chronicpain47
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Though I read the rules, I'm not entirely sure if this is the best place for this question but since I'm asking about more than one drug though, I hope it is. My apologies in advance if it is not.
I snort ER opiates and an ambien every day. I've been snorting the opiate for maybe 10 months and the ambien for 2 months, maybe a little longer.
Though I am an addict, I actually started not to get high but to simply better treat my pain and insomnia. As you might've guessed from my username, I suffer from chronic pain and it is very severe. My pain management doctor didn't like how long I'd been on an IR opiate, so he switched me from a very effective IR opiate to an ER opiate that gave me no noticeable pain relief. I had read that snorting it was more effective, and that other pain patients had turned to that. I did not want to do this but I was once again in so much pain that I could not function, so I was desperate.
It does not hurt at all to snort and doesn't seem to be causing me any problems yet.
As for the ambien, I was prescribed this to combat the severe insomnia side effect of a high dose of steroid that I take for another illness. Everyone who's ever taken ambien will know that it can have bad side effects if it kicks in while you're not in bed, and that the onset time is so sporadic that either you take it at bed and risk it not kicking in for up to 4 hours(in my experience, though usually the longest is closer to 2 hours) or you take it early and then risk the aforementioned side effects.
So, one night I was heading to bed closely after eating, so I knew that it definitely would take a long time to take effect. That's when I first tried snorting it, and it worked so well that I've been doing it ever since.
That one DOES hurt, but only for about 45-60 seconds, and I still do not have any problems with pain in my nose. Not even dry nose.
I understand these are bad things to do. At this point in time, I am just trying to get by until I have a better game plan regarding my health issues so I am not interested in torturing myself trying to stop yet.
So, with all that being said, I have two questions regarding a checkup I have coming up. I know the doctor will want to look in my nose, so what I want to know is first, if there is damage that I somehow don't feel yet, will she be able to know it's from snorting drugs? And secondly, how much time do I need in between snorting and the appointment so that all the powder will be out of my nose so that she will not see it?
Let me just reiterate that I do understand that this is not healthy. I do understand that I am an addict. But I'm also in a semi-unique position that I am both addicted to these medications, and also actually still need them for legitimate medical reasons. Before these medications, I would be horribly depressed and often suicidal over how miserable I was all the time. I was in such severe pain, and getting about 3 hours sleep per night, punctuated every few nights by a "good" night's sleep - which was still only about 6 hours.
That's why it is so incredibly important that I not be caught at this time. I know the focus here is harm reduction, so you may be inclined to think that getting caught would reduce harm because they would no longer prescribe these things to me, but it would only increase harm to myself through making me suicidal again.
Thanks
I snort ER opiates and an ambien every day. I've been snorting the opiate for maybe 10 months and the ambien for 2 months, maybe a little longer.
Though I am an addict, I actually started not to get high but to simply better treat my pain and insomnia. As you might've guessed from my username, I suffer from chronic pain and it is very severe. My pain management doctor didn't like how long I'd been on an IR opiate, so he switched me from a very effective IR opiate to an ER opiate that gave me no noticeable pain relief. I had read that snorting it was more effective, and that other pain patients had turned to that. I did not want to do this but I was once again in so much pain that I could not function, so I was desperate.
It does not hurt at all to snort and doesn't seem to be causing me any problems yet.
As for the ambien, I was prescribed this to combat the severe insomnia side effect of a high dose of steroid that I take for another illness. Everyone who's ever taken ambien will know that it can have bad side effects if it kicks in while you're not in bed, and that the onset time is so sporadic that either you take it at bed and risk it not kicking in for up to 4 hours(in my experience, though usually the longest is closer to 2 hours) or you take it early and then risk the aforementioned side effects.
So, one night I was heading to bed closely after eating, so I knew that it definitely would take a long time to take effect. That's when I first tried snorting it, and it worked so well that I've been doing it ever since.
That one DOES hurt, but only for about 45-60 seconds, and I still do not have any problems with pain in my nose. Not even dry nose.
I understand these are bad things to do. At this point in time, I am just trying to get by until I have a better game plan regarding my health issues so I am not interested in torturing myself trying to stop yet.
So, with all that being said, I have two questions regarding a checkup I have coming up. I know the doctor will want to look in my nose, so what I want to know is first, if there is damage that I somehow don't feel yet, will she be able to know it's from snorting drugs? And secondly, how much time do I need in between snorting and the appointment so that all the powder will be out of my nose so that she will not see it?
Let me just reiterate that I do understand that this is not healthy. I do understand that I am an addict. But I'm also in a semi-unique position that I am both addicted to these medications, and also actually still need them for legitimate medical reasons. Before these medications, I would be horribly depressed and often suicidal over how miserable I was all the time. I was in such severe pain, and getting about 3 hours sleep per night, punctuated every few nights by a "good" night's sleep - which was still only about 6 hours.
That's why it is so incredibly important that I not be caught at this time. I know the focus here is harm reduction, so you may be inclined to think that getting caught would reduce harm because they would no longer prescribe these things to me, but it would only increase harm to myself through making me suicidal again.
Thanks