an all night coke binge ending in introspective post
Firstly, I would like to say that I am writing this trip report under the influence of cocaine, alcohol and marijuana so I am sorry if I sound fucked up and I am sorry if I am a dork for posting while under the influence and I am sorry for appologizing so much (ha), but I feel a great need to communicate.
I haven't done cocain for about 2 months. The last time I used was when I bought an eight ball laised (can't spell please disregard spelling errors thoughout this post) with some funky numbing agent that gave you a runny nose for about 3 hours after you sniffed a line (I feel like the runny noses and general shittynes of the cut might have prevented me from binging). It is also interesting to note that this coke gave me small scale yet vivid vissuals of things like horses ridding around in the shadows. The two times before that I just took a couple lines off of my friends' stash when ever some yei yo [cocaine, I love these dork brackets]. By the way, I feel that these bits of information regarding my prior drug use are important to the theme of the post.
My friends and I love getting coke and we are usually in the market but we have a lot of touble hooking [getting drugs]. Last night I finaly ran into some coke and I bought an "$80 rock" off of my friend/dealer(I am not sure if this is relevant ot the post but supposedly it is very pure because it is all in rock form; bullshit if you ask me. Although I will testify too it being quite strong with none of the runny nose effects of my last eightball). $30 dollars of this belongs to my girlfriend leaving me with $30 dollars worth for my self and $20 for my other friend who is going to be a sophmore in highschool next year.
After I got the coke I gave my girlfriend her share (my girlfriend is going to be a junior in highschool next year; I feel bad about exposing these youngins (except I am only 18) to such a hard drug but they both asked me for it, if that is an acceptable excuse). With the powder that broke off I did my first line of the night. Like usual, I felt the effects after about 30 seconds and felt on top of the world.
After my girlfriend and I parted I headed down to a club. On the way I did a fairly big line and smoked a bowl of BC chronic[this comes from Bittish Columbia and is considered to be low quality dank]. I wasn't feeling all that fucked up when I got to the club and I wanted to do more coke. The music was shitty club trance and I didn't have any friends with me so I was not having the best time. I left early and thought a "good" remedy for my dissapointing club night was to go home and do drugs by my self while cruising message boards. I came home and did another line, followed by about 3 more. At this point I was spun [high on coke] very badly and my body, I felt except for the fact that my arms and feet were tingling like mad. This is the point where I thought I was overdosing (mabey I was in fact close to an over dose but I now think that it was a cocaine mind fuck). I could feel my heart beat very strongly then I could barely feel it. I was also breating very deeply. I chilled untill the crazieness went away and decided to drink about 3 1/2 shots of vodka mixed with oj to relax my tense body. A half hour latter I did another line. My personal stash was now nearly depleted and I only had one small line left.
This is the part that scares me. I can see sniffing $30 of my personal cocaine in one night but I think I might have formed an addiction. To increase my high I took a tiny bit from my friends rock and made a bigger line. I then smoked a bowl. After smoking a bowl I came in side and laid down for about 1 hour.
Durring this hour, it was about 6:45 am, my mom came into my room to let my dog sleep on my bed. This freaked me out pretty badly even though she thought I was asleep. While I was lying there, partly waiting for her to leave, all I could think about was the sight of the coke being choped up by my now trusty atm card. Sure enough, she left and I did the rest of my friends coke (bringing my total up to $50 dollars for the night). My "reasoning" was that he is quite young and I don't want to be responsible for the creation of another coke addict. Right now I am spun off of the remainder of the coke and have a second dip [kind of like chewing tobaco] of the night in my mouth (tonight I found (two stimulants, imagine that) that dip enhances my coke high significantly). This is also troubling because I have been battling with tobbaco for 5 years. In the past I have spent mabey $35 on one nights worth of drugs (mushrooms and throwing in on a bag a marijuana.) Now I see my self doing $50 worth of coke in a 9 hour, all night binge. Every time I did a line I told myself it would be the last one of the night but 20 minutes latter, I am craving another line.
I have never had this experience with drugs before and I am affraid of getting an addiction to coke. I currently have a lousy coke connction, so it figure it would be hard to become addcited right now. But, next year I am moveing to Santa Clara (out side of San Jose) and I have been told by a friend who lives there that coke is very plentiful in that region. Plentiful to the point that people recieving free lines is not a rare occurence (I am not sure if this is the case where I will be living but it scares me none the less).
This trip report could probably be placed in the darkside forum but I think it fits better here. If a mod disagrees with me feel free to move it.
I am now left with some questions. Has anyone else had this problem/experince with coke (possibly being addicted after 10 or so uses)? Am I doomed for a life of drug addiction? Am I making a complete fool of my self by posting this? I realize that drugs make people do silly things like post druged out rants but I am on drugs and I need some harm reduction. I am feel like I am comming off as a whiner and mabey I am.
