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How are you in one word? v. flying purple elephants

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^don't forget to breathe, darling. <3

my word is excited. i just finished one class for the semester and have two more to go. the next week will be stressful, but the end is right around the corner! :)
 
the other day my friend and i were thinking of synonyms for the phrase "debbie downer".... my favorite one we came up with was "melancholy melanie"
 
Like SHIT.thats a feeling rite. Fuck u methadone wds. Day 7 cold turky from 150mg daily. Im here n a partial hospital program for addicts n the dr rxd me valium. Lol thats a fuckn first.im n badddd wds still so i kinda sorta need the vals to sleep atleast :/.
 
^^ Hang in there man, much love coming your way <3



I feel like I'm drowning :( I feel worried and panicky. Teetering on the brink of depression, and it's been so long since I've felt like this, I really hope it doesn't eventuate in to anything.
 
^^ don't let it drag you down. I can empathize a lot, may it be depression, self-doubt or -loathing, craving etc. Often when I experience these feelings after some time I feel like "WTF happened??? That same old feeling is back, so fuck it, I'll go fuck myself up. Everything is so pointless!" or even feel guilty for it like I had done something wrong to deserve feeling like shit.

When I was in detox, a woman in my therapy group was bitching about how she couldn't sleep and felt awful all the time day in day out. It was a bit exhausting for everyone in the group. Then a therapist said something I that made me really angry at first: "Please stop complaining all the time. It doesn't make anything better, and in the end you don't have a right or sth. to be well and happy all the time. " I felt offended by this and thought "How can she dare? She has no idea what we are going through. That's so brutal." But halfway through rehab I understood the meaning of that. When I feel bad that does not necessarily mean that I or someone else did something wrong and it doesn't mean that life is unjust. It simply is life, you feel bad sometimes and you feel good sometimes.
It helped me a lot to take a step back and watch myself. Are there possible reasons or triggers for that? How do I behave when I feel bad? Is that behaviour functional? And how does this crazy space monkey I call me behave this time ;-). That takes the edge of it for me.

I whish you a lot of power to go through that! If you like you can always drop me a pm!
 
(((n3o))) it'll get better. just don't forget to breathe. <3 <3

i'm excited. i get to take a break from studying for finals and see shpongle tonight!!! =D
 
Thank you VW and spork <3 <3 <3

I am feeling better, emotionally. But now on an unrelated matter, I am really worried about someone.

*edit* wow, almost exactly on cue, got a text from them. All is well! PHEW *big sigh of relief*
:)

I am happy and can now go to sleep :)
Night yall! <3


Oh and spork, have an AMAZING time at Shpongle!!!!!!
 
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