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What age do you think you will die?

YellowPolkaDotHalo said:
Have you told your key worker (?) that you are suicidal cherry?
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Yes Cherry, please do this. Our paths have barely crossed yet I'm sitting here worried about you! Not much I can do hundreds of miles away though, except this kind of thing. And you know there are loads of EADDers who care. <3
 
Nomy, while you're offering me some hope, dying before reaching 30 is start part of my plan. I'm not remotely depressed but I think about death on several times a day in an effort to come to terms with my mortality. Realistically I don't believe life is really worth this suffering that it entails but I'm too comfortable with my life to act on these feelings. I think that the majority of people are only alive because they're afraid of death and the unknown, not because they feel they have any purpose or because they think the highs are worth the lows. And I never wanted to live that way.

So when I take drugs, I often take risks because I don't care if I die. When you're dead, you won't have any fears or regrets, what's so scary about that? Only life can make you feel like shit. If we were all certain that heaven awaited us we'd all have found reasons to justify suicide. Living is the safe option - we mostly drift through life feigning oblivion to our mortality!
 
That all sounds like a bit of a mass of contradictions to me... How can you both not care if you live or die but also plan to die before 30? Don't get me wrong, I totally agree with much of what you type, it's just that 30 came and went and despite... a weensy bit of risky drug use and related phenomena over the years, I was still alive. And nowt changed :\

Setting a desired endpoint for life is but a fleeting affectation of yoofdom. Sadly. Unless you either deliberately end your life (or maybe get caught by surprise at an almost certainly deeply inconveniant moment) you'll get old same as everybody else. Got nowt to do with fear of death so much as apathy towards actual suicide. Continuing to be alive is the default option unless you really fuckin' mean it. For better or for worse.
 
Shambles said:
Balance of probabilities, I'd say. Given that being high is mostly better than not being high the ideal death scenario kinda follows by default, I'd say.
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You can't balance probabilities on something as like dying, I doubt its like any other experience you will ever have , I say doubt as I haven't died so I can't give any certainties. People descriptions of near death experiences and the research done into them would suggest to me no drugs, unless your in pain or owt are needed.

Personally I want to be properly ther to experience it, if I can, not loaded and risk just fizzling out in a haze of opiates, I've seen someone go that way and it was surprisingly unpleasant .

I think the statement says more about our obvious fear of death than anything else.

@class-a team - "So when I take drugs, I often take risks because I don't care if I die. When you're dead, you won't have any fears or regrets, " Just remember you won't be there to enjoy the feeling of no fear or regrets, it's unlikely to be like a release, not like feeling bad then taking a whole heap of drugs and feeling better.
Having not been dead its very difficult to give a definite answer but I'd say it's not worth the risk and your better off working on the basis of the above. Try and build your heaven whilst your alive as best you can, it may well be th only chance you get
 
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cherrycolouredfunk said:
No. My birthday was months ago. I had a massive wish to die last night, (but it didn't work) and still do. Hence the quoted post. Nevermind.
Fuck key workers - A&E today if you really feel in danger, fuck the consequences of it C, we can't lose you, the world needs you it isn't time to go. Fek you haven't even started yet, you might think you've lived your life but you've got much more to give., it's not a question of trying harder, that sounds like you blaming yourself which is a waste of time.

If your not safe get thee to a place where you are safe even if that does mean going into residential care, Ilnow its scary but it;s better than ending up all blue and cold, it's not a good look and I'm not tryning tobe flipant.<3
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cherry get some help today. <3

I'm 42. I get forgetful. I've probably already posted in here.

Iam much happier now than i ever was. Lots of things I thought middle-aged folk never did, I now realise they/we do, and better than our younger selves.
 
YellowPolkaDotHalo said:
Have you told your key worker (?) that you are suicidal cherry?
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Yup. She referred me to Mental health intervention team, I had my assessment with two psychs last week, they had a conference about me, waiting for letter with their input of how they best think they can help me.

atm said:
Fuck key workers - A&E today if you really feel in danger, fuck the consequences of it C, we can't lose you, the world needs you it isn't time to go. Fek you haven't even started yet, you might think you've lived your life but you've got much more to give., it's not a question of trying harder, that sounds like you blaming yourself which is a waste of time.

If your not safe get thee to a place where you are safe even if that does mean going into residential care, Ilnow its scary but it;s better than ending up all blue and cold, it's not a good look and I'm not tryning tobe flipant.<3
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Yep, residential it is. I'm on referral list for stablisation (Not detox, as they don't take you off your meth, just get you used to JUST being on Meth, and nothing else) at local mental health hospital. Hopefully my funding for place will come through sooner rather than later! Need to sort dual housing benefit before I can go too.
 
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nomy said:
Basically, enjoy life as much as you can, while you can. Anything less is such a waste. And you may just surprise yourself how long this party can last....
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Party still going here. Not without its problems but still going. And will be to the end. However soon or distant that might be.
 
To himself everyone is immortal; he may know that he is going to die, but he can never know that he is dead. ~Samuel Butler

At your age SHM you must feel the Grim reaper breathing down your neck every morning All you've got to do is stay a hairs breadth out of reach of his scythe. :) :sus:
 
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Dead give away there MM, you wouldn't have seen it if you had had him on ignore=D
 
no, you ignore a cunt, then it keeps coming up wth the post "You cannot view this cos Mr Smokes Blunts is on your ignore list", sometimes curiosity gets the better of me, and you have a button to click and view that post, like this time, and I'm glad it did.
 
I've tried that (not for MSB I hasten to add) it in the past but in truth, that's not really ignoring someone really, you know , I know it, kits selective post reading at best.
Thw hole ignore thing is a waster of time and only really useful when you've lost your rag with someone and need a break, to gather youself together and remember tis just the tinternet and people are entitled to post what they want within the rules....you cheeky monkey you;)

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Why have you got him on ignore when he's more worthwhile listening to than you? Haha :D

Touche though MSB, I've still not tried it yet, mixing acrobatics with sex could easily end in death, broken boner or twangled bojo string. Got to weigh up the pros and cons of the manouvre.

Maybe I did get the age wrong. Anyone predict any celebrity death dates? I'm fancying Charlie Sheen in a avelanche. Seems likely.
 
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