If I were in your shoes I would start doing heroin. When I was faced with horrible comedowns that are THAT bad, thats the only thing that really helped enough. But thats a bad idea.
Seriously try to chill the fuck out. Stop doing stimulants. I promise you the AMP is only making it so your mind has a really hard time recovering its dopamine. Yellow/blue/green vision is a sign of major dopamine depletion, and yellow must be at the worst end of the spectrum. I have many memories of waking up on rainy mornings with green vision wanting to die from speed or MPH binges...
Try taking more than you usually take of your klonipin for a few days, and eat lots of protein to recover dopamine. Why are you take the AMPs? I know you feel like you need them, but I would imagine by now you would want to be as far away from that feeling as possible...Its gonna make it much tougher to recover, and may make the MDPV comedown much more neurotoxic.
-lenses
This is a bit of the truly inglorious side of what happens to people like me. These days are lonely now, filled mainly with the dim electrical hum of a computer and a delusion world where you have no friends, only enemies, everywhere.
As i look out into my yard, things don't look as alive as they used to, where there was once a beautiful garden, now there is only overgrowth and a derelict wheel barrel. Where once there was the sounds of happiness and children playing, now there is only the wind and a lonely freight train passing in the distance.
Yellow/blue/green vision is a sign of major dopamine depletion, and yellow must be at the worst end of the spectrum.
"HAHA sorry u guys I was just dicking around I was tryingf to get to b a blue lighter i needed to post 3 more posts so i posted 3 stupid ones haha Anyway sorry
this way youll know you die if you use the drug
I've suffered psychosis similar if not worse from a night long binge which resulted in the consumption of 30 of what were supposedly ecstasy tablets. I recovered. Thinking back still scares the shit out of me though.
After a few days up on peevee running down a flight of stairs to look out my front door every 2 minutes to make sure my house wasnt surrounded by police seemed totally normal