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TDS Megamerged TDS Psychosis Thread vs. it's all going to be alright

Thank you for this. Yes i prolly wont do any drug for a long time. Actually before last Sunday, my last drop was 3 months ago. And my last Coke was a year ago...

I just want to know if my hallucination will Go away ? coz obv the drug worn off days ago... but i still have halluconatoons :( and crawling feeling
 
Be sure to be honest with the psychiatrist about the drug use. It can be difficult for a psychiatrist to differentiate between psychotic symptoms and drug-induced psychotic symptoms. You don't want a diagnosis slapped on you because you did not divulge the drug use.

Psychiatrists today are (in the majority) often just drug prescribers. Try to find one that is willing to try non-drug interventions first.
 
I think you have made the smart choice by going to see a doctor. As far as I know, there isn't much you can do besides taking medication and allowing your body time to heal and providing yourself with the right nutrition and rest that it needs. I wouldn't suggest staying on anti-psychs or any medication longer than needed, but for the first few weeks it might help you level out.

I've gone through drug induced psychosis a few times and can relate to the struggle you must be going through. Hopefully you have someone close to you that you can trust and confide in, someone who can kind of serve as your anchor to reality and get help if things get too bad. Talking about my delusions really helped me start to see the difference between real and imagined, it can be near impossible to decipher between the two at first.

The first time ended in a seizure related to benzo WD and took a couple months before I felt like myself again. Second time I was force fed anti-psychs and other meds that I have no idea of the who or what. Can't really say whether it helped or not because I was so far gone the second time. I was supposed to keep taking the anti-psychs and consult with a doctor about it, but, for better or worse, i decided to stop taking them as soon as I had the choice. I noticed they made me sleepy and made it difficult to talk.

Benzos may help, but I can't advise one way or the other because of all the potential risk. If you are experienced with benzos and have access to them it is something you may consider, but being that you are going to see a psychiatrist then chances are it would be best to hold off.
 
Risperdal or seroquel if you are having psychosis. Low dose benzos as well.
 
I'm not even 100% sure it's psychosis, tourettes or a voice i'm putting on after a few stimulant induced psychosis (does this permanently damage your dopamine system?)

I've had quite a few stimulant psychosis, and it's left me with things that shouldn't be there in pictures I have, when I had delusional parasitosis slowly in the back of the porn video I'd see this shaded out cricket appear, the pictures on the wall started to change also, this hasn't gone away considering it was like last october.

I also have this other voice that always says things to people in public like "you look like a bug", "oh! you're a bug.", "you look gross", on this dating site I can get a bit carried away and become a bit like stalker, the voice keeps saying "David oh david" etc. I even have an evil face that I can put on.

How long does it take for this to go away? I don't notice any hallucinations or delusions, but there are some things that I still have.

Another concern of mine is that I feel emotionless at times - like when you go without sleep there's this numb feeling. My emotions definitely feel like they're not half as intense as they used to be. Today I woke up feeling numb like I used to get when going without a night of sleep, so I laid down for a minute then slowly I started to feel tired instead of numb.
 
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It took seven months for my stimulation psychosis to go away. If you can function without AP?s do it.

I regret getting in psych meds. Please don?t do anymore stimulates.

You?re ahead and stay that way.

Either way I wish you the best.
 
I would advise staying off all drugs for a while and eat a very good diet. See how things progress. If your symptoms do not start to lessen then seek psychiatric help.
 
Do you think wellbutrin could treat the psychosis? I find diet is very important, the last 3 months I haven't really been eating properly so i've had these symptoms.

It could be psychotic depression though, I find I was depressed at the same time I had these symptoms. With diet it's easier to control.

I definitely have a problem with dopamine.

Also do you think it could be possible that i've permanently damaged my dopamine system? I find that ejaculation is never as pleasurable as it used to be. Also the high has basically from speed. I hope this isn't permanent.
 
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I've been diagnosed as schizoaffective but I abuse deliriants and dissociatives daily. Could it be overlapping periodss of delirium instead?
 
I dunno but if you are shizoaffective the last drugs you should probably be doing are deliriants and dissociatives.
 
I agree with QuasiStoned--cut out all drug use if you can. Just like it is difficult (to impossible) for a psychiatrist to know whether a mental condition is drug related or not, it will be impossible for you to tell as well as long as you are muddying the waters so to speak. Do you feel you could stop using mind altering substances for a decent period of time? It would do your brain good to be allowed to reset naturally.
 
I get this at times in the evening where I start pacing around the place mindlessly not being able to get my head attentive enough.

I've had this severely when I was on stims before, it's absolutely terrible when i'm in stimulant psychosis, getting food would be extremely hard for me because i'm always forgetting what I was doing, then I end up pacing room to room for like 6 hours.

