Word. Only I'm not so much craving sobriety as I am craving control over my addictions, medications and compulsions. I can't see myself ever giving up Opiates at this point, and my lifetime battle with anxiety has made it so that I have a higher quality of living as a benzo addict who sometimes runs out than I did when I was trying to white knuckle my anxiety with breathing exercises and happy thoughts. *Sigh* whoever thinks you can change your brain chemistry by deep, regular breathing, or whatever the fuck, is a moron. Same with those shrinks that think giving me a 3rd different SSRI to try out or another anti-histamine, God, I'd like them to walk in my shoes when I'm having a Panic Attack of the First Order. Then lets see if Zoloft and hydroxyzine does shit.I'm craving sobriety and I need a break from my tolerance
Some cannabis.
We all work differently when high/drunk/whatever. But I'm one of those guys that turn a bit bi when I'm blasted.
I'm craving stims and benzos (which i haven't done in a couple months!) I am completely out of opiates though, so i'll soon be craving that, too..i'm about to try to fall asleep before that happens tho... grrr. Atleast i have herb n kratom...