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Biggest lie you ever told yourself to justify abuse?

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Swim47

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As we know, when we use or abuse, we will tell ourselves all kinds of excuses and lies to justify our use.

I haven't really acted on any of the crazy ones I had, since i've never really gotten to the hard abuse stage with any substance that lasted more than several days, and even during crazy binges, I mostly stayed rational and always thought long term. Except for the one time described below.

The last one I remember, was that since science doesn't really know why we need sleep (on physiological level), I convinced myself that we really don't need sleep, and continued speed binge to the point where where my body just shut down to protect itself (black out-after several day adderall/vyvanse binge even though that day i had over 160mg of Adderall in my system).

What about you guys? What was the most pathetic, crazy or just borderline retarded excuse you made for yourself to justify your use/abuse?
 
Fuck it. It's my last dose. Might as well end it with a bang before I quit.
*Next Day*
Fuck, I need to re-up. I'm sick as shit.
 
This will cure my depression, this is my only true love.

Probably sounds like over romanticization but i can?t count the number of times i?ve, with absolute sincerity, rung that message through my head.
 
"I do better work on morphine!"
"I'm not addicted, I just like smoking heroin."
"At least I'm not addicted to something that makes me paranoid and crazy as coke." I guess the last is the most stupid one (addiction is addiction).
 
That reminded me of one.

*while shooting up coke* at least it's not meth.
 
^ lol when I was smoking meth I used to say to myself "at least it's not cocaine". Wasn't lying though, but still...doesn't seem like a good excuse
 
If I'm honest, when I started using meth I used to say " at least I'm not shooting coke", so yeah it worked both ways.
 
I developed a theory that all artists/musicians/television and movie producers were actually making their content specifically to experience while on drugs, and I just had to have it the way it was meant to be served, right?

"Yeah, I'm shooting meth, but at least I'm maintaining a job"! *Proceeds to go to jail and lose job that night*

"Well I'm homeless now, and I've got nothing better to do"

"All my friends do drugs" *They were smoking weed while I was shooting meth*

"At least I'm not speedballing"

*As I'm doing meth INSIDE MY REHAB* "They won't prescribe me Vyvanse, and I really need to get my treatment work done, soooooo"

I've said and done the stupidest stuff to get high or justify it
 
"opiates make me preform better during sex".....
on the flip side "We'll if i'm not getting laid i might as well be doing something"
 
herbavore said:
If I could count the number of times my son said this to me.....and then there was no tomorrow.
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Hey herb. I feel bad as I must be a reminder, though I know you think of him all the time regardless.

You did get through to me back when I was going crazy. ♥





Another big lie I told myself is "I don't care if I get addicted because life is not worth living without drugs"
 
When I used meth on weekends. I convinced myself it was healthy because it got me out of the house and active.
 
I somehow convinced myself that I could not possibly damage my body if I only shot up into my arms and hands. I think I'd read something somewhere that said these were the *least* dangerous places to shoot heroin. (It did NOT say that they were safe places to shoot heroin, but apparently that's how my drug-addled mind interpreted what it was reading.) "The legs are where it gets dangerous. Shooting into the legs causes blood clots. I'm not that irresponsible. I stick to arms and hands only, like a responsible junkie." When my sister was basically interventioning me and pointed out how dangerous the process of injecting is, I actually argued with her as though she didn't know what she was talking about. "Um, actually, check your facts. Shooting into the arms and hands is pretty safe. Maybe you should educate yourself." We we're having the conversation over Skype. Otherwise she probably would've smacked me.
 
This morning I ate some amph even though it hasn't been a full week since last dose and I have plans to take again in less than a week, justified because I've been at home fasting for a week and can't stand the boredom, and because I figured I could do some house cleaning while slowly building up to figure out how many mg I start gurning at (because when I take it to be social I need to ensure I'm not chewing my face off in front of people). To my credit, I keep the dose within the therapeutic range and I actually did do a good bit of house work unlike the last few times when it was just 20 hours of internet and porn...
 
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