I hope found my post informative and hope you will post your comments and *especially* your experience with cocaine if they are close to my encounter.
peace
stinky
Firstly, I would like to say that I am writing this trip report under the influence of cocaine, alcohol and marijuana so I am sorry if I sound fucked up and I am sorry if I am a dork for posting while under the influence and I am sorry for appologizing so much (ha), but I feel a great need to communicate.
I haven't done cocain for about 2 months. The last time I used was when I bought an eight ball laised (can't spell please disregard spelling errors thoughout this post) with some funky numbing agent that gave you a runny nose for about 3 hours after you sniffed a line (I feel like the runny noses and general shittynes of the cut might have prevented me from binging). It is also interesting to note that this coke gave me small scale yet vivid vissuals of things like horses ridding around in the shadows. The two times before that I just took a couple lines off of my friends' stash when ever some yei yo [cocaine, I love these dork brackets]. By the way, I feel that these bits of information regarding my prior drug use are important to the theme of the post.
My friends and I love getting coke and we are usually in the market but we have a lot of touble hooking [getting drugs]. Last night I finaly ran into some coke and I bought an "$80 rock" off of my friend/dealer(I am not sure if this is relevant ot the post but supposedly it is very pure because it is all in rock form; bullshit if you ask me. Although I will testify too it being quite strong with none of the runny nose effects of my last eightball). $30 dollars of this belongs to my girlfriend leaving me with $30 dollars worth for my self and $20 for my other friend who is going to be a sophmore in highschool next year.
After I got the coke I gave my girlfriend her share (my girlfriend is going to be a junior in highschool next year; I feel bad about exposing these youngins (except I am only 18) to such a hard drug but they both asked me for it, if that is an acceptable excuse). With the powder that broke off I did my first line of the night. Like usual, I felt the effects after about 30 seconds and felt on top of the world.
After my girlfriend and I parted I headed down to a club. On the way I did a fairly big line and smoked a bowl of BC chronic[this comes from Bittish Columbia and is considered to be low quality dank]. I wasn't feeling all that fucked up when I got to the club and I wanted to do more coke. The music was shitty club trance and I didn't have any friends with me so I was not having the best time. I left early and thought a "good" remedy for my dissapointing club night was to go home and do drugs by my self while cruising message boards. I came home and did another line, followed by about 3 more. At this point I was spun [high on coke] very badly and my body, I felt except for the fact that my arms and feet were tingling like mad. This is the point where I thought I was overdosing (mabey I was in fact close to an over dose but I now think that it was a cocaine mind fuck). I could feel my heart beat very strongly then I could barely feel it. I was also breating very deeply. I chilled untill the crazieness went away and decided to drink about 3 1/2 shots of vodka mixed with oj to relax my tense body. A half hour latter I did another line. My personal stash was now nearly depleted and I only had one small line left.
This is the part that scares me. I can see sniffing $30 of my personal cocaine in one night but I think I might have formed an addiction. To increase my high I took a tiny bit from my friends rock and made a bigger line. I then smoked a bowl. After smoking a bowl I came in side and laid down for about 1 hour.
Durring this hour, it was about 6:45 am, my mom came into my room to let my dog sleep on my bed. This freaked me out pretty badly even though she thought I was asleep. While I was lying there, partly waiting for her to leave, all I could think about was the sight of the coke being choped up by my now trusty atm card. Sure enough, she left and I did the rest of my friends coke (bringing my total up to $50 dollars for the night). My "reasoning" was that he is quite young and I don't want to be responsible for the creation of another coke addict. Right now I am spun off of the remainder of the coke and have a second dip [kind of like chewing tobaco] of the night in my mouth (tonight I found (two stimulants, imagine that) that dip enhances my coke high significantly). This is also troubling because I have been battling with tobbaco for 5 years. In the past I have spent mabey $35 on one nights worth of drugs (mushrooms and throwing in on a bag a marijuana.) Now I see my self doing $50 worth of coke in a 9 hour, all night binge. Every time I did a line I told myself it would be the last one of the night but 20 minutes latter, I am craving another line.
I have never had this experience with drugs before and I am affraid of getting an addiction to coke. I currently have a lousy coke connction, so it figure it would be hard to become addcited right now. But, next year I am moveing to Santa Clara (out side of San Jose) and I have been told by a friend who lives there that coke is very plentiful in that region. Plentiful to the point that people recieving free lines is not a rare occurence (I am not sure if this is the case where I will be living but it scares me none the less).
This trip report could probably be placed in the darkside forum but I think it fits better here. If a mod disagrees with me feel free to move it.
I am now left with some questions. Has anyone else had this problem/experince with coke (possibly being addicted after 10 or so uses)? Am I doomed for a life of drug addiction? Am I making a complete fool of my self by posting this? I realize that drugs make people do silly things like post druged out rants but I am on drugs and I need some harm reduction. I am feel like I am comming off as a whiner and mabey I am.
I hope found my post informative and hope you will post your comments and *especially* your experience with cocaine if they are close to my encounter.
peace
stinky
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