ErgicMergic
Bluelighter
I am taking Dexedrine, about 15-17.5mg daily, for my severely inattentive ADD. I take a 7.5mg dose, then a 5 mg booster, then 2.5mg boosters to reach the total dosage listed, each taken 2-3 hours apart.
Once the Dex kicks in, the brain fog goes away, and I can focus on my work, and not ramble or cut people off in conversations, have normal motor coordination, no hyperfocusing, etc., which are the good parts. The bad is that life is so boring on ADD medication. With an ADD mind, the world fascinates me and I would be totally satisfied doing absolutely nothing. I would be able to hyperfocus on a particular thing and just have a blast doing that without the medication, but only if it were of extreme interest to me.
Hyperactivity being reduced, and maybe because "normal" life is pretty damn boring, I find myself almost falling asleep sometimes on Dextroamphetamine, even after a solid 8 hours of sleep and a good breakfast. So, I've found myself taking caffeine and ephedrine to counteract this, but caffeine is such a crap stimulant. My sleep schedules are messed up from constant dosing of low dosages of caffeine. I still manage to get 7-8 hours of sleep, but frequently have to miss class or other appointments to do so. I find myself typing this at 5am, for instance.
Is there a better way to not get so bored and sleepy? Or is life just plain boring, and having a brain wired differently just adds a certain spice to it that has its own benefits? I kind of wish societal expectations weren't so high today, and I lived 40 years ago, in a more laid back time where not everyone had to conform to a certain level and type brain functioning in order to hammer out massive amounts of academic and professional work, but this is the world we live in, I guess.
Once the Dex kicks in, the brain fog goes away, and I can focus on my work, and not ramble or cut people off in conversations, have normal motor coordination, no hyperfocusing, etc., which are the good parts. The bad is that life is so boring on ADD medication. With an ADD mind, the world fascinates me and I would be totally satisfied doing absolutely nothing. I would be able to hyperfocus on a particular thing and just have a blast doing that without the medication, but only if it were of extreme interest to me.
Hyperactivity being reduced, and maybe because "normal" life is pretty damn boring, I find myself almost falling asleep sometimes on Dextroamphetamine, even after a solid 8 hours of sleep and a good breakfast. So, I've found myself taking caffeine and ephedrine to counteract this, but caffeine is such a crap stimulant. My sleep schedules are messed up from constant dosing of low dosages of caffeine. I still manage to get 7-8 hours of sleep, but frequently have to miss class or other appointments to do so. I find myself typing this at 5am, for instance.
Is there a better way to not get so bored and sleepy? Or is life just plain boring, and having a brain wired differently just adds a certain spice to it that has its own benefits? I kind of wish societal expectations weren't so high today, and I lived 40 years ago, in a more laid back time where not everyone had to conform to a certain level and type brain functioning in order to hammer out massive amounts of academic and professional work, but this is the world we live in, I guess.
