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I was part of the problem but so were you. It wasnt about love. I loved you and still do. We were the problem and were both too stubborn to see.
 
You will always be my goose, puppy, poody, sexy black haird man sexually lighting a cig....love you forever and ever
 
Bragging about baselessly calling somebody a child molester is beyond fucked up.
 
Are you happy now that you put my mom in the hospital? She works so hard and as soon as she comes home, you make her take you to the store. She’s constantly taking your sorry ass to the store so you can get liquor. Then you act belligerent towards her. You stress her out and you stress me out because I am constantly on edge.

I try to bite my tongue because when you talk to her in a mean and aggressive way, I want to curse you out and put you in your place. I actually did run you out of the house one night, but of course she brought you back.

You are NO good for her. You are controlling and do nothing, but run her around and annoy her. She can’t rest on her days off.

Since she’s in the hospital, this better be a wake up call to you. I will tell your bitch ass off. I will not stand by and let you kill my mother.

I wish she would get rid of you and be done with it. That’s why I have to get out of here. I don’t want to be a witness to this disaster.
 
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I never thought I'd actually feel like that but this break we are having from each other is being quite refreshing. Even with a shitty flu, I'm feeling I know what I want for me, and maybe that's how our son feels like as well. I'm so tired of confronting you and your issues I guess I forgot what I wanted for me, or what's best for our family.
 
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I never thought I'd actually feel like that but this break we are having from each other is being quite refreshing. Even with a shitty flu, I'm feeling I know what I want for me, and maybe that's how our son feels like as well. I'm so tired of confronting you and your issues I guess I forgot what I wanted for me, or what's best for our family.
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It’s good that you get to focus on yourself and you’re able to have clarity now. Feel better!
 
I'm glad I have permanent alimony so I won't remarry. Ever. I know you want to. I use my alimony as an excuse.

I love you but I don't want to be a stepmom to your children.

Thank you for not judging me. I'm fond of them and will always be nice to them.
 
How am I supposed to wait a few months to see you?! Waiting is killing me! Just saw the hottest interracial porn with Ana Foxxx being pounded by a white guy. Made me think of us. I love the way you give it to me. As soon as I get a chance, you are getting the best fuck of your life.

I’m sorry, God. Help. lol
 
I love listening to you on Sirius Satellite Comedy Greats channel and watching you on TV, but it hurts at the same time because I still love you. Our worlds collided at one time and I am forever grateful. Maybe in some other life, we could’ve been together. You’re way too much like me though. We’d probably have a very dark, toxic relationship and end up hating each other. “It takes two to toxic.”
 
I want to protect you because you are my mother, but what can I do if you keep letting your sorry ass “fiancé” stress you out? He’s the reason your heart was bad and you were in the hospital.

I can’t wait to escape because if I stay here and watch him run your health into the ground, I am going to blow up on him again. It will end very badly...and not for me.
 
how can I say it all. So many things. But they all add up to this one feeling that's taken over me. The combination of confusion, fear, sadness, love, missing you, resentment, longing, sexual deprivation, your vulgarity, cruelness, bitterness, sadism, mental torture. I don't know why you ignore what you know, what I've told you, what I need so badly from you. Why are you still here. I need more. I need to feel alive. I'm sorry I'm not good enough to make you want to make me feel it. Let's get wasted and fuck all night.
 
I think you are awesome. Couldnt give a shit about anything else but if you disrespect me, you're loss...also sorry im impervious to bullshit, so, we will have to leave your shit at that, dont engage in games and not bothered with achieving a consensus with the tribe, like you- if it doesnt serve me, not my problem - yours.

I know I scare the shit out of you, sorry but again, not my problem.

You're cool though. I think we respect each other in our own way but im smarter, in my own way and im not going to bend to anything that attempts to cull that. Nope.
 
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And the end, I can't say that I don't love you. It has definitely changed but I think it will be difficult no to be together. You are my best friend too. We have been through everything together, it's good I can count on you. We have to just let some things happen. We can't force it.
 
Please. Before you go thru your usual rage-a-thon, girl, feeling confident you've hidden your true feelings to whatever degree you've intended to (you are see-thru ctd), think first.

Can you ever truly appreciate what others do for you, regularly, to their great detriment most often, even if physically. Please let's not turn this into ugliness.

I don't think a single person truly sees how much I push myself, how fucking horrid I feel physically. I am stronger than most. I'm tough. Tougher than anyone sees. Because I'm not a braggard, or arrogant, and I act with honor.

No one sees. That's not what bothers me. It's the fact that if they dint see, they cannot actually know me very well. Failure to see this makes you misinterpret so much more than you think. And then.some more.

No one knows me. Even the oness who think they

Your "I can't" is my "fuck, this is not gonna be easy...". Your "I literally can't" is my "I literally almost died." And I'm still not safe, can I recover???? Anyone???? Anyone give a fuck ffs? It's just crazy!

Edit: my point - I did have one, lol - is that I NEED TO REST A LITTLE BIT! Without you thinking I'm being a bitch or something bc u don't really consider *how much I'm doing for so many in multiple places and in bags* ... Or u don't care? U are either unreasonabledue llargely to spoilage in youth to luxuries (doesn't make up for the fucked up shit, no, but it's a specific experience to grow up that way and you are surrounded with "helpful" or "easy for you" options without really thinking of the worker bees as living meat sacks, not machines withot limits or needs), or you don't care. I like to imagine ignorance rather than.apathy. Either way, I AM TOXIC WITH ILLNESS and I haven't rested while in bearable pain in....when? Please don't turn this silliness into some tags. Grudge. Etc. Just think. Thank you. For everything.

Edit: lmmfao, the above that's written between the asterisks, or *'s, sounds like i'm a dealer... I'm so not. That's not what it sounds like lol.
 
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I am so tired I could sleep for days in a roll. So don't blame me not right now..
 
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