i'm a 17y/o male who's going through (what feels like) some scary stuff and i don't know what it is or how to fix it.
about 6 months ago, i ate an entire pot cracker (with little to no tolerance for marijuana, stupid me i know). afterwards, i slipped into this panic/anxiety type of trip. my heartbeat skyrocketed, everything seemed distant (dp/dr), and i was scared out of my mind. i thought i was going to die or have to be rushed to the hospital. my chest/heart had this buzzing or tingling feeling in it. my perception of the world around me is what really freaked me out. the best comparison i can give you is for you to put your phone's camera on and hold it up to your eyes to the point where it almost acts as your eyesight. now try moving around. it felt something like that. like it was distant, i wasn't really in the moment, my heartbeat was racing, and everything was gloomy. my legs/arms/chest were also tingly and numb and also felt distant from me in some strange way.
after calming down and going to sleep, i woke up with a fever (between 99-101F) and, at this point, my trip-like feelings started to come back, but not as intense. everything still felt distant (dp/dr again) but it was nothing compared to the trip i originally had. this trip-like feeling didn't subside for the next 3-4 months. in other words, i didn't feel quite normal or "centered" for a couple of months. in that time period, i experience flashbacks to the trip i had when i initially took the pot cracker. i remember being in school and realizing that my vision/perception was becoming distant and i was having some sort of anxiety/panic attack. luckily, these trip flashbacks were brief. could have been a couple of seconds to a minute if i remember correctly. to add to this, i remember a tingling feeling coming to my legs, almost as if they were numb, but i could still feel things (difficult to explain). all in all, these months were full of flashbacks to anxiety attacks and just trying to center myself and make everything feel real and "not distant" again, if that makes sense
after that hellish experience, everything subsided and i focused on school and my social life and whatnot. it was smooth sailing. up until 2 nights ago.
2 nights ago, i was getting ready to go to sleep when this visual distortion/alteration (call it whatever) happened again. i was at the point where i was about to fall asleep but i still remember being awake. in a quick second, my visual perception changed to that distant feeling for a moment but i quickly snapped out of it. my heartbeat quickened but i managed to calm it down. i thought "ah that's the feeling you get when youre about to fall asleep, i must have snapped myself out of it." i then went to bed.
the next day, i was bored, just on the computer and feeling kind of tired. i decided to take a nap, but then the same thing happened again. as i was drifting off into sleepy/naptime land, my visual perception became distant again and my heartbeat quickened for a second before i jolted myself away. i thought "ah again i snapped myself out of sleeping, just fall asleep with no interruptions this time"
and boy was that a mistake.
when i woke up, i had the whole 9 yards. almost similar to the trip i had initially (while on the pot cracker). my visual perception became distorted, my heart was beating 120 at rest (initially), and i had that buzzing/tingling feeling in my chest. it took me a while, but i managed to calm myself down and the trip slightly went away. i still felt dp/dr but it wasn't as intense as before. my mouth felt dry and no matter how much water i drank, it just wouldn't get wet again. my appetite also changed, i didnt feel like eating anything (but i managed to have lunch and calm myself down). after this trip, my legs felt numb and tingly (as mentioned above during my initial trip) but i still had a sense of touch. this feeling spread to my legs and chest as well.
going to sleep last night was a nightmare. i was afraid to fall asleep because i was afraid of falling into a trip again but at the same time it was getting late and i had to wake up for work. it took an hour for me to truly knock out. then (i don't know if this is related or not), after having a couple of "normal" dreams, i had a complete nightmare. i woke up frightened and still in that dp/dr feeling. it's not as intense as the days/trips before, so I'm assuming it's getting better/out of my system...?
and that's where my confusion comes in.
i bought a drug test (cheap $1 marijuana drug tests) and it looked like it was negative (hard to tell with those crappy tests). yet, 6 months later, i start having these flashbacks or episodes of anxiety and distant visual perception. is it possible that the crap drug test is wrong and i might still have some in me? it was a loaded cracker and i don't have much of a tolerance.
currently, my appetite is still gone and my mouth is still dry. i'm extremely afraid of falling into the "trip-like" feeling again and i just want whatever it is to get out of me. will it subside with time as it did previously? does anybody know what's going on and how to fix it? any similar experiences?
my school has a mental health department, should i go in and have a professional attempt to diagnose me? i don't want to bring in "higher" powers if it's not necessary but at the same time i just feel scared and frightened. i keep thinking something bad is going to happen to me or i'm going to die or my heart is going to give out.
to add to the situation, i'm mostly isolated (not that many friends) and i feel slightly depressed at times. my mental health can definitely be called into question in addition to my pot experience (maybe an influential factor? no idea)
i just want to have everything normal again.
sorry if the post didn't make sense at times or rushed i'm still feeling scared and anxious.
