Downwardplane
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 27, 2008
- Messages
- 99
Thanks everyone for the compliments. This is the only place except NA where I can get what i'm feeling out there. I appreciate everyone that reads whether they agree with me or not.
Most of the weekend I was sending out resumes and visiting businesses looking for an interview. I heard back from a few people and have two interviews lined up tomorrow. The new me, the one without a shotgun pill. If it's a new beginning why am I so frightened? I mean i'm petrified of having to rebuild my whole life. Too much history in this city for me. I have memories of every area of this metropolis. Treading water and trying not to mess any of this up.
Night is always the worst time. Wish I could fast-forward to morning. Night always makes me think of all the mistakes i've made. Replaying each and every of them in varying order. Basis for it is loneliness, in time that will change too hopefully.
Most of the weekend I was sending out resumes and visiting businesses looking for an interview. I heard back from a few people and have two interviews lined up tomorrow. The new me, the one without a shotgun pill. If it's a new beginning why am I so frightened? I mean i'm petrified of having to rebuild my whole life. Too much history in this city for me. I have memories of every area of this metropolis. Treading water and trying not to mess any of this up.
Night is always the worst time. Wish I could fast-forward to morning. Night always makes me think of all the mistakes i've made. Replaying each and every of them in varying order. Basis for it is loneliness, in time that will change too hopefully.