me a message with your channel if you like. It's YouTube I assume?

And Herbavore-you always give such sound advice; whenever I read a comment you have left for someone else, it is always something that the whole circle of us can use in everyday life; very helpful bits of wisdom you put into words so well. So thank you Herbeeee=D
 
If you don't believe in yourself no-one else will. So stop getting offended and worrying about what others think. Use the adversity to make yourself stronger. If you like doing it then do it. All rappers get 'hated on' especially if you're white. You've got to earn your respect, find your niche and just keep at it. Could you send me a song and I will give you my thoughts about your strong poitns and any constructive criticism etc.
 
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I almost feel like saying it's normal that people were so hard on you...sadly, 99% of people on internet will insult others as soon as the opportunity presents itself just to feel better about themselves. Nice people are hard to find :) you should persevere and hang in there and not let those idiots affect you. Their loss if they have to bring others down to bring themselves up. It's just sad. If music is what you like doing and if it makes you happy, then continue.
Be glad to hear some of your stuff though I haven't listened to anything that wasnt 70 rock in a long time so I'm not the biggest hip hop afficionado haha..also feel free to PM me if you need to talk and shit.
Also, good luck with rehab. I'm sure withdrawing must be making everything even more awful.
 
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