For me it's just my personality, it comes pretty easy, but I know exactly what you mean. As of late I have been waiting and copping right before work so I am in a super great mood, but when I do t do that I have to try a little harder being that "nice gentleman" waiter. I have my dad where I am just flat, no real emotion I just do my job and dont try to be extra happy/nice as Im guessing everyone has those days. I love it because i know I'm walking out with cash money every time I come in and the bullshit that comes with it is minimal. The managers up there love me and I also consider myself a hard worker, and they do too. If I were bad on dope and didn't have Suboxone I couldn't pull it off.
Thx for the congrats, the girl is acctually an old friend oft sisters (she's 19) and it is causing friction not mention that 19 year old females tend to bring 19 year old female bullshit and drama so I think I'm gonna step off a bit. But Jesus this girl cant be categorized as anything but a whore. The firs night I met her she was on her period but back entrance want off limits and we will leave it at that. And that was THE VERY FIRST NIGHT I MET HER. The next night I wasn't out of her neighborhood before my dick was down her throat. I'm sure she has issues just waiting to bust
Out at anytime but I dont plan on being around long enough for her to dump that shit on me.
And yes I use protection.
Wtf have you been upto HOL. How is your situation coming along?
yea i hear ya, i mean its the food industry so it aint like u n I were the only drug users and or dope fiends but still it amazes me when i meet people who are more caught up then me n still pull it off,
like there is this one dude that still works where i worked, he was the only other dope user, but the difference is no one but him knew i was a dope user but everyone knows he's a user, he is lazy as fuck, he takes 30min bathroom breaks just about every 1.5 hrs, he is a mess, will occasionally nod in front of costumers ( i did every now n then too but just the half nod that u catch urself, he straight falls asleep standin up at the register) n it just blows my mind i got fired for tellin the owner to fuck himself but this guy still has a job n he'll make sandwiches with blood kinda drippin still on his arms, its like bro 1st off this is food keep ur blood away n 2nd does no one else know why there is a dab of blood comin from his elbow-pit?
heh, i figured yall were tired of hearin my shit
things have been gettin a little better, well. kinda, everything is still the same i just not sweatin it as much
still jobless, but on the bright side i have still been drug free so im not spendin any money, and i go to Wally world about once a day to steal what i need to eat, but man im gettin tired off the shit that fits in my pockets, i wanna just load up a cart n get some good meats n just walk out but i feel more comfortable just stuffin my pockets, plus the expensive meats n shit have the little sensor things in them soo im not comfortable jackin those
but yea, I pretty much have no money but havent needed it either soo i am doin alright
got the talk from my girls dad tho about me bein a bum n they kicked me outta their house, parents were kool with me comin back home tho since im drug free.
went up to my university n found out im prob still allowed to enroll (i was on academic probation last spring when i just stopped showin up n took F's) admissions said i was good and i have a meeting with my counselor mon at 11
fuckin one of my bailbonds company called me tho n said they were gonna forfeit my bond n put a warrant out cuz i wasnt callin and checking in (my denton Co. bonds company doesnt make me check in and i already went to court for my Dallas Co. case n i was under the impression that even if i was calling and checking in i would be allowed to stop once i showed up at court n didnt bail but they want me to check in until im on probabtion which is completely different from my situation in Denton Co. n now since i wasnt checkin in over the phone i gotta drive down once a week n do it in person, i dont like going down there cuz it makes me wanna cop and i dont really drive anywhere cuz of gas but now i gotta do that
i mean shit is lookin up n im doin fine but apparently im still not bein mature n responsible enough to fully take care of my shit, i need a job but have no desire to get one. plus i have a feeling once i get money back in my pocket stayin clean will be a little harder soo i just keep doin my day to day thing which pretty much entails waking up, playin with the dog, goin to see my grandma, chillin with my girl and thats about it, i mean im enjoying myself but no it wont last forever n soon enough ill either be in school or working or both n im not too stoked about goin back to my old ruitine cuz school made me wanna use n work gave me the ability to do soo
havent had anymore out of the usual encounters with nature (tho i wish)
yea, from the outside lookin in it prob doesnt sound too good or that im movin forward but i feel good n i do believe i am moving forward (slowly yes, but forward nonetheless)
how about yall, Memph n Ohline, yall good?