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MDMA Single use - Long periods of not very niceness - (can anyone relate/help)

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papoose

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i am 20 and male! I took mdma i think about a month and a half ago! took a lot maybe over a gram of mdma over a weekend, i thought it was like coke and u could just keep on going? it was pure enough! had a week of utter horribleness, which did get better. I then developed some bad anxiety, i thought everything was wrong with me, ringing in ears so i reseached that, evertthing, Bad enough to make me move back in with my parents! i felt really bad and anxious for what i thought was no reason... i told my parents about the hole thing. I saw a doctor who didnt know much about it as he was just a family doctor, and im sure not many people go in saying there have taken a drug etc. He said what are you worrying about.. I said.. the fact that i have ruined my brain, and now i dont have the ability to regulate my mood. seretonin all that (i had been constantly reading info and other peoples storys, infact i found my self only content when searching through peoples stories, and when i found one where someone felt better it would give me a slight boost.

any way the doc said are you getting better.. i thought yes i am gradually..., he said ok so enjoy your time off work and relax over christmas and see how you are.

over christmas i felt good, but couldnt help thinking there was something up with my eyes. Not a vision disturbance as i could see perfectly clear, but like my eyes felt heavy and i couldnt look at something for too long without looking away, it is really hard to explain, its worse when looking at screens such as pc and tv.

i feel the The hole thing could be over and i could be feeling normal apart from this problem i have with my vision . its like if i look around i get slight light headedness. and now this is along time after taking the drug. could this be still anxiety i dont know.

The fact there is still something wrong with me means i cannot forget the hole episode. I want to go back to just being free of being aware of my bodys every move.

How can i get normal again? Iv started regular exersise, iv quit all drugs and im eating well, i dont know what more i can do other than wait patiently without getting angry that im stuck in this cycle.

I guess i just used this to express my self, i dont really expect much reply, sorry!!
 
Yeah this is normal for for some people with heavy use, called a crash. Some people are much more sensitive than others. I've had it happen before, not nice at all. Things will go back to normal though. It's just a matter of waiting it out. If you ever decide to try MDMA again don't take as much;) Hard lesson but most learn it sooner or later.
 
Self-induced anxiety man :)

Stop being a pussy and man up, it's all in your head.
 
took a lot maybe over a gram of mdma over a weekend
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Just to let you know, Thats's a LOT of mdma to consume over that space of time. I myself would take around 8 - 10 months to consume that much.


My personal advice to you OP, I hope you take it i really do.
http://thebrain.mcgill.ca/flash/i/i_03/i_03_m/i_03_m_par/i_03_m_par_ecstasy.html

This is how MDMA effects our brains ^^^

Serotonin is a Vital neurochemical which plays a role in a lot of things.
Low serotonin levels can cause Anxiety, Depression, Fatigue, Lower level of concentration/alertness and perhaps even stress/anger.

You need to work on replenishing your Serotonin in your brain. Most people use 5-Htp but i reccomend against this.
My advice to you is to:
- Not take MDMA for another 6 months Minimum (This will help learn your lesson and appreciate mdma can cause problems)
- Exercise 3 times a week
- Incorporate some of these foods into your diet: Dark chocolate, Tuna, sardines Bananas, Chicken, Turkey, Milk, Free Range eggs, Walnuts,


Good Luck :)


Next time you take MDMA (if there is one) ,

I reccomend taking like 120mg in a capsule, Then That's it. Redosing is a terrible idea tbh and it makes a lot of people end up with nasty comedowns and all the negative side effects you are experiencing.

I know this from experience, in the beginnings of my useage i used to Dab away at mdma, but to be fair i never did more than 250mg in one night, But i used to get the worst comedowns ever... ...Then i came to bluelight and combined knowledge on here with Serotonin related Depression theories and neurochemistry writeups, and ever since not been getting as bad comedowns.
 
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brimmy said:
Self-induced anxiety man :)

Stop being a pussy and man up, it's all in your head.
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^This

Let me share this with you...my comedowns have actually gotten way better as i've gotten older and it's not cause i do less cause i sometimes do more. It's because i know after crashing hard so many times that I will WITHOUT A DOUBT always return to normal over time. A lot of the crash people experience is compounded by getting over anxious and paranoid about what's going on in your body. This is why i'd suggest a nice long run. It will release endorphins which will greatly reduce your anxiety and help you sleep better. Make sure you run outside too...exercising outdoors during the winter has been shown to reduce depression UP TO 70%...that's a HUGE number.
 
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^ Can I ask why you reccomend against 5htp?

Is that in op's case or in general?
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I only go by other peoples experiences with 5-htp.

