It's that time of year people are putting lights up on their houses (which I like), holiday blues are a go-go baby. Hopefully I'll get some more money to buy things to drown it out with soon, I'm out of booze as of this evening.
This year kind of sucks for me, I have exams right up to the 21st, but I have the 22nd and 23rd booked for snowboarding so that sort of makes up for it. And yeah, those core days like (23-27) I always spend loafing around with the family on opiates/benzos. They're all drinking but I'm only drinking a little bit.
It's funny, I called it out one year; we break more dishes in those few days than we do any other time of the year; everyone's drunk :D
^ My last DXM trip was a bit of a disappointment as well, although I don't think I'd undo it if I could. At first it was actually really euphoric, but then I just started thinking about all the negative things in my life and it became darker and just really weird...
I have yet to have a 300mg DXM trip that didn't show me something. They all seem to show something in the end. Of course the body load can suck. I find MXE to be very DXM-like but with much less (if any) body load.
O.K., O.K., that was pretty cynical. I know not everyone's like that. I actually really love christmas lights, especially the multicolored ones... I could stare at those all day! Oooohh...
Christmas IMO is scheduled perfectly because it co-insides with the darkest (shortness of days, weak sunlight), most depressing part of the year. In the years after I was 13 and before my sister had her own kids christmas was pretty ho-hum, boring and pointless. Christmas is all for kids. When kids are in the picture it's much more entertaining and fun, even if it sometimes takes you off your nod.
it may be the most cold and serious psychedelic drug I've ever ingested.
Ditto; why I don't use it. I tried it twice. Once at 20 mg oral, the other at 12mg plugged. Both of them were hellish, especially the plugged one. It's such a powerful drug and I wasn't ready for what it wanted to do. For trips like that I'll stick with LSD or 4-AcO-DMT, 2C-E scares the shit out of me.
In all honesty I don't have much desire for trips like that though. For a deep phenethylamine trip 2C-T-E (2) is my drug of choice. For the last while I've been getting good benefits from non-hole dissociative trips and empathogens but I can't do the latter anymore, the crash/week after is too much to bear. I'm going to try MDAI over the break.
I also find I never get visuals from dissociatives. It's all mental. In a low dose, non-hole I'm very open to thoughts andconnections. When I do hole it's the same thing, but stronger and I'm not aware of my body. I never actually have visual/auditory hallucinations though.
I've always been flabbergasted on how a lot of you fellas can use psychedelics so frequently (especially strong 5-HT2a agonists), for me the trips are so powerful I can't bring my self to think about doing it again until I'm back to re-integration (actual time interval depends on many factors).
I don't know if you guys ever play around with home electrical stuff, but when you get hit with 120v, you tend to have a natural tendency to wait a bit before trying again (in that analogy you obviously unplug what it is you were working on). As a hypothetical situation I think it represents what I'm saying though.
