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Thats terrible :( Noone should be made to feel bad, especially physically hurt, for having emotions. They should be embraced and allowed to be explored. I really can't believe there are parents that lay a finger on children.

I've gotten comfortable to cry in front of my therapist. I used to have a huge problem with even just opening up to one, let alone be comfortable letting out all my emotions. I used to go into therapy sessions saying I was feeling fine, even if my heart was ripped out of my chest. I'm glad I managed to open up.

I'm pretty sure actually that I cry at every therapy session.
 
I'm having a tremendous fibromyalgic flare-up today. There is a mood component, but having all one's pressure points (besides, of course, my hands :|) aside from the ankles has rendered me unable to do my tasks. This sucks. I need to work, it is season!!!

With fibros, we always get our blood work perfect unless we are sick as in the flu. The docs think it's a figment of our imagination. I'll assure anybody that it isn't! My chiropractor is at home and the weather is awful; I don't know being home would be better for my stress level. I'm hopeful I will be able to shower soon. I told my bestie here that I need some spicy Thai rice noodle soup. He'll be here in an hour. (to vegetarians - I ordered it with tofu ;))

Even when I don't feel well, I don't lose my sense of humor. What is one thing that you like about yourself, TDS? Maybe I'll create a thread. I'd rather be crying with happiness.
 
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I'm having a tremendous fibromyalgic flare-up today. There is a mood component, but having all one's pressure points (besides, of course, my hands :|) aside from the ankles has rendered me unable to do my tasks. This sucks. I need to work, it is season!!!

With fibros, we always get our blood work perfect unless we are sick as in the flu. The docs think it's a figment of our imagination. I'll assure anybody that it isn't! My chiropractor is at home and the weather is awful; I don't know being home would be better for my stress level. I'm hopeful I will be able to shower soon. I told my bestie here that I need some spicy Thai rice noodle soup. He'll be here in an hour. (to vegetarians - I ordered it with tofu ;))

Even when I don't feel well, I don't lose my sense of humor. What is one thing that you like about yourself, TDS? Maybe I'll create a thread. I'd rather be crying with happiness.
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I'm sorry your having such a hard go of it today. Fuck that sucks. I never realized just how idiotic and chauvinistic doctors are until i dealt with them and Ive even had female doctors tell me fibro does not exist. Like wtf? Morons the lot of them.

Feel better soon <3
 
Gaah... so flat dont wanna do anything dont even know what im posting.
Sucks to know that ur not well and i really hope that u find some relief soon Mariposa<3
The plan the plan, The plan's not gonna work today. as simple as it was... Fill a script, buy E-cig cartriges, grab a drink n come home. That goddamn easy folks and im having a struggle :!
Might mallow out if i take the pill i probably shoulda took half an hour ago.
Just another day of the shitty cycle i gotten into.
On a lighter note i am here and glad to be.... I am who I am thres no escaping that but @ least i got you wonderfull folks many with broad shoulders that trys help hold me up and carry me thru TDS and the dark times<3<3
 
@TNW: Jebus, that's horrible. Thank goodness that you've overcome that conditioning.

I have a really hard time crying. Which is funny, because my eyes are constantly watery - allergies and dust mostly. But the actual emotional release from crying... last time was at my grandfather's funeral, I think. Things will hit me with intense sadness, but the release just doesn't come. And my parents were supportive of expressions of emotion too. Hm.
 
tnw I'm so sorry to hear that you father was so hard on you :( I too am really glad you've overcome that now and can feel comfortable with expresing your emotions <3


spork I am exactly the same hun, with not crying in front of people. I don't think anyone except my boyfriend has seen me cry as an adult (or a teenager for that matter). Oh wait, my sister and mum were with me when my kitty died last year, and I cried like a baby then :D But apart from that, like you, I don't even cry in therapy sessions, even if what we're discussing is very emotionally distressing. I have developed the ultimate "mask" throughout my life, it's a very tough one to break. I feel like I want to cry in my therapy sessions, but I just can't. I'm sure a lot of people like us can relate.
Anyway, regardless, it's really good that you had that emotional release during your latest session, even though you might feel a bit scared and vulnerable having done so. It indicates that you're making good progress, and that is always good :) <3


I have been crying a lot lately, since coming off Wellbutrin (3 weeks ago). I cry watching movies, TV shows, advertisements, when listening to emotional songs, or for example last night I got a really shitty haircut and paid heaps of money for it and just felt super ripped off and cheated. I cried the whole way home in the car (45 minutes)!! 8) :D
 
^ am sorry to hear that n30... I been emotionaly wrecked somewhat aswell esp with the tears... Funny how such little things can seem so majour and set one off i get it all the time:\
I just got off anti depressants now they want me on fucking Zoloft:! have we not exausted the fucking SSRI, MAOI, trycilic and anti psycotic paths already, shit doesent work for me even if it does a bit i cant stand myself two months later the things change you from you into someone else.

