Well, its really happening! Can't say I would ever recommend this method to anyone else, but it seems to be the only way I know how to get off the gear(unless, of course, I am behind bars). Took the Amtrak down to my Mom's for the holiday. Knew I would have enough dope to last the trip and for the actual Thanksgiving day. I really didn't relish the thought of ruining such a fine feast by being deep in
the bowels of junk-sickness.
So, all was peachy until yesterday. And the minute i was left alone in their house, I did a search for any and all drugs. Turns out my mom is one healthy fucker. I did manage to score 5 5mg vikes. And I spent half an hour debating whether it would even be worth taking them. Pills usually do nothing for me....but i was in that fiending mode, so anything probably would have sufficed. I took two and had the last klonopin as a chaser. Within an hour I was feeling ok. Mostly sleepy. But i knew it would be short-lived. And It was. Couple hours later I ate the rest of the vikes and had the worst night that I can remember in a long long time. I should have said "screw the pills", and just taken my sub. But its hard to let go.
I rocked back and forth all night long.....literally. I put a half piece of sub under my tongue I think at like 4am. And waited. Then another half. I think I finally passed out for a couple hours at 6 or so.
Not feeling great right now, so I took another half. Mostly its just the not giving a fuck about anything mood that is messing with me. That and no energy. But I am doing this! No dope (heroin) for two days. I head back home on Monday so hopefully I will have a solid 3 day start to this sobriety thing.
I'll keep ya posted. Man, I do not miss the taste of this stuff. Nor the nasty sweats that go with it. And I have zero desire to jump into the shower. So I am smellin like a rose right now
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Hope everyone had a nice holiday.
I miss you 10!!! Where are you?