I've had this so bad where i'd just pace around my flat going from room to room mindlessly always spaced out, just wondering is this psychosis?

Just for example today I started looking in the mirror for a minute then just kept going back to the mirror then all of a sudden it goes quiet and I get this sense of doom (that stims will ruin my life), this all started a little while ago where i'd start thinking "it'll ruin your life" and it feels like everything is downhill from here. This is the whole reason I quit speed - "it'll ruin your life", I start panicking.

I've been clean for 4 months but still get this at times, it's a horrible feeling. I think this is mostly responsible for my depression, I just felt like i've ruined my life, at the same time i'm experiencing paranoid thoughts/delusions of persecution.

I have ADD but pacing around the place mindlessly for hours doesn't seem normal.
 
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Don't worry about it too much. If there is one thing I have learned it is that your body knows what to do to repair and set itself right.
Let it. Just go along with what it wants to do while you are recovering.

Pacing, walking is one way to work toxins out of your system. Do you have any lower back pain going on?
I have found this is from the kidneys. Too much toxins and your body will get up and start pacing because it needs to walk it off.
Epsom salt bath soaks are another good way of pulling toxins out and giving yourself Magnesium at the same time.
The bath soaks are the best way to get Magnesium too because your skin will soak up only the amount your body is in need of.
Really helps for pain and stiffness and mind fog too!

You can heal and you are. I don't think it is psychosis. You are stronger than you know. Don't worry that you will never be okay again.
You will. Take care of yourself.
 
Try meditation for the paranoid thoughts and persecution.
Visualize yourself throwing unwanted thoughts out of your mind.
Pick up those thoughts and chuck them right out of your mind.
Every time they come up, visualize yourself throwing them out forcefully and
One day- they will no longer appear.

Watch your diet too. Breathing exercises and meditation are key.

I hope you feel better real soon. Sending you support and love.
 
Don't worrry this behavior does not sound like psychotic behaviour -psychosis.

It appears to be anxiety and worrying about your anxiety can exhasberate the behaviour; a never-ending feedback loop.

Perhaps try mindfulness excercises, Yoga and engaging in activities and exercise where you get to focus on what you are doing in the moment to help with connecting and grounding your mind with your body.

Anything that is a soothing sensory experience will help you feel more at ease.

To re-iterate what Painful One advised, healthy nutrition and balanced meals 3 times a day with nutritious snacks in between ( so aiming for eating every 2 hours ( with an early start e.g. 7-8am breakfast) will start you on a good pace, metabolically). Be consistent with yourself and take time for mindful relaxation throughout your day.

4 months clean is a great achievement - give yourself some kudos and release the pressure! <3
 
Have you ever tried going out of the flat for a brisk walk instead of pacing the flat? getting outside, even late at night, always does wonders for me mentally.
 
Sorry for not updating for a very long time. I didn't forget about this thread though. I wrote every change in the voice's appearance down so that I could update this thread later, and later is now:

5 weeks after the party, she had gotten used to the voice a lot more, and then she stopped hearing the voice all at once. Instead, she heard a female voice scream. This happened more often but lasted a shorter amount of time. She didn't know wether this was worse or better than the voice because she had gotten used to the voice and she wasnt used to these screams, as she had never heard them before.

7 weeks after the party, the screeams stopped and the voice returned. The voice was now worse than it was right before the screams took over. This was in a stressful period for her, and we have no doubt that stress has a negative impact on her recovery.

10 weeks after the party, the voice is there a lot less often: about 3 or 4 times per day.

11 weeks after the party, the voice is there even less, and on some days it's not there at all.

We still haven't gone to the doctor, and we are both very aware that we definitely should go to the doctor. However, our parents know nothing about the situation and going to the doctor would mean that our parent would find out as i'm pretty sure that doctors can't medicate a child without notifying his/her parents. My girlfriend is pretty sure that she wouldn't be allowed to see me again if her parent found out, and my parents would not react too well either. We know this is a very childish reason for not going to the doctor, but it is the way it is.
 
pretty sure psychosis is associated with detachment from reality involving delusions and hallucinations.

I agree it sounds more like anxiety and racing thoughts and probably excessive worry.

Stretches, breathing exercises, calming music, taking a bath, talking to someone who can relate... all of that type of stuff really helps me. Breathing exercises and stetches are my favorite.. nothing works like taking benzos but there are ways to trigger similar things in the mind that benzos would.
 
18 weeks after the party, she stopped hearing the voice. Just before that, she heard it every two or three days, until she suddenly stopped hearing the voice all together. Up to now, 20 weeks after the party, she still hasn't heard the voice so it seems to be over.

Thanks for all the advice.
 
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