AND the damn plan worked so now im here with all the tools to fuck things up again today and b4 i even knew it i was into it. Epic fail:( will try again tomorow. Anyone out there wanna chat or something? I'm just sitting here leading a meaningless existance, Dont take this wrong i wish i had a dog for companionship during the day coz animals dont judge and are loving and loyal, was spoken about in another thread... anyways im out but im about, so drop us a line if ur out there and wanna get on MSN or drop a PM.
Its about as social as im gonna get today.
 
... or for example last night I got a really shitty haircut and paid heaps of money for it and just felt super ripped off and cheated. I cried the whole way home in the car (45 minutes)!!
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Good thing your kind smile still shines through, haircut or no!

I'm actually a little jealous of your newfound ability to cry. Things are good right now, but there's still a little knot in the pit of my stomach that doesn't seem like it's going anywhere.
 
my crying habits are odd. i do cry a lot when i'm at home or even alone at work. pretty much anything can trigger it too...but sometimes when it's appropriate to cry nothing will come out, but it might years later. it's very sporadic.

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I have a really hard time crying. Which is funny, because my eyes are constantly watery - allergies and dust mostly. But the actual emotional release from crying... last time was at my grandfather's funeral, I think. Things will hit me with intense sadness, but the release just doesn't come. And my parents were supportive of expressions of emotion too. Hm.
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this hit close to home. what made me cry was talking to my therapist about my grandfather's funeral back in november and how it was the first time i can remember crying in the presence of my parents. my parents never really discouraged me from crying either. i'm not sure why i am how i am with that.

thanks for all the words here, everyone. it's nice to know i'm not alone on this. :) <3
 
Man in the middle of class today I just started to feel terrible. What a worst time to have life hit. I'm still trying to recover, but man I don't know what to do. I'm so bored and nothing is interesting at all. TV just pisses me off, I can't practice synth with out hating how I'm playing, and reading is almost impossible. so lame
 
ive been skiving from music study.. nothing inspires me lately either.. cant summon my muse

shes a bit of a paddy pisshead so probs on the harp down The Green Man
 
Ever since I first dosed mushrooms when I was 13 I've cried rather easily. Well, I've always been very emotional in the first place, but I can really remember starting around high school I'd cry watching TV, movies, etc. Any emotional scene I'll cry. Any time a friend tells me a tragic tale, I'll cry. I don't understand why.

Maybe kinda related, I yawn all the time (adhd symptom) and it makes my eyes so teary. I'll have teary eyes pretty much everyday for a period of time. I don't even have allergies or anything.

Speaking of crying, I plan on doing that while I try to fall asleep
 
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Coming to think of it i cried alot as a child untill my father died, i seemed to harden up due to the place i grew up and the fact id pushed the grief deep down, was hard as fuck in first hear of a shitty highschool, got fucking expelled anway also like a fucking brick during my apprentiship, a first year that 3rd years looked upto. God that period from like 18 to 25 i was like fucking invincible.. Now im a total wreck, Go fuigure maybe botteling stuff up too much has led to this....
Splat.... i see ur online, i too am obviously online also.... Got any plans for the day?
 
Well I'm in the US, so sleep haha, but thats a bit later in the night. I went to my class to become certified as pharm tech today, and that was pretty much it. Tomorrow, I'm not sure. I gotta get into a routine of doing something other than sitting on my ass.
 
thanks everyone... now i just wish i could get my dad to talk to me.... he realizes he was a shitty father i think (:() but i can't seem to make friends with him so i can get him to feel better. always has an excuse to get off the phone after like 2 minutes etc.

now i, too, cry fairly easily. cried watching this the other day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YMetnmjv90k&feature=fvst the bit in the middle where the mom shows the letter she wrote to her dead son just made me lose it...
 
I have been crying a lot of happy tears lately, too! Just thought I would throw that into the mix.:)

This world is truly amazing. People are amazing. And it all goes by very fast!

My big boy turns 24 today so I am waxing nostalgic. It will be sad to go out tonight because we are going to the same restaurant that we went to for his birthday last year and last year included Caleb. We were reminiscing about how long we had to wait to get a table and how Caleb was possibly the most impatient person on the planet. My sons both are such miracles--so different and yet equally fascinating to me. One goes on and gets older and I get to see the mystery unfold further. One left us far too soon and went into the mystery that we all find out about in due time. I am sad to think that my older son has no living brother anymore. I never wanted an only child. But, I am so proud of who he is; the empathy and understanding he gained from his brother will be part of him forever. I could go on forever LOL......better go visit blogs!
 
Herbavore - Much love and light to you and your family. I never wanted to be an only child, but here I am. <3 Caleb is out of pain now, you are a very competent human being.

Miracles are everywhere. If any of us were to look at our everyday lives, we would find so many. I cry easily as well. It stops me and causes me avoidance of being embarrassed. Some people understand and some do not.
 
Bottling up emotions never helped me. People call me an asshole because I'm honest.

-Though I'll admit. Lying my face off every now and then certainly helps. Just don't let it catch up with you.
 
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Sounds odd, but I am happy when I'm able to cry. I couldn't cry for such a long time. I tried because I thought I "had to" at some life events, but the tears wouldn't come. Now they come from time to time, and it releases so much pain and tension. It actually feels real.
 
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