Fire&Water
Pumpkin King
I have 2 questions:
I have a stomach disease that sometimes causes me to go to the hospital and have been there up to 4-10 days. The day I
am leaving I will get one last pain shot, for an example let's say I got a shot of Dilaudid (spelling) and I will wait at least until
the next day but sometimes I don't wait to go into full withdrawal mode when I take my Sub dose (hot/cold sweats, not
wanting to be around anyone, RLS, etc...) like everyone is supposed to do (or at least the first time I know it is like that
because I went through that) and instead what I do is I will wait 24hours and then take my Sub dose with a benzo and I
don't go into PWD that day or any other and this is what I did the first time I ever had totake opiates again and then
re-adjust to taking Subs again (which I have researched is the same thing that if one slips up or gets hurt or ends up having
something like I do, etc... you are supposed to wait again until you are in full withdrawal to take that first sub dose).
So pretty much every time now (I don't slip-up like oh I just feel like taking an opiate nor have I unless they were
administered in a Hospital) I just wait 24 hours (or once I start to feel that I am sweating or achy for no reason, but usually
no less than 20-24 hours/next day) and take my sub dose with a benzo and I am fine, is this weird? I only do it that first day,and then the next day I will just take my sub dose and continue on... Am I doing any permanent damage by doing this or evenanything wrong mentally/physically at all or do other people do this as well?
My next question was do people feel more...I guess the best way to put it is uncomfortable in their own skin and/or want to
rip their skin off? Obviously I don't mean seriously want to rip it off but just don't feel right since they started
suboxone/subutex, like for me I went from being so comfortable with myself to now I can't pee in public areas or I sweat for
no reason sometimes very badly and the 2 worst things is I will get this feeling like please nobody touch me and my GF takes
it personally which is like 75% of the reasons we argue/fight cause I won't be able be touched, have sex, cuddle, anything
and then I went from being able to grow out my hair and go weeks and months if I had to without having to get a haircut but now I have to get one every week literally because if I don't it adds to that feeling...I just don't feel like myself and this only came after I started suboxone. (I could go on about this feeling forever because it has ruined so many things in my life and
hopefully I am explaining it well enough for people to understand but if you still don't it is pretty much just this feeling of
anxiety where I can't be touched and I have to shower and I will get anxiety/panic attacks and then it of course just gets
out of control from there and I will have to take a Valium and that doesn't always work.
Sound like you may have anxiety/panic disorder...I dont think the bupe' would cause alot of the feelings you describe Do you take a prescibed benzo' or just an occasional one here & there ?