cj- Here's what I would do: stop worrying about what is next and instead focus 100% of yourself on getting through today - or the next five minutes if a day is too long. Tell yourself that this time is going to be different - say it over and over in your mind. Can you soak in the bathtub to help alleviate withdrawals? Can you get Trazodone to help you sleep? (it does work).
Think of all the help you've been to others - all the good you've done and the positive messages of hope. You've inspired real change. You are a good person and you will get through this. Believe in yourself just as much as you have believed in all of us. We can all change directions and start an new life - we can and you can.
Sometimes families think they are doing the right thing by booting someone out, and they even think it will help that person. If you can, write your dad a sincere apology and tell him how hard you are trying (and struggling). And tell him you miss and love him. That might work wonders. I sure hope it does.
"A man can move a mountain if he does it one stone at a time".
Dale
Think of all the help you've been to others - all the good you've done and the positive messages of hope. You've inspired real change. You are a good person and you will get through this. Believe in yourself just as much as you have believed in all of us. We can all change directions and start an new life - we can and you can.
Sometimes families think they are doing the right thing by booting someone out, and they even think it will help that person. If you can, write your dad a sincere apology and tell him how hard you are trying (and struggling). And tell him you miss and love him. That might work wonders. I sure hope it does.
"A man can move a mountain if he does it one stone at a time".
Dale