So... this is like SL social?
Edit:
And a place to check in it seems, which I need as its nearly 0400 and I haven't slept yet. I've been sober for more than two years and in that time I get these episodes where I genuinely feel like I'm on Adderall. I used to take it occasionally for school/study purposes, but it was never habitual and never abused, I got it from my doc, no problems. In case you can't tell by my handle, I'm more of downer than an upper guy.
Anyways, I'm on Subutex Maintenance and I have entire days where it's like I'm on a recreational dose of speed. Shit, I clean the house, I organize my Magic Cards. I made a HUGE spreadsheet tonight. It catalogs every rare I own and my collection is not small. Then when I try to sleep nothing. My mind races, my heart beats, and I get so sweaty my shirts have rings on them... It's very unpleasant.
These episodes have been increasing in frequency and almost sort of dropping in intensity as they happen more often.
I know, I have a lot on my mind regarding my program and my sobriety. Quite a bit of program related shit floating around in my brain right now. I'm a new homeowner now, which only adds to the stress. But when I try to sleep I don't think about that I sing songs in my head or I put together MTG decks in my brain. Tomorrow I'll be functional and I'll have to be caffeinated to function, I don't enjoy that feeling. However, without it I'm non-functional.
So I guess what I'm asking is... To those of you with some sobriety time: Have you experienced this? What do you do to remedy? I'm prescribed a benzo for panic and the benzo doesn't even touch my energy level. I'm losing more and more sleep. I can't function like this much longer and my doctor wants to put me on Sonata or Ambien, both of which I've tried and isn't indicated for this kind of activity. My shrink says it's a manifestation of severe panic disorder. I understand that, but there has to be a way to sleep a few hours a night.
Also, besides the panic disorder I have zero history of mental illness.
Maybe I'm just an insomniac... I fucking hope not.