I have stuff to say / post alot of the time, but it's all just irrelevant zoizimus concerning the shite I've been glued to on the TV and how much I enjoyed those new films on my birthday. I need to contribute such thoughts and feelings to the relevant threads but I just guess that folk don't want to waste their time reading it.
This is in no way a problem as the majority of the posts I make are for my own benefit as Bluelight is the only place where I have always been 100% my raw self and nothing more and it is testament to the patience of everyone here that I still benefit greatly from being able to share my most irrational and selfish desires without being judged wholly on my choice of lifestyle.
It's a bit of a catch 22 I suppose, despite first encountering Bluelight around 2002 / 2003 I never looked to closely at the site, as I found it via Pillreports, which was at the time one of my most valued resources on the web due to my being completely absorbed within the dance scene at the time. During all those years I spent week ending it, I never felt nor had the need to share my IRL social experiences with a virtual community...
(Godskitchen's message board, which had it's uses in determining how busy the club was likely to be any given weekend as an indicator of whether or not special measures were worth taking to ensure entry, was otherwise an awful clique of the biggest ponses to regularly frequent the club but even they had their place as natural diva's they were spectacular dancers)
...it was only once I found myself without a life anymore, with a heroin habit firmly in its place, that I started to use Bluelight but only a a resource, like many, it took the UK heroin drought 5 years later to actually get me to bring myself to register an account and interact.
But even since I and the other junkies started Bluelight on the path to ruin (not my actual belief, but one shared by some and one that could be empathised with from a certain perspective), the RC scene really kept this forum jumping for a few years, and out of everything, the correlation between the introduction of the PSA and the decline in EADD activity has to be the most glaring. But, although they have very few posts and are on life support, our colleagues over at UK Chemical Research, a fantastic forum who's USP prior to the ban was that, unlike us, they could discuss domestic vendors with a focus on harm reduction, is still just about active so with regards to Bluelight I'm not going to worry to much quite yet.