roxyoxyhydro
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If I am in the wrong place please move this, or let me know.....
Anyway.... I have never been so sad, or hurt, never. My husband and I both have addictions to opiates. He is a horrible alcoholic, he never used to be. When I say horrible I'm talking about a bottle a night (5 hours at most).
Sunday night he got mad (after a few hours of him "power drinking"/ binge drinking). He cut the tip of my finger almost off!!! I was standing in the kitchen eating after reheating a slice of pizza. He decided he needed to knock the plate out of my hand, it broke, it sliced the tip of my finger in half. My aunt took me to the ER. I only needed 4 stitches.
His question to me today is "Tell me why I should stay"... I have no answer to this. We have 3 young kiddos, aged 4-11. I know on one hand I don't want them to ever see this again. On the other hand I don't want them to think it is ok to treat somebody like this (2 of them are boys aged 4, and 6, my daughter is 11 she shouldn't think women deserve this)
My main problem is this.... I still love him, I love who he used to be. I miss him. He wants a reason to stay. At the moment I am so hurt I don't know what to say. Long term I don't think he will change. He has gone to alcohol detox twice, and rehab once.
I work on appointments, I didn't even take any today... I don't think I have ever cried so much. Not even when my dad died 6 years ago. I stil;l love my husband... I'm so lost, hurt, confused, and sad...
Thanks for listening.... I am so sad. I don't want to loose him. I just want the guy I fell in love with back.
Anyway.... I have never been so sad, or hurt, never. My husband and I both have addictions to opiates. He is a horrible alcoholic, he never used to be. When I say horrible I'm talking about a bottle a night (5 hours at most).
Sunday night he got mad (after a few hours of him "power drinking"/ binge drinking). He cut the tip of my finger almost off!!! I was standing in the kitchen eating after reheating a slice of pizza. He decided he needed to knock the plate out of my hand, it broke, it sliced the tip of my finger in half. My aunt took me to the ER. I only needed 4 stitches.
His question to me today is "Tell me why I should stay"... I have no answer to this. We have 3 young kiddos, aged 4-11. I know on one hand I don't want them to ever see this again. On the other hand I don't want them to think it is ok to treat somebody like this (2 of them are boys aged 4, and 6, my daughter is 11 she shouldn't think women deserve this)
My main problem is this.... I still love him, I love who he used to be. I miss him. He wants a reason to stay. At the moment I am so hurt I don't know what to say. Long term I don't think he will change. He has gone to alcohol detox twice, and rehab once.
I work on appointments, I didn't even take any today... I don't think I have ever cried so much. Not even when my dad died 6 years ago. I stil;l love my husband... I'm so lost, hurt, confused, and sad...
Thanks for listening.... I am so sad. I don't want to loose him. I just want the guy I fell in love with back.