any and all replies are much appreciated.
about 6 months ago, i ate an entire pot cracker (with little to no tolerance for marijuana, stupid me i know). afterwards, i slipped into this panic/anxiety type of trip. my heartbeat skyrocketed, everything seemed distant (dp/dr), and i was scared out of my mind. i thought i was going to die or have to be rushed to the hospital. my chest/heart had this buzzing or tingling feeling in it. my perception of the world around me is what really freaked me out. the best comparison i can give you is for you to put your phone's camera on and hold it up to your eyes to the point where it almost acts as your eyesight. now try moving around. it felt something like that. like it was distant, i wasn't really in the moment, my heartbeat was racing, and everything was gloomy. my legs/arms/chest were also tingly and numb and also felt distant from me in some strange way.
after calming down and going to sleep, i woke up with a fever (between 99-101F) and, at this point, my trip-like feelings started to come back, but not as intense. everything still felt distant (dp/dr again) but it was nothing compared to the trip i originally had. this trip-like feeling didn't subside for the next 3-4 months. in other words, i didn't feel quite normal or "centered" for a couple of months. in that time period, i experience flashbacks to the trip i had when i initially took the pot cracker. i remember being in school and realizing that my vision/perception was becoming distant and i was having some sort of anxiety/panic attack. luckily, these trip flashbacks were brief. could have been a couple of seconds to a minute if i remember correctly. to add to this, i remember a tingling feeling coming to my legs, almost as if they were numb, but i could still feel things (difficult to explain). all in all, these months were full of flashbacks to anxiety attacks and just trying to center myself and make everything feel real and "not distant" again, if that makes sense
after that hellish experience, everything subsided and i focused on school and my social life and whatnot. it was smooth sailing. up until 2 nights ago.
2 nights ago, i was getting ready to go to sleep when this visual distortion/alteration (call it whatever) happened again. i was at the point where i was about to fall asleep but i still remember being awake. in a quick second, my visual perception changed to that distant feeling for a moment but i quickly snapped out of it. my heartbeat quickened but i managed to calm it down. i thought "ah that's the feeling you get when youre about to fall asleep, i must have snapped myself out of it." i then went to bed.
the next day, i was bored, just on the computer and feeling kind of tired. i decided to take a nap, but then the same thing happened again. as i was drifting off into sleepy/naptime land, my visual perception became distant again and my heartbeat quickened for a second before i jolted myself away. i thought "ah again i snapped myself out of sleeping, just fall asleep with no interruptions this time"
and boy was that a mistake.
when i woke up, i had the whole 9 yards. almost similar to the trip i had initially (while on the pot cracker). my visual perception became distorted, my heart was beating 120 at rest (initially), and i had that buzzing/tingling feeling in my chest. it took me a while, but i managed to calm myself down and the trip slightly went away. i still felt dp/dr but it wasn't as intense as before. my mouth felt dry and no matter how much water i drank, it just wouldn't get wet again. my appetite also changed, i didnt feel like eating anything (but i managed to have lunch and calm myself down). after this trip, my legs felt numb and tingly (as mentioned above during my initial trip) but i still had a sense of touch. this feeling spread to my legs and chest as well.
going to sleep last night was a nightmare. i was afraid to fall asleep because i was afraid of falling into a trip again but at the same time it was getting late and i had to wake up for work. it took an hour for me to truly knock out. then (i don't know if this is related or not), after having a couple of "normal" dreams, i had a complete nightmare. i woke up frightened and still in that dp/dr feeling. it's not as intense as the days/trips before, so I'm assuming it's getting better/out of my system...?
and that's where my confusion comes in.
i bought a drug test (cheap $1 marijuana drug tests) and it looked like it was negative (hard to tell with those crappy tests). yet, 6 months later, i start having these flashbacks or episodes of anxiety and distant visual perception. is it possible that the crap drug test is wrong and i might still have some in me? it was a loaded cracker and i don't have much of a tolerance.
currently, my appetite is still gone and my mouth is still dry. i'm extremely afraid of falling into the "trip-like" feeling again and i just want whatever it is to get out of me. will it subside with time as it did previously? does anybody know what's going on and how to fix it? any similar experiences?
my school has a mental health department, should i go in and have a professional attempt to diagnose me? i don't want to bring in "higher" powers if it's not necessary but at the same time i just feel scared and frightened. i keep thinking something bad is going to happen to me or i'm going to die or my heart is going to give out.
to add to the situation, i'm mostly isolated (not that many friends) and i feel slightly depressed at times. my mental health can definitely be called into question in addition to my pot experience (maybe an influential factor? no idea)
i just want to have everything normal again.
sorry if the post didn't make sense at times or rushed i'm still feeling scared and anxious.
any and all replies are much appreciated.
