I know it aint cheap on the DN.You must be spending a fortune!
It's swings and roundabouts Kat - I'm not suggesting that this is in any way related to BCF, but when I've had a full time heroin habit it always costs a fortune leaving me with little or no money for anything else above and beyond the basic commodities to live.
Considering that my latest relapse occurred before the UK street market had recovered to the extent it has now (and by 'recovered', I mean that I can now go out and buy real brown street 'heroin' that works and provides a full range of desired effects more or less when I want to, albeit not in the quantities or consistent qualities that were, for my locale at least, a certified given from when I started buying it regularly in 2003 to summer 2010 when things started to first become noticeably a bit 'dodj' ), as soon as my (last ever for weight) consistently 'fire' link started appearing with occasional 8 balls of typical, post drought 8% purity 'heroin' powder, it started to cost a fortune for no buzz whatsoever from a product that unfortunately still contained enough opiate / opioid content to completely satisfy withdrawal symptoms and maintain the physical dependency.
It was after spending a fortune on what turned out to be 50% total shit for a month or two that I accepted that without a job not only could I not afford to maintain a relapse, I had little incentive too as the drugs just were not good enough to justify spending so much money on them (always a junkfucks first priority), and as my mothers challenging behaviour and mental health issues had made my family home an impossible environment to rattle it off (and I did try, as I have always been able to use the space and sanctuary of what is a reasonably large (and formally nice) house) - I made the, what was only the second, sensible fiscal decision in my life with regards to supporting a heron addiction - I bought a gram of AH - 7921, and after building it up carefully and gradually, reached what felt like a moderately powerful effect after taking 250mg p.o. Without sidetracking into the ins and outs of AH - 7921, I found that a single 250mg dose completely addressed my heroin withdrawal symptoms, holding me for up to 72 hours before I began to feel 'dopesick' again. My second order was for 5 grams which lowered the price of individual grams to 20 pounds. So, after going from needing at least 10 pounds minimum on days which you could not hack spending sick, to spending 5 pounds every 3 days on a drug that would prevent me from getting sick at all. Although it was more useful as a maintenance tool than a recreational drug, the effect from the AH was not in any way unpleasant, and had what could be considered a prolonged (6 - 8 hour), moderately desirable effect, something that could not be said when buying minimum amounts of heroin, as I have always smoked most of my heroin, whenever I would get a bag or 2 to sort out a rattle I would always chase them to relive myself in a controlled manner (and on many occasions my hands have been shaking so badly I have only just managed to get a bag melted onto a plate without jerking the lot over my - never mind having the patience and constitution to prepare and administer an IV safely and effectively) and have never had any illusions that I would get stoned in any way (but sometimes the relief from what may have been a 24 - 48 hour unplanned rattle is fairly cotch in it's own respect). If you take al the waffle above it was the economics and the resultant swap to AH - 7921 that made me realise that at this stage of the game, if all I want to do is feel well (I still wan't to get really smashed on great smack, only I don't obsess about it in the sane fashion that I would have done 5 - 7 years ago),without the necessity to be stoned on gear or weed all the god damn time. This is largely down to the success of my methadone treatment, as having access to a free daily dose of, what is to be fair, a fairly top banana oral opioid....
(I always try to restrain myself from sermonising how good a drug in its own right methadone can be, as I could not in good conscience recommend anyone abuse it under any circumstances, as it is just as (and depending on the current particular average street blend on occasion many times even more so) powerful than heroin and due to its easy and highly effective ROA, much more easy to suffer a fatal overdose from, due to the latency of the effects, the DUA and that in at least 50% of cases (going on the generalism that something like 35.7% of statistics are made up on the spot) it is usually followed by alcohol or a benzodiazepine. HR sub-routine complete 1101111011010010000011001100 )
...is what has given me the freedom to at least start to think objectively and act, as, to get back to the point, any effective heroin habit will always and inevitably cost a fortune, and despite the fact I haven't had to endure and maintain a rattle to free myself from the situation, the health - care led prolonged dependency on methadone has, for the time being at least, left me with enough spare cash, to spend on other rubbish at least - other drugs for starters and enough to have gone back to regularly treating myself to 'toys' (i.e books, Blu - Ray's, video games) whoch, when combined with cannabis especially, is perfection for any saddo who finds their own company very acceptable a lot of the time. But as I begin to finish off this unintentional essay, which I believe may have been inflicted upon the board due to my test run of my weekend ganja which I acquired on the way back from college and have just tried, I would expect that if BCF's current gear source is going to continuing to deliver as it has done, then, to acquire this luxury will indeed cost a fortune.
My point (if you buy the fact that I actually have one) is that out of all hobbies practised by mankind, habitual heroin use is among the most expensive, regardless of the quality, whether you get Doc Hollywood to prescribe you straight up diamorph., or get a good consistent source from places such as the DN or, like me, you still have to play the old bullshit game on the corners.
I would say that at the moment, postie time around the CoreFiend estate sounds like it has that Christmas morning vibe to it......