I'm one who believes we shouldn't be necking pills every single day,
So id rather eat to achieve the same results as 5-Htp so i share this with others who are seeking help.
Some people who have ate the foods i listed who took 5-Htp Before they tried eating those foods and getting sunlight said that eating those particular foods and getting sunlight is more effective than 5-Htp and that they do not suffer things like Brain zaps either (Brain zaps are a bit of a warning sign tbh, ive never actually had them, only from Citalopram 20mg, which i stopped taking after 2 weeks of nasty symptoms)
 
I am running 3 times a week 3miles a time, im going to start adding those things into my diet, iv tried a few 5htp pills but they didnt do much just gave me crazy dreams! although i still have vivid dreams without them.

what do you mean by brain zaps? i had them for a week or two after the bender but they have stopped now. its just my vision, i feel constantly not normal?? will this go away do you think, is this just being anxious the hole time?

I do think this is alot to do with self induced anxiety, but its gotten so far down the line its like i cant snap out of it! The only time i feel good is directly after exercise or drinking in the pub!!

i think i took more than a gram aswell... didnt wanna put it cause i know what u all say!!
 
1g of MDMA single use wont do anything permanent.

You're causing all your own symptoms at the moment, I know what it's like. You think there is something wrong so you nitpick trying to find something wrong and just cause self-induced panic attacks. It has been 6 weeks now, all the MDMA is out of your system and the problems you are describing are all mental problems which IMO sound self-induced. You just need to man up now and get on with life (and research drugs before using them next time :P).
 
I can say until around the 7 week mark After NOT taking mdma, my vision goes back to how it did before i took mdma.

Eat the foods i said,
iv tried a few 5htp pills but they didnt do much just gave me crazy dreams
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Seeee this is why im not a huge fan of supplements in pill form. I do like valerian root though, sleep so well on that.


Heres a typical example of what ive ate today and what i eat very often:

3 weetabix with honey
2 bananas, 3 tablespoons of oats, and a pint of full fat milk blended in a smoothie. Its delicious
and ive just ate a tin of tuna, tomatoes and lettuce in a sandwich, 2 slices brown bread.

Did some chores and walked the dog 3 miles now im sitting here in decent sunlight (at my pc haha)

Keep busy and eat the foods i was chatting about, it will go away and you will get better trust me. I know that people get afterglows when they take mdma on an Infrequent basis, but
People are still always in the 'Recovery phase' for the next month or so. Mdma takes quite a toll on the brain really. Dont get me wrong i love the euphoric effects of mdma but you have to really treat this chemical with respect.
 
This is all true! I was a pussy at the start and kept thinking there was stuff wrong with me, then turned into a nervous wreck, my mates who all cained it as much as i did fully recoverd. i just read too much into it, if i didnt know about how it effects the brain then i woudnt of felt like this! dont get me wrong ive been getting on with life, i work 9-5 as a graphic designer for a busy business so have no time to dwell on things, however it is still at the back of my mind! and sometimes at the front. i think maybe the visual strains i get are from sitting infront of this fukcing computer every fucking day!!! lol Cheers for the advise guys

Defo wish someone told me to just take a little bit of it, i was eating bombs like sweets!! felt fucking amazing at the time i must say, but was then chasing that oringial high!

I dont intent to take mdma or another class a again, iv stopped smoking and stopped smoking weed, i think its probably a good thing this scare happened as now i have turned my life into a healthy one!!
 
Mdma isnt something you should chase the high with in my opinion. If you aren't having an amazing enough time to accept that wow that was a good 4 or 5 hours, (or 6 in one case for myself, 180mg :D )
Then you are most likely Overdoing mdma.

Its unfortunate you learnt this the hard way.
 
I didn't know that! I really didnt. i had 2 partys to go to, i thought u could just stay on it untill you go to sleep, like with coke or whatever.

I over did it to the maximum, its not unfortunate cause my life style before this was rubbish, i used to smoke weed all the time and binge on everything over the weekends, It's turned my habbits around, i just want to be able to feel more relaxed in my self! and less anxious!!!

But you asure me i will so thats good!
 
lots of people do abuse it,
i mean i met one guy in london who basically buys a g or 2 and snorts it until its all gone , snorts it every 2 hours,
thats just crazy ..

I'm kind of person whos been to a rave, then to another rave, then goes back to an afterparty, so thats a lot of time on chemicals Lol.

I usually do mdma on the saturday night, then just do ketamine for the rest of it, followed by some weed when i get in
 
papoose said:
I didn't know that! I really didnt. i had 2 partys to go to, i thought u could just stay on it untill you go to sleep, like with coke or whatever.

I over did it to the maximum, its not unfortunate cause my life style before this was rubbish, i used to smoke weed all the time and binge on everything over the weekends, It's turned my habbits around, i just want to be able to feel more relaxed in my self! and less anxious!!!

But you asure me i will so thats good!
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Might sound weird, but MDMA might be able to help that ("i just want to be able to feel more relaxed in my self! and less anxious!!!").
 
papoose don't touch mdma for at least 6 months.

Your body is giving you warning signs , and your anxiety is Multiplying them moreso.
Listen to your body/mind
 
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