I rarely do MXE, Ketamine is a far, far superior compound. If you have access to reasonably priced ketamine, I can't imagine ever choosing MXE over it - for one, it's nice to not have to drink 5 gallons of water every time I do ketamine like I did with MXE to merely not feel like shit at the come down. The K afterglow is always warm and gentle, one of the best antidepressants I've ever had (though I only do Ketamine once in a blue moon), and I've never felt physically off or dehydrated from it. The hole is less chaotically terrifying - you simply glide through it. And the shorter duration makes it a lot more practical, plus a longer duration isn't needed since time is practically out the window in a hole.
The only advantage MXE has that I can think of is that it can be plugged to great effect. It would be GREAT if I could just plug all that powder instead of snorting it all up like I do with K! 200mg is a lot of powder, at least it doesn't burn though.
I concur, MXE comedown is usually really horrible. Feels physically and mentally like i had been binge drinking for several days... Shame, because i love it's dissociative peak though. Ketamine (IM esp) is so much smoother experience overall.
You know you can dissolve the powdered K into water and IM it if you take care of proper sterility (micron filters etc). I have IM'ed only liquid vials myself though, feels good man.
Fun shit but too much power.
Playing with lives to people who don't expect isn't funny.
It can kill for sure.
Just be safe and don't compulsively redose it.
I'm done with it. It showed me things and I'm hanging up the phone before it kills me. Because it will, the way I used it.
The reason it shows you life's secrets is because it almost kills you. If you aren't careful, it will. If you keep on using it, it might also.
Get your message and hang it up quick with this one. This stuff isn't good for you. You get the dose wrong the first time and it could be your last.
I learned a very valuable lesson about research chemicals with this stuff.
It was my first and last short research chemical addiction I will ever have.
It can get out of hand very easily yes. Wise decision you have made, but want to elaborate what happened that made you think the above thoughts?
Whatever the reason for quitting your usage is, you must remember however, that MXE doesn't actually (sadly?) have supernatural powers. Making you think that way is part of how it works. If abused long enough it will make your thinking patterns really crazy (but paradoxically very logical from your perspective) without you even noticing it. You must keep your mind skeptical and don't get too caught up in the world it shows you. You can see how your twisted your thoughts were, only after being clean of it for some time. But in the end, you will be fine (if you dont keep using it constantly).
Believing the content of the trip is some deep thruth is very alluring (and very convincing because of how it alters your mind state) if you have a specific kind of mentality. I have noticed traits of this in myself but i have always managed to question what to believe and kept myself at least somewhat grounded. Your post is good example of what i said in my trip report about starting to believe the hallucinations having actual physical consequences. I get this alot, love it and like to fantasize around with it but always keep the skeptical edge in the end.
It can kill you for sure if taken enough, but not by altering reality. Of course you can't prove that statement to be true, but you'll gain nothing by starting to obsess about it. Look how obsessively i'm writing about MXE at the moment even though i don't take it's visions at face value.
Stop using it to gain some perspective. Even though you now, right after a powerful experience feel like quitting forever, you might think otherwise as soon as tomorrow. Especially if you think the trips feel like a puzzle just about to be solved. Please don't get sucked into this.
fake edit. Saw you had posted again right before i was posting this. So you were in actual physical danger? Want to tell still more what happened?
even more edit. I felt like i was having some serious physical heart problems on the peak of my ego death hole. But i'm pretty sure they were only "harmless" panic attack style symptoms magnified and altered by my receptive mind state. It was on 100 mg...
