Denial is a strong thing, buddy. Thats withdraw, but even after the acute withdraw is over you are still have a shot immune system during PAWS, up to a month after abrubtly stopping
Honestly, it wasnt a case of denial. I was new to the whole thing, so genuinely couldnt tell the difference. Things have changed very quickly though. I've been stop starting o-dt for a few months now though, so withdrawl symptoms have become all too familiar and recognisable to me now.
As i currently have no source of new supplies, i have decided to go on an extended run with my remaining supplies until they are all used up. This is rather than having to go through withdrawl several times I'm just keeping going on one extended binge until its all gone. I expect its going to be one hard crash at the end now. Still its not going to kill me eh ? I am going to be as organised as possible, and have done some careful calculations of how long my supplies will last @ current dosing, and have booked plenty of time off work at the required time to get through it. I have plenty of etizolam, pregabalin, stimulants, booze, recorded TV programs, films, cigarettes, pornography & chicken soup in stock !
I must also remember to do all the dish washing up before i run out. On one previous occasion when i was pretty ill with withdrawls i hadnt been keeping on top of "domestics" during that binge, and then when i was ill at the end of it, i had no energy whatsoever, and a kitchen chaotically piled full of dirty plates, dishes, pans, cuttlery etc....Nothing clean to eat from, and not much hope of sorting things out either in that state. What a fuckin disaster that was. No wonder i got a bad case of the shits on top of everything else !!