Now I know the whole point, for me at least, to get on MMT was to stop IV'ing drugs. I didn't stop because I didn't like the high of shooting hydrmorphone, I did because I wanted
a) to save my money, which I wasn't able to anymore because a huge tolerance/daily needed dosage (32 to 56mg of dilaudid a day)
b) to stop iv'ing drugs as I am only able to shoot, especialy cos I can only IV drugs in my hands cos I am unable to register anywhere else, last time I've IV'd something, is in early october this year and the track mark, especially the one that was really huge on my hand still isn't gone
3) I knew methadone was going to keep my pain problems away, which is the first reason I ever bought opiates on the black market to start with at 28 years old, a few years ago, and it indeed sure does well as a painkiller.
Since I got to the dosage I was comfortable with a month ago, when I started to wake up when I wanted and not from feeling withdrawal, I am able to go get my dose 16-18 hours latr no problem, that dosage is 55mg.
But even though I got my life back on track, I missed feeling any sort of high. I was scripted hydroxyzine 50mg to take at night to reduce my intake of valium. Now that I am back at 10mg bid a day tho, I was a month or so having atarax (hydroxyzine) scripted to help their barbaric way too quick taper from it cos benzos ae OMGCARY to use if on methadone and benzo tolerance is not a factor. My pdoc had to intervene personally for me to keep my valium bid script.
I'm back from my mandatory MMT visit, which was the first one in a serie of unneeded ones I'll have to go to for a while since we found my sweet spot of 50gm. I just went there to tell my dispensor pharmacy was open on all days of the holidays and I also got a hydroxyzine 50mg script for 6 months now.
And I gotta say I am feeling high for the first in a long time (in the opiated way) since I found my sweet spot. Now I don't want to encourage anyone on methadone to try to potentiate their juice but I have that to say that HOLY CRAP HYDROXYZINE IS A STRONG POTENTIATOR.
I have nodded hard 3 hours later after having my dose this morning. I didn't think I could nod again, ever. I'm also since a month at 55mg of methadone so I thought my body would be tolerant to it even it is working to cause me to get very ill.
I don't intend on taking it as often as I thought I would now. Anyboy here with experience of methadone +hydroxyzine ? Did it get high/nodding even after being on a steady comfortable dose like it does for me ? Feedback appreciated.