Captain.Heroin
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1 year, 4 months and 2 days clean for me!
That's simply amazing man.
Much to everyone
1 year, 4 months and 2 days clean for me!
Goodbye bluelight. j to the Mwah
Acceptance is the answer to ALL of my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation- some fact of my life- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept my life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
Finally got a username for bluelight. Been creeping for a couple of years.
First post!
Today is day 10 off suboxone. I am still smoking weed to help with the withdrawal.
I am finally starting to feel like a human again. Suboxone sucks the life out of me.
I'm glad bluelight has this section to post in. Just looking for some support, and to be able to support others.
To everyone in this thread, good job!
Each one of us has different factors in our struggle. Sometimes the smallest step can be the biggest victory.
So I forgot when my clean date was exactly but it was about 2 years ago that I stopped my heroin and benzo habits. So I'm calling it 2 years right now that I haven't used heroin at the least.
Anyway, in these two years I have had exactly one attempt to relapse on heroin which luckily did not happen. I feel pretty good these days and don't really think about using but I'm trying to stay reasonable with knowing that I can relapse anytime if my mind wonders too far...I did relapse on xanax a couple times but it wasn't anywhere near the usage when I was abusing. I don't think you could say my relapse was abuse at all actually, so is that a relapse? I get confused sometimes, but trying to stay reasonable.
Anyway, all is well here and I have my two years off dope!!! :D
That's amazing. I went through months of withdrawal symptoms and wish I could say the same.
Another day down. Coming close to my 11 month mark (in 9 days) :D
That's amazing. I went through months of withdrawal symptoms and wish I could say the same.
Another day down. Coming close to my 11 month mark (in 9 days) :D
Thanks man. I was a little lucky to get out of the xanax relapse because of extremely limited access...anyway it does help to have access to it at a distance and the same goes for opiates. I do know it's possible to stop the obsessive thoughts of using and have days where it doesn't enter the picture at all. All with time.Wow 2 years! Congratulations w01fg4ng!
I'm really looking forward not to think about using it. I can relate to your Xanax relapse as I do miss benzos more than opiates.
Best wishes to all!