I posted something here a few months back similar with no reply, but since then I feel whatever problem I have has worsened. So in short, basically last year at the start I tried MDMA for my first time and loved it and the feeling, throughout the year I probably did it 9-10 times, but this was mainly near the end of the year when I started uni, in which I probably did it 4-5 times, 3 of this was in the space of two weeks. Now going into the new year I have slowly developed pretty bad social anxiety and have all the symptoms, I now dread going to seminars because I basically fear that I might go red if someone talks to me, and just have a really low opinion of the way I socialise now, even though before this has never really been an issue. I feel it is getting worse to the point where I fear places i'll talk to people I don't know that well about a week before, even though I know its irrational but can't stop the thinking and it is causing me to get really down and I fear it may lead to depression, which I have had previously when I was 15.
During my MDMA taking a had a bad experience where I thought making tea and coffee for my mates would be the best loving thing, except having 9 hot drinks in your face is not a smart thing, and I had what I believe was a heated episode, and before this I was in a house in a hoodie and jacket and my friend pointed out how hot I was. I believe this could be related to the anxiety as since then I seem to have this fear of overheating, even though it is such a rare thing to happen. The fear includes thinking about it at night at sometimes, and even dreams, such as the other night where I dreamt I was doing MDMA in my lounge and was sweating really badly.
I am writing this post just to see what I can do to help this anxiety as its becoming all I can think about and making me less social, even though I am not that type of person at all. I am also doing it to see if people have had similar problems, and what they did, as I don't want this to get worse. In order to help I am not taking MDMA for a while, and have also decided to stop smoking weed.
I haven''t written this for sympathy, this is my fault, I just want to get some help, but have no idea where to look for it. Taken me time to think about making this post, so I am hoping someone will have some sort of answer, of whether it is just a waiting game to wait for the long term affects to go, or if I need to see a doctor or something. Happy to answer any questions to help get to the cause or whatever, but before I end this, if you do MDMA just be careful because it can mentally fuck you as I have seen, cheers.
During my MDMA taking a had a bad experience where I thought making tea and coffee for my mates would be the best loving thing, except having 9 hot drinks in your face is not a smart thing, and I had what I believe was a heated episode, and before this I was in a house in a hoodie and jacket and my friend pointed out how hot I was. I believe this could be related to the anxiety as since then I seem to have this fear of overheating, even though it is such a rare thing to happen. The fear includes thinking about it at night at sometimes, and even dreams, such as the other night where I dreamt I was doing MDMA in my lounge and was sweating really badly.
I am writing this post just to see what I can do to help this anxiety as its becoming all I can think about and making me less social, even though I am not that type of person at all. I am also doing it to see if people have had similar problems, and what they did, as I don't want this to get worse. In order to help I am not taking MDMA for a while, and have also decided to stop smoking weed.
I haven''t written this for sympathy, this is my fault, I just want to get some help, but have no idea where to look for it. Taken me time to think about making this post, so I am hoping someone will have some sort of answer, of whether it is just a waiting game to wait for the long term affects to go, or if I need to see a doctor or something. Happy to answer any questions to help get to the cause or whatever, but before I end this, if you do MDMA just be careful because it can mentally fuck you as I have seen